DonMakaveli
Bluelighter
I decided to make this thread in hopes of a little dicussion to start up, knowledge of the substance along with intelligent responses would make me happy 
Now, I'm not an aI always had this thought. First time writing it out for other bluelighter's insight and maybe learn a thing or two. Before my first roll I took the time thru a handful of sketchy dealers and finally got hooked up with a reliable source one of my best friends was familiar with and swore by him. If i was gona roll for the first time & experience what the fuss was about this drug with its name already intriguing.
With no tolerance or expectations of how it would hit me or an idea of how to react; I took the capsule my friend gave me filled with 'Molly". The pure MDMA in powder with no fillers, binders, & god knows what else people put in those pills. I took the capsule, went about what I was doing not to get my hopes up and then it happened... probably 40 mins close to an hour I started to get a rush I was told about, was'nt too strong like a fat shot of sum china white brown, but it was new to me & nice.. Pretty mild at first but definitely euphoric, that itself was great for me cuz only time I remember actual "euphoria" was snorting Meth ice, years and years ago. No amnt of pills, dank weed, or china white dope... I sat down, focusing more mentally on what was happening while holding my xbox controller still... This i think lasted maybe 15-20 mins before the main rush subsided, nonignorant to drugs theres always phases or stages of effects. The initial mild euphoric rush ended but just as quickly I felt a warmth come over me as I was frozen on my couch holding my controller and not paying attention to me getting arrested in GTA V on my first 6 star chase (big deal for ppl knowin what im talkin about) lol My friend started complaining n throwing a fit that I didnt seem to care but I was zoned into what this white goddess in powder form was doing to me... My rent that I was behind on, making my apt look halfway dent for company coming over, the seriousness of getting down to the doc office for a notye for proof at work to avoid termination; all faaded into the depths of my mind. Might have been erased shit idc then.At the
At this time my gf, my soul mate, was sitting net to me resting her head on my shoulder waiting what was next to happen (she not one of those pro-drug women eh) next. My roommate rippin the controller away from my head, cussing at my lack of interest in his game, his voice soon faded & I turned my attention to my beautiful Gf, took off her shoes n laid her leg across my lap. Iv been blessed with these eyes women are attracted too, idk, I dont complain. Its like magnets to them lool I know she was locked onto mine and Im thinking about at this point the convos we had eaarlier bout how she was goin thru alot, alot, with her living situation & abusive family etc. Instantly I had this new profound, more in touch empathy, sympathy & genuine compassion I expressed to her with words I didnt know my vocabulary possessed.. Still her & I sitting in the same position, our eyes never separated from each other. Unknown to her ofcourse, of any drug use, my insides interally, my organs and geart were having constant, powerful orgasmic waves of contentment, well being & euphoria. Lol My facial expression resembled the Joker, ear-to-ear grin, intentionally listening to everything she shared with me, not the typical guy 'nods' & 'oh really babe' I mean every que I had to give her my input I blew it out of the water & sometimes brought different, more omplexx perspectives on whatever the situation, question was.
