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Greenlighter
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So about 4 or 5 months ago it was my friend's birthday and we (Me and 2 friends) to try shrooms (First time for all of us). We each got an eighth to ourselves from some indian/tribal looking dude. The night before they all ate a whole mushroom, each bag contained about 3 decent sized ones. I only ate a stem (Cap is the strongest part, I saved it), we also crushed some up and smoked it with weed mixed in our bong. Then the next day we ate the rest of what we each had, they had 2 full mushrooms, I had one medium-sized one, a huge one, and my cap left from the stem I had eaten the previous night. My big mushroom was about 2.9 grams alone. First of all, both my friends left me upstairs by myself, and at first I was like, woah this is kool, I'm trippin'.. Everything breathed with me, everything was very blurry, not much colour during the first 3 hours. Things like my friends cat grew and swirled into a huge spiral, minutes felt like hours, and sentances flowed through my head at the same time by the millionths. Everything made sense and it was fun for a while.. I started feeling way out of it.. Alone, and very very lonely, as if no one else could see and feel what is happening to me. A very big mindfuck, then I remember the Indian guy saying, "Be careful, those shrooms will do things to you." My first and biggest fear was tripping forever.. Lol I know it may sounds dumb, but it scared me. Many kids are like, "yea' that'd be sweet!" I disagree. I felt like I lost my mind, I questioned my sanity and everything I had thought to be real before. I also feel as though I relized why they are illegal, because they teach you things, and the government wants mindless, souless, unintellegent beings, so they can control you easily, as they do now. I also had another thought, the forbidden fruit, spoke of in many religious books that tempted Adam and Eve, are psychedelics, because if you recall it states that they learned much from this fruit, and it made them uncomfortable with their current lives. Just a thought I guess.. I remember my friend telling me,"If you get too scared hit the bong, it'll calm you down." I learned later that this can intensify the trip, but then I didn't know, so I took hit after hit trying to escape my internal insanity. (If I wrote a book about it that's what it'd be called 
lol). I also remember barely being able to walk to the bathroom, I mean it was extremely diffecult. Then I started eating to try and come down, and I sat down on a bed next to my friend who had eaten the shrooms in the morning (I had eaten them at about 3-4PM) and he was feeling as if he was going to die, he explained to me. Good thing to tell me at the peak of my trip, right? Then he asks, and I qoute, Dude,... are you okay?" The worst thing to ask a tripper. Hands down. I didn't know if I was talking aloud or in my head but I questioned myself either way," I don't know... Am I okay?" I was caught in a mind-loop, in my head I knew I was tripping too hard because I had thought too much, even before I tripped I was always inside of my head, questioning things that most kids ignore. I figured I could retrace my steps through my brain and thus, escape this nightmare. Around this time I started seeing the colours, two rainbows in the sky at 10 PM, the reggae concert I was watching was very colourful, and the screen of my phone. Finally, I could feel that I was starting to come down and became very relieved, but I will never forget that weird feeling. It was very prominent, every couple mintues it felt as though I was going to trip very hard again, it would come and go for a few seconds. Something asked me if I wanted to stay in this place, it had a name, but I can't remember it. I heard no voice, I could feel what it was saying to me. This may sounds crazy and stupid to people who have never experienced it. But I almost wanted to go... to stay. Why? I felt as though if I didn't go there and give up my sanity I could never visit or see this place again. I decided not to go. But if I had would I still be tripping today? Mind-boggling... The whole experience taught me about how much we don't know.. There's a WHOLE 'nother world out there! It made this reality seem small and unimportant. For a long time everytime I would smoke weed ( I smoke it everyday almost ) I would begin having the same visuals but not as prominent (fibers/static on walls that I seen while tripping, called them the fibers of life while I was on shrooms.. we wrote down our experience in a journal, I also see paisley patterns) Even when not high on anything I sometimes see ( though it fades more and more by the months ) static when I look at blank things, but when I study detailed objects its not there.. I just can't look at a black or white anything that is plain pretty much. It's much worse in the dark. Sometimes now though, I wonder if I'm crazy or schizophrenic. I have always been a very abstract thinker.. I will share with you some of my ideas/thoughts: I think people who don't smoke Marijuana put incense on the market for people who do to possibly make them stupid, or kill them off, because incense (Lol Demon, etc. I had smoked Lol and been fine, then I tried Demon and it scared the shit outta' me, thought I was going to die after 1 hit) has killed many people. I also think that many people are being put on medication like adderall and ritalin to control them easier, because it makes them so zombie-like and they prescribe it