Sean came over and stayed. I can't say I felt cared for the whole time. I don't know. He won't kiss me unless I try to get it from him He did cuddle at come point, when he didn't have a beer in his hand.
He says that he hasn't drank all week and he doesn't have a problem. Ok. I can't change something that he doesn't want to change.
I asked him why he has been so distant. Why he doesn't text..he says he likes to have me do it first. I don't know, maybe he likes to feel needed too but where does that leave me. I told him that I've been told that I have relationship paranoia...he laughed and said "Oh really, ya think?" But now he is getting to the point that he doesn't trust me as much as he should for reasons I don't want to share.
There seem to be so many messes to clean up. I need to find a job, but I don't know what that will mean for us. He needs a new one because he hates the ones he is at. He doesn't sleep well either which I think hurts his mood. I don't think hes all that happy. He needs to get his OWI taken care of. He seems to think that I will take a phone call and one meeting and it will be fixed. Idk if he is trying or what the case is.
We hung out and he only had 4 beers with food. But then again we didn't fight...but there are a lot of issues floating around and I'm doing all I can to help. I guess I believe that through helping others I can help myself.
He has given up on the food thing although I ususally try. I just couldn't do it last night. He simply wants me to double check my text messages because of auto text messing them up so he can understand me. What kind of request is that?
Somtimes he just seems so hopeless, so indifferent, about everything. Fixing things, going somewhere, us.
If the tramadol isn't here by Monday I'm going to be pissed. I'll hang out in my room high until school...I'll sit in class high, give a presentation high...ok maybe on that one. I mean my prof. isn't stupid. I just don't care. Maybe school will suck less ya know.
Notes:
See if meds work
Get 2 Dr appts
Get meds
Check SIDA and MUSCO
Pick up Earl May app
Turn in apps
Turn in last ditch app
Catch up on all my back homework
Talk to Dr. about flatline and then dip to depression? Paranoia?
He says that he hasn't drank all week and he doesn't have a problem. Ok. I can't change something that he doesn't want to change.
I asked him why he has been so distant. Why he doesn't text..he says he likes to have me do it first. I don't know, maybe he likes to feel needed too but where does that leave me. I told him that I've been told that I have relationship paranoia...he laughed and said "Oh really, ya think?" But now he is getting to the point that he doesn't trust me as much as he should for reasons I don't want to share.
There seem to be so many messes to clean up. I need to find a job, but I don't know what that will mean for us. He needs a new one because he hates the ones he is at. He doesn't sleep well either which I think hurts his mood. I don't think hes all that happy. He needs to get his OWI taken care of. He seems to think that I will take a phone call and one meeting and it will be fixed. Idk if he is trying or what the case is.
We hung out and he only had 4 beers with food. But then again we didn't fight...but there are a lot of issues floating around and I'm doing all I can to help. I guess I believe that through helping others I can help myself.
He has given up on the food thing although I ususally try. I just couldn't do it last night. He simply wants me to double check my text messages because of auto text messing them up so he can understand me. What kind of request is that?
Somtimes he just seems so hopeless, so indifferent, about everything. Fixing things, going somewhere, us.
If the tramadol isn't here by Monday I'm going to be pissed. I'll hang out in my room high until school...I'll sit in class high, give a presentation high...ok maybe on that one. I mean my prof. isn't stupid. I just don't care. Maybe school will suck less ya know.
Notes:
See if meds work
Get 2 Dr appts
Get meds
Check SIDA and MUSCO
Pick up Earl May app
Turn in apps
Turn in last ditch app
Catch up on all my back homework
Talk to Dr. about flatline and then dip to depression? Paranoia?