This being my first roll experience, especially experiencing it with her, my supreme confidence & true sympathy for her life had her hooked, in a trance like Iv neva seen from not just here but from any female iv been with lol This exhange of new found emotions , experiences in each other lasted a lil over 35 minutes. Which in return got me more excited for us becoming closer; I jumped up real quick off my couch, aall energetic talkin bout how our lives could be better "no one or no setback has more power than we do within ourselves!" and my mouth ran off spewing educated, slightly wild Martin Luther/2Pac type shit I told them to follow me to my room, Im half walkin, sprintin down the hallway, set up this damn cool strobe light lamp I had, like strobe lights but also did those sky lights night clubs use in the skin & it spun around. Before they got to my room I turned on the radio, my 5 speaker surrouund system came into play perfectly! My girl was already excited, she put on her hip/hop club dance songs she likes, fine with me I enjoyeed watching her smile and begun dancin with her hips, dropping low, club dancin ya know
Im already bout hour n a half into my roll, havent peaked yet but I felt subtle signs it was about to happen real soon, bare in my mind for when that came to be; I already had my own agenda planned that didnt include my homeboy. lol Him & I sat down edge of my bed, my girl had a few of her drinks not too long after I dose my E so she feelin good too which made the roll even better. Now I aint no jealous mofo, inseure & dont trust ppl who dont deserve to not be tr be trusted, but mainly; I KNOW what I got as a man; physically, mentally, ambition, a bond shared between my girl & I "Mariana trench" deep. Talkin she dropped out junior year in HS to move states with me cuz I had too, still made her ass finish school soon after; diploma received. So my friend feelin awkward I know he had too cuz I got this humor wit my Gf, i let her give him a lapdance, real intimate, sexy my friends lol So confused his look on his face, tryna peep out my Gf's cleavage n looking back at me constantly; hilarious. As if he looking for permission from me if I was his moma, catching his hand in the cookie jar. Poor guy. I allowed that to happen a few mins more cuz my body temo started raising , I was peaking even harder now, bout 2 hours give or take few mins after dosing my Molly. A familiar feelings came over me when I took off my shirt which I had already been sweating, now hovering over my friend I got this feeling of dominance or supremacy that I would always get with good Coke. My Gf knew the deal, quickly & not rude but I let him he had to go right now, he understood,
That was my best friend, but at that exact moment I didnt give a fuck who he was, ya know lol
MDMA was in full effect on me, hardd, I basically dissed my homeboy without real explanation, didnt walk to the front door n say later bro, close my door soon as he walked out
Reason for me acting so spontaneous was simple, sex was desired by her & I, strongly at that. With her been out of town for a week, I was around my homeboy so much durin that time, we got mistaken for a gay couple. Lol
2.5 hours rolling on this drug gave me every first high I ever got from every drug Iv done before, back for that time. Her clothes came off in record time (dont trip Im not gona get in graphic detail or even close), the bra was only ting that got ripped & ruined. Didn't care it was a gift her ex-bf gave to her weeks before we actually got together lol I can see some of you bluelight junkies flaming me for not blowin up at her for wearin a bra her ex gave. On the contrary, that was her playin him, kept the bra cuz it WAS nice, expensive from Victorias Secret, girls are girls they like nice things shit idc.
Anyways long story short, I was excited for sex with this girl I love cuz iv heard rumours its the best and feels even better. I found that out fast, & in no time at all. But what someone neglected to inform me of was that her & I would be FUCKING THE WHOLE DAMN NIGHT!
Noo ok babe lets take a break n keep goin ina lil bit, nah I mean every part of that room was occupied, positive I lost 6lbs dat night too lol Good times.
Ok ok sorry, I felt like I needed to explain that backstory for a prelude to the question I was gona impose, hopefully get some insight & thoughts...
So, MDMA (pure,Molly) & its cousin derivatives (MDA MDE, whatever not familiar with those) but mainly MDMA, an amazing, exciting, truly euphoric, no social/physical hindering (except maybe not bein able to be still or mouth shut), cold blooded physco gain somewhat sensitivity, sensitive/ outgoing people learn even more about themselves, etc list truly does go on with pros.
Now, while all that is great and wonderful, most enjoyable physical/emotional/mentally stimulating exxperience for most.. nothing last forever & in this life; If its too good to be true, you damn right it is.
Even after my first ever dose, no dependency to have withdrawals afterwards, the infamous comedown "crash" the next morning/afternoon is hands down IMO, the worst. Ni energy not an once, depersonalized, wasnt the same person as before, agitated to everyone, dont ask me anythin or sayin anythin to me until Im ready, type shit...
Fuck, Iv been on 4-5 day Ice binges, dank ass shards every time smoked or snorted. Didnt even need a benzo for the crash, felt like shit yea..
Benzos are a close, CLOSE, second to me IMO cuz those last over a span of a few days atleast each day still shitty, but compared to one full day of pure withdrawal of MDMA or a Xanax or Valium.. theres no comp for me.
At first it drove me crazy not knowing why I wanted to die after rolling hard one night, good to know science explains everything lol Ecstasy in your brain acts like a waterfall to your feel good feelings, serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine which are largley increased at first by the MDMA itself. Then unlike any other drug I know, just pulls a lever to tilt the waterfall of Ecstasy and DRAINS your brain of all of that shit, pleasure resulting from that is explainable, duh. But fuk. Can you imagine if someone they made an instant chaser type thing to take after you roll so there was no hangover? Somehow if the crash was only as bad as a hard night of drinking.
Wouldnt that make it the best drug ever????