to so many fucking people that don't need it! And as for God and religious belief I was Muslim for awhile (Moms Christian, Dads Muslim, divorced, surprise right? I live with my grandma) but after trippin I relized that there's no way to tell which religion is right, God isn't going to send you to Hell if you're a good person just becaue you ,"Picked the wrong one." Lol As long as you're a good person I believe you will go to Heaven. If you don't believe in God, to each his own, too many people try forcing things on people, and in turn only push them away. Anyways, I still want to try LSD, but am very nervous, and I don't want to go into it with that mindset, though I heard it's more visual and less of a mindfuck, the visuals don't scare me, it's the mind loop thing. I would like to add that I have achieved many good grades while in High School, I am on the wrestling team, into poetry, and studying to be a psychologist, then I want to use my cash to become my dream job, a rapper. I know it sounds dumb and inachievable. Any comments would be appreciated weither it's interpreting my trip, building on my ideas, or just letting me know I'm sane, sorry for the long post, Lol Thanks
lol). I also remember barely being able to walk to the bathroom, I mean it was extremely diffecult. Then I started eating to try and come down, and I sat down on a bed next to my friend who had eaten the shrooms in the morning (I had eaten them at about 3-4PM) and he was feeling as if he was going to die, he explained to me. Good thing to tell me at the peak of my trip, right? Then he asks, and I qoute, Dude,... are you okay?" The worst thing to ask a tripper. Hands down. I didn't know if I was talking aloud or in my head but I questioned myself either way," I don't know... Am I okay?" I was caught in a mind-loop, in my head I knew I was tripping too hard because I had thought too much, even before I tripped I was always inside of my head, questioning things that most kids ignore. I figured I could retrace my steps through my brain and thus, escape this nightmare. Around this time I started seeing the colours, two rainbows in the sky at 10 PM, the reggae concert I was watching was very colourful, and the screen of my phone. Finally, I could feel that I was starting to come down and became very relieved, but I will never forget that weird feeling. It was very prominent, every couple mintues it felt as though I was going to trip very hard again, it would come and go for a few seconds. Something asked me if I wanted to stay in this place, it had a name, but I can't remember it. I heard no voice, I could feel what it was saying to me. This may sounds crazy and stupid to people who have never experienced it. But I almost wanted to go... to stay. Why? I felt as though if I didn't go there and give up my sanity I could never visit or see this place again. I decided not to go. But if I had would I still be tripping today? Mind-boggling... The whole experience taught me about how much we don't know.. There's a WHOLE 'nother world out there! It made this reality seem small and unimportant. For a long time everytime I would smoke weed ( I smoke it everyday almost ) I would begin having the same visuals but not as prominent (fibers/static on walls that I seen while tripping, called them the fibers of life while I was on shrooms.. we wrote down our experience in a journal, I also see paisley patterns) Even when not high on anything I sometimes see ( though it fades more and more by the months ) static when I look at blank things, but when I study detailed objects its not there.. I just can't look at a black or white anything that is plain pretty much. It's much worse in the dark. Sometimes now though, I wonder if I'm crazy or schizophrenic. I have always been a very abstract thinker.. I will share with you some of my ideas/thoughts: I think people who don't smoke Marijuana put incense on the market for people who do to possibly make them stupid, or kill them off, because incense (Lol Demon, etc. I had smoked Lol and been fine, then I tried Demon and it scared the shit outta' me, thought I was going to die after 1 hit) has killed many people. I also think that many people are being put on medication like adderall and ritalin to control them easier, because it makes them so zombie-like and they prescribe it to so many fucking people that don't need it! And as for God and religious belief I was Muslim for awhile (Moms Christian, Dads Muslim, divorced, surprise right? I live with my grandma) but after trippin I relized that there's no way to tell which religion is right, God isn't going to send you to Hell if you're a good person just becaue you ,"Picked the wrong one." Lol As long as you're a good person I believe you will go to Heaven. If you don't believe in God, to each his own, too many people try forcing things on people, and in turn only push them away. Anyways, I still want to try LSD, but am very nervous, and I don't want to go into it with that mindset, though I heard it's more visual and less of a mindfuck, the visuals don't scare me, it's the mind loop thing. I would like to add that I have achieved many good grades while in High School, I am on the wrestling team, into poetry, and studying to be a psychologist, then I want to use my cash to become my dream job, a rapper. I know it sounds dumb and inachievable. Any comments would be appreciated weither it's interpreting my trip, building on my ideas, or just letting me know I'm sane, sorry for the long post, Lol Thanks 
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