This wasnt really intended to be a trip report, but after I wrote it and re-read it thats kind of how it came out. So I decided to post it here. Comments and criticism welome.
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Usually when I drop its very surreal. I know i've just eaten E, and I know i'm gonna be in another world in an hour, but for some reason it takes a while to click. Then after a few seonds the realization that there is no turning back hits and one of two things happens. Sometimes i'll feel regret, like i should treat myself better and not do drugs, other times i get exited and antsy.
Then the waiting starts. Usually 20-40 mins. After a minute or so, if i'm not actively doing something I get really restless. I'm not even high yet and for some reason things like wathing TV, playing video games or surfing BL seem boring. I'll usually suggest a walk, or a drive or something to pass the time. Either that or just get caught up in a conversation with a rolling buddy.
Its much easier when you can focus on something other than the fact that you're going to be rolling balls in a few minutes, but sometimes thats all I can think about. The notorious "are you feeling it" question almost always comes up. Then at about the half hour mark I get a feeling of extreme unrest.
"Why dont I feel it yet?"
"Were they bunk?"
"Couldnt be, a friend said they were good"
"Can I trust that guy?"
"Hope I didnt get ripped off"
Then, all of a sudden it starts creeping up on you. Its very subtle at first, almost like a state of confusion. Its very hard to describe, because its so unusual and only lasts for a few minutes. The all of a sudden, out of nowhere, you've got a huge grin on your face and the world doesnt seem like such a harsh place. Moving and stretching feels amazing, your sense of touch is hightened and any pain or discomfort you feel disappears completely. It spreads from the back of my neck to my shoulders and arms, then to my body until it has completely overtaken my senses. The body high is amazing, I feel more alive than I can ever remember feeling. Then the empathy sets in. The faces of friends transform from skin, eyes and a nose into a window looking into their soul. Anything you love or cherish all of a sudden means so much more to you. And everything else, even the little things you take for granted or usually dont notice seem perfect. Everything is beautiful. Colors are much more rich and deep and you cant help but say to youself, and everyone, " WOW, I feel amazing". Its as if I am in love with everything and everyone around me. Its like all the best feelings i've ever had all rolled into one. Its ecstasy.
Things you wouldnt normally talk about, you talk about. People you usually wouldnt even notice become friends. Enemies are forgiven, and the music, ohh the music is so good its indescribeable. Sound turns from invisible vibrations to intense waves of euphoria rippling up and down your body. The melody becomes the words, I feel like I can understand what the artist was thinking when they made the music, and how perfectly it all meshes together. Lyrics beome a mere voice in the backround compared to the intensity of the beat. I'm usually too self consious to dance in front of everyone, but without even thinking I move my body to the rythm and it feels so good I want to cry, sometimes I do.
After an hour or so my normal self surfaces. I'm still rolling, still feeling good, but the initial signs of a comedown are present. Reality starts to set in. Sometimes ill come down a little, then go back up for another 10 mins or so then come back down. This rollercoaster is usually settled in half an hour or so. During that time I realize my tounge is half-gnawed off and I could use some water. Then the comedown hits full force. Its like a sinking feeling in my mind. Words fail to desribe the feeling of solemn indifference to the world. All I want is sleep, but I cant sleep. I tell myself I knew it would come to this, but when the moment finally arrives its is so hard to let go of that feeling. I wish it could last forever, but inevitably it ends.
The pill definately had some meth in it. It feels as if my mind is ping ponging around inside my skull, extreme unrest. Everyone is pretty much down by this point. No one is talking. It seems impossible that just a short while ago these people seemed so alive, now it just seems like they are a picture on the wall. Sleep comes eventually.
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Usually when I drop its very surreal. I know i've just eaten E, and I know i'm gonna be in another world in an hour, but for some reason it takes a while to click. Then after a few seonds the realization that there is no turning back hits and one of two things happens. Sometimes i'll feel regret, like i should treat myself better and not do drugs, other times i get exited and antsy.
Then the waiting starts. Usually 20-40 mins. After a minute or so, if i'm not actively doing something I get really restless. I'm not even high yet and for some reason things like wathing TV, playing video games or surfing BL seem boring. I'll usually suggest a walk, or a drive or something to pass the time. Either that or just get caught up in a conversation with a rolling buddy.
Its much easier when you can focus on something other than the fact that you're going to be rolling balls in a few minutes, but sometimes thats all I can think about. The notorious "are you feeling it" question almost always comes up. Then at about the half hour mark I get a feeling of extreme unrest.
"Why dont I feel it yet?"
"Were they bunk?"
"Couldnt be, a friend said they were good"
"Can I trust that guy?"
"Hope I didnt get ripped off"
Then, all of a sudden it starts creeping up on you. Its very subtle at first, almost like a state of confusion. Its very hard to describe, because its so unusual and only lasts for a few minutes. The all of a sudden, out of nowhere, you've got a huge grin on your face and the world doesnt seem like such a harsh place. Moving and stretching feels amazing, your sense of touch is hightened and any pain or discomfort you feel disappears completely. It spreads from the back of my neck to my shoulders and arms, then to my body until it has completely overtaken my senses. The body high is amazing, I feel more alive than I can ever remember feeling. Then the empathy sets in. The faces of friends transform from skin, eyes and a nose into a window looking into their soul. Anything you love or cherish all of a sudden means so much more to you. And everything else, even the little things you take for granted or usually dont notice seem perfect. Everything is beautiful. Colors are much more rich and deep and you cant help but say to youself, and everyone, " WOW, I feel amazing". Its as if I am in love with everything and everyone around me. Its like all the best feelings i've ever had all rolled into one. Its ecstasy.
Things you wouldnt normally talk about, you talk about. People you usually wouldnt even notice become friends. Enemies are forgiven, and the music, ohh the music is so good its indescribeable. Sound turns from invisible vibrations to intense waves of euphoria rippling up and down your body. The melody becomes the words, I feel like I can understand what the artist was thinking when they made the music, and how perfectly it all meshes together. Lyrics beome a mere voice in the backround compared to the intensity of the beat. I'm usually too self consious to dance in front of everyone, but without even thinking I move my body to the rythm and it feels so good I want to cry, sometimes I do.
After an hour or so my normal self surfaces. I'm still rolling, still feeling good, but the initial signs of a comedown are present. Reality starts to set in. Sometimes ill come down a little, then go back up for another 10 mins or so then come back down. This rollercoaster is usually settled in half an hour or so. During that time I realize my tounge is half-gnawed off and I could use some water. Then the comedown hits full force. Its like a sinking feeling in my mind. Words fail to desribe the feeling of solemn indifference to the world. All I want is sleep, but I cant sleep. I tell myself I knew it would come to this, but when the moment finally arrives its is so hard to let go of that feeling. I wish it could last forever, but inevitably it ends.
The pill definately had some meth in it. It feels as if my mind is ping ponging around inside my skull, extreme unrest. Everyone is pretty much down by this point. No one is talking. It seems impossible that just a short while ago these people seemed so alive, now it just seems like they are a picture on the wall. Sleep comes eventually.
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