Effort

I seem to be FINALLY learning the simple lessons that others seem to have nailed down pat.

There's a saying 'Nothing changes if nothing changes.' Damn, man, this is true. Ya see, I want the benefits of hard labor without applying any effort. This shit don't work like that.

I realize that I need to work on change. When I apply just a little effort to change/improve my life/perspective I receive the benefits.

Example: Today is the second day in a row that I have jogged. Granted, I only run a half mile at a time but it feels GOOD. Why? Because I'm actually doing something to improve myself as opposed to simply wanting to improve myself.

This jogging thing is another example of how most changes in life are slow and gradual processes. I won't see the physical results of my efforts immediately but, in time, I'll have that elusive ideal body that I seek.

From a recovery perspective, the 'work' I'm doing (taking chances with new people, speaking honestly in front of a group, opening up to another male regardless of potential judgment) is starting to show results.

Change is uncomfortable for me (sometimes terrifying) but I do things differently regardless because I KNOW it will benefit me long term.

I just need to continue to apply effort towards change for my long term benefits without expecting instant results.

These are some pretty cool lessons I'm learning about myself.

I kind of dig it.
 
Nice one! I've recently gotten back into running, and it's great, isnt' it? If/when you want to try for longer distance, just alternate running and walking at first. It's easiest to split it up by time, say 3 min running 1 min walking. As you progress, lengthen the time that you spend running, and eventually decrease then do away with the walking portions.
 
man, looking back on this entry is disheartening.

I no longer have the zest to better myself. I no longer have the motivation to live.

Jogging? Fuck, I no longer care. There is no motivation to pursue a decent life. I had a GREAT opportunity to be something/someone.

I no longer care about such things as living. I simply wait for the inevitable
 
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