swilow
Bluelight Crew
Hello,
This is something I have pondered for many moons; why do people seemingly reject the ego? And, for many moons before that, why do so many people get caught up in the hateful trance of the ego?
I even had the audacity to think that egoism is delusion, or blind arrogance.
I've started to see that rejecting the ego structure is actually a defense engineered by the ego structure itself. It seems to comfort humanity to hate itself. I don't understand that at all. I also have very little feeling left in regards to the nature of humanity, except to embrace the parts I know and am..
I don't like the negative connotations of words like nihilism, moral relativism, existentialism, ect. But I defintely see that these qualities are rejected in fear of the ego, in fear that giving in to ones self is likely to cause unhappiness- unhappinness is also a facade or state of the ego. My dislike of these terms won't stop me from using them....
Obviously, paying to much attention to any state or structrure/artefact of mind is unwise, but in many ways, all states of mind are related (by the common bond of the mind), and each have both equal value and valueless-ness. If one gets caught up in a desire to seem powerful in the minds of others, that often leads to a fall; its unattainable. However, if one gets caught up in the desire to be powerful in their own minds- that is good; you are using your own perceptive powers to work the ego structure into a desireable state; it could be said that a desireable state is illusory, but then, every mental state could be seen that way.
Hmm, I am unsure if I've conveyed anything here:
Perhaps a more brutal approach then my own thoughts, but- Max Stirner writes some interesting stuff.
Hating the ego is like tying an unending knot....
This is something I have pondered for many moons; why do people seemingly reject the ego? And, for many moons before that, why do so many people get caught up in the hateful trance of the ego?
I even had the audacity to think that egoism is delusion, or blind arrogance.
I've started to see that rejecting the ego structure is actually a defense engineered by the ego structure itself. It seems to comfort humanity to hate itself. I don't understand that at all. I also have very little feeling left in regards to the nature of humanity, except to embrace the parts I know and am..
I don't like the negative connotations of words like nihilism, moral relativism, existentialism, ect. But I defintely see that these qualities are rejected in fear of the ego, in fear that giving in to ones self is likely to cause unhappiness- unhappinness is also a facade or state of the ego. My dislike of these terms won't stop me from using them....
Obviously, paying to much attention to any state or structrure/artefact of mind is unwise, but in many ways, all states of mind are related (by the common bond of the mind), and each have both equal value and valueless-ness. If one gets caught up in a desire to seem powerful in the minds of others, that often leads to a fall; its unattainable. However, if one gets caught up in the desire to be powerful in their own minds- that is good; you are using your own perceptive powers to work the ego structure into a desireable state; it could be said that a desireable state is illusory, but then, every mental state could be seen that way.
Hmm, I am unsure if I've conveyed anything here:
Because I cannot grasp the moon, is it therefore sacred to me, an Astarte? If I could only grasp you, I surely would, and, if I could only find a means to get up to you, you shall not frighten me! You inapprehensible one, you shall remain inapprehensible to me only until I have acquired the might for apprehension and call you my own; I do not give myself up before you, but only bide my time. Even if for the present I put up with my inability to touch you, I yet remember it against you.
– Max Stirner, The Ego and Its Own
Perhaps a more brutal approach then my own thoughts, but- Max Stirner writes some interesting stuff.
Hating the ego is like tying an unending knot....