Encounter with an Ex

[yoUr bLiSS]

Coincidence or Orchestrated?
I choose the latter
The passing glance
The double-take
The disturbing recognition
A moment of shock
Panic
A million unsettling shivers
I held my ground
Danced to my song
Could it have been more fitting?
Periphial glances confirm your presence
Still
No more then 5 feet between us
Hat pushed down low
Glasses covering your eyes
Yet there is no mistaking that chin
No mistaking that chill
With no real thought
No real reason or warning
I turned on my heel
Ran my ass back to my friends

Tripping on my tongue
Tripping on my thoughts
Denial sets in
I really did not look to closely
I spot you in the distance
Walking away
The walk was familiar
The calves unusually large

JOSH

I can still feel your eyes on my back
What are your intentions?
Had you approached me
I would not have fled
Yet you merely watched
Closely
Quietly
For how long I wonder?

How dare you!
You knew I would be there
My favorite band was playing
Years ago we partied at that spot
All day long I wonder if I am being watched
Paranoid glances reveal nothing
To ease the unsettledness
I prepare for confrontation
Seeking you now as opposed to being seeked
After a few hours
I give up
You never find it
When your looking for it

I wish you no ill will
I truly hope you are changed
Yet the image of those sunglassed eyes
Piercing into the back of me
Does not sit well
Does not give me a sense of peace within yourself
This is not what my night is going to be about
The time for my favorite band approaches
Same stage
Same placing
I get swept away
Nothing else matters but the music
Yet I know you are close

The night ends perfectly
A experience I truly doubt will ever be topped
You being only a slight nuisance in the final outcome

Closure never came for us
I pray for your release
I pray the past has changed you for the better
I pray for Mychelle
She deserves everything your soul has to offer
And more
Our scars are an everyday reminder
Of who we never should have been
Who I will never be again

I only hope you have learned the same

 

[neverwas]

encounters with any of m x-s still give me a chill. i cant figure out why, but they do. i hold no ill feelings towards any of mine. i am really happy right now. i dont think i could be happier, but sometimes its the ones where there was some sort of un-finished business or feelings that when i see them...thats what re-surfaces. its like a slap in the face.

great peice of writting. good to see you're still floating around

 

[mariacallas]

this is awesome.....hits too close to home . Very good.

 

[Doctor Love]

I loved this poem my dear, and BTW you and me need to catch up, we having chilled in way to long






-Doctor Luuuuv

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

Doctor love!!! OMG! old old school BL! The first I ever met in fact. How exciting! Thank you for you words....

 

[cherub]

I love this strong piece,, such heart and truth. Great stuff