Id petition the whole word to legalize the sale of it O-T-C... :D
Now, I'm not an aI always had this thought. First time writing it out for other bluelighter's insight and maybe learn a thing or two. Before my first roll I took the time thru a handful of sketchy dealers and finally got hooked up with a reliable source one of my best friends was familiar with and swore by him. If i was gona roll for the first time & experience what the fuss was about this drug with its name already intriguing.
With no tolerance or expectations of how it would hit me or an idea of how to react; I took the capsule my friend gave me filled with 'Molly". The pure MDMA in powder with no fillers, binders, & god knows what else people put in those pills. I took the capsule, went about what I was doing not to get my hopes up and then it happened... probably 40 mins close to an hour I started to get a rush I was told about, was'nt too strong like a fat shot of sum china white brown, but it was new to me & nice.. Pretty mild at first but definitely euphoric, that itself was great for me cuz only time I remember actual "euphoria" was snorting Meth ice, years and years ago. No amnt of pills, dank weed, or china white dope... I sat down, focusing more mentally on what was happening while holding my xbox controller still... This i think lasted maybe 15-20 mins before the main rush subsided, nonignorant to drugs theres always phases or stages of effects. The initial mild euphoric rush ended but just as quickly I felt a warmth come over me as I was frozen on my couch holding my controller and not paying attention to me getting arrested in GTA V on my first 6 star chase (big deal for ppl knowin what im talkin about) lol My friend started complaining n throwing a fit that I didnt seem to care but I was zoned into what this white goddess in powder form was doing to me... My rent that I was behind on, making my apt look halfway dent for company coming over, the seriousness of getting down to the doc office for a notye for proof at work to avoid termination; all faaded into the depths of my mind. Might have been erased shit idc then.At the
At this time my gf, my soul mate, was sitting net to me resting her head on my shoulder waiting what was next to happen (she not one of those pro-drug women eh) next. My roommate rippin the controller away from my head, cussing at my lack of interest in his game, his voice soon faded & I turned my attention to my beautiful Gf, took off her shoes n laid her leg across my lap. Iv been blessed with these eyes women are attracted too, idk, I dont complain. Its like magnets to them lool I know she was locked onto mine and Im thinking about at this point the convos we had eaarlier bout how she was goin thru alot, alot, with her living situation & abusive family etc. Instantly I had this new profound, more in touch empathy, sympathy & genuine compassion I expressed to her with words I didnt know my vocabulary possessed.. Still her & I sitting in the same position, our eyes never separated from each other. Unknown to her ofcourse, of any drug use, my insides interally, my organs and geart were having constant, powerful orgasmic waves of contentment, well being & euphoria. Lol My facial expression resembled the Joker, ear-to-ear grin, intentionally listening to everything she shared with me, not the typical guy 'nods' & 'oh really babe' I mean every que I had to give her my input I blew it out of the water & sometimes brought different, more omplexx perspectives on whatever the situation, question was.
This being my first roll experience, especially experiencing it with her, my supreme confidence & true sympathy for her life had her hooked, in a trance like Iv neva seen from not just here but from any female iv been with lol This exhange of new found emotions , experiences in each other lasted a lil over 35 minutes. Which in return got me more excited for us becoming closer; I jumped up real quick off my couch, aall energetic talkin bout how our lives could be better "no one or no setback has more power than we do within ourselves!" and my mouth ran off spewing educated, slightly wild Martin Luther/2Pac type shit
I told them to follow me to my room, Im half walkin, sprintin down the hallway, set up this damn cool strobe light lamp I had, like strobe lights but also did those sky lights night clubs use in the skin & it spun around. Before they got to my room I turned on the radio, my 5 speaker surrouund system came into play perfectly! My girl was already excited, she put on her hip/hop club dance songs she likes, fine with me I enjoyeed watching her smile and begun dancin with her hips, dropping low, club dancin ya know Im already bout hour n a half into my roll, havent peaked yet but I felt subtle signs it was about to happen real soon, bare in my mind for when that came to be; I already had my own agenda planned that didnt include my homeboy. lol Him & I sat down edge of my bed, my girl had a few of her drinks not too long after I dose my E so she feelin good too which made the roll even better. Now I aint no jealous mofo, inseure & dont trust ppl who dont deserve to not be tr be trusted, but mainly; I KNOW what I got as a man; physically, mentally, ambition, a bond shared between my girl & I "Mariana trench" deep. Talkin she dropped out junior year in HS to move states with me cuz I had too, still made her ass finish school soon after; diploma received. So my friend feelin awkward I know he had too cuz I got this humor wit my Gf, i let her give him a lapdance, real intimate, sexy my friends lol So confused his look on his face, tryna peep out my Gf's cleavage n looking back at me constantly; hilarious. As if he looking for permission from me if I was his moma, catching his hand in the cookie jar. Poor guy. I allowed that to happen a few mins more cuz my body temo started raising , I was peaking even harder now, bout 2 hours give or take few mins after dosing my Molly. A familiar feelings came over me when I took off my shirt which I had already been sweating, now hovering over my friend I got this feeling of dominance or supremacy that I would always get with good Coke. My Gf knew the deal, quickly & not rude but I let him he had to go right now, he understood,
That was my best friend, but at that exact moment I didnt give a fuck who he was, ya know lol
MDMA was in full effect on me, hardd, I basically dissed my homeboy without real explanation, didnt walk to the front door n say later bro, close my door soon as he walked out
Reason for me acting so spontaneous was simple, sex was desired by her & I, strongly at that. With her been out of town for a week, I was around my homeboy so much durin that time, we got mistaken for a gay couple. Lol 2.5 hours rolling on this drug gave me every first high I ever got from every drug Iv done before, back for that time. Her clothes came off in record time (dont trip Im not gona get in graphic detail or even close), the bra was only ting that got ripped & ruined. Didn't care it was a gift her ex-bf gave to her weeks before we actually got together lol I can see some of you bluelight junkies flaming me for not blowin up at her for wearin a bra her ex gave. On the contrary, that was her playin him, kept the bra cuz it WAS nice, expensive from Victorias Secret, girls are girls they like nice things shit idc.
Anyways long story short, I was excited for sex with this girl I love cuz iv heard rumours its the best and feels even better. I found that out fast, & in no time at all. But what someone neglected to inform me of was that her & I would be FUCKING THE WHOLE DAMN NIGHT!
Noo ok babe lets take a break n keep goin ina lil bit, nah I mean every part of that room was occupied, positive I lost 6lbs dat night too lol Good times. Ok ok sorry, I felt like I needed to explain that backstory for a prelude to the question I was gona impose, hopefully get some insight & thoughts...
So, MDMA (pure,Molly) & its cousin derivatives (MDA MDE, whatever not familiar with those) but mainly MDMA, an amazing, exciting, truly euphoric, no social/physical hindering (except maybe not bein able to be still or mouth shut), cold blooded physco gain somewhat sensitivity, sensitive/ outgoing people learn even more about themselves, etc list truly does go on with pros.
Now, while all that is great and wonderful, most enjoyable physical/emotional/mentally stimulating exxperience for most.. nothing last forever & in this life; If its too good to be true, you damn right it is.
Even after my first ever dose, no dependency to have withdrawals afterwards, the infamous comedown "crash" the next morning/afternoon is hands down IMO, the worst. Ni energy not an once, depersonalized, wasnt the same person as before, agitated to everyone, dont ask me anythin or sayin anythin to me until Im ready, type shit...
Fuck, Iv been on 4-5 day Ice binges, dank ass shards every time smoked or snorted. Didnt even need a benzo for the crash, felt like shit yea..
Benzos are a close, CLOSE, second to me IMO cuz those last over a span of a few days atleast each day still shitty, but compared to one full day of pure withdrawal of MDMA or a Xanax or Valium.. theres no comp for me.
At first it drove me crazy not knowing why I wanted to die after rolling hard one night, good to know science explains everything lol Ecstasy in your brain acts like a waterfall to your feel good feelings, serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine which are largley increased at first by the MDMA itself. Then unlike any other drug I know, just pulls a lever to tilt the waterfall of Ecstasy and DRAINS your brain of all of that shit, pleasure resulting from that is explainable, duh. But fuk. Can you imagine if someone they made an instant chaser type thing to take after you roll so there was no hangover? Somehow if the crash was only as bad as a hard night of drinking.
Wouldnt that make it the best drug ever????
Id petition the whole word to legalize the sale of it O-T-C... :D
