MaxwellPascal
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Hi,
First post so please bare with me.
I'm 23 and have taken ecstasy in both pill and pure powder form on a number of occasions over the years. I'm writing this now even although the event I'm describing happened around 9 months ago as I've noticed I've been jolted awake on occasion and have definitely heard loud bangs as I'm falling asleep.
I decided to have a night in with a close friend and take some pills (UPS) and just chill and listen to music. We'd done this before so it wasn't unusual for us.
Well during the course of the night we had an enjoyable time and even went on an adventure to a local nightclub and met some people. We'd consumed a number of pills and were having a great time. At around 6-7am I decide to drop my last pill and I think this is where things went wrong. I didn't get any high from it, but I did start to get 'brain zaps'. These were like a build up of white lightning in my eyes then an electric shock across my temples. Honestly one of the most terrifying things I've ever experienced. I knew right away something wasn't ok and told my friend. But I just kept my eyes shut and tried to fall asleep and enjured maybe 2-3 more of them.
The next day I wake up feeling 'sea sick' nauseous and a bit wobbly on my feet - I should add I'd maybe had two drinks so I wasn't hung over.
I also experienced this extraordinary and really unsettling feeling of constant de ja vu.
That night while falling asleep I experienced 1 or 2 of these brain zaps again. Quite scary and uncomfortable.
This continued for 4 days, getting slightly better each day. I was also away on holiday on the 2nd day so my first few days away were a bit unpleasant. I was even considering going to the doctors I was that worried about it.
Eventually I was back to normal but very afraid of it ever happening again. I'm not a big drug user but this shook me. I waited a few months before taking ecstasy again, but the problem is I don't really get the same effect anymore. I don't really get high and euphoric, just very very sleepy with the usual clenched jaw, sweating, monged out feeling.
I know I was very stupid taking it so far, 4-5 pills that strong is stupid. But I did it and I can't go back. But I miss taking it now and again.
What happened to me? Was this Serotonin Syndrome? I've suffered from depression for a long time (not on any SSRI's though). Is there anyway to restore things to the way they were before?
I've had bright lights (when eyes shut) again but luckily no zaps but I felt I was close to getting zaps even after relatively small doses.
I've wanted to post this for a long time. Those brain zaps were horrible. Really was scared I was having a seizure or something. Plus occasional jolts waking me up just as I'm about to completely fall asleep since then.
First post so please bare with me.
I'm 23 and have taken ecstasy in both pill and pure powder form on a number of occasions over the years. I'm writing this now even although the event I'm describing happened around 9 months ago as I've noticed I've been jolted awake on occasion and have definitely heard loud bangs as I'm falling asleep.
I decided to have a night in with a close friend and take some pills (UPS) and just chill and listen to music. We'd done this before so it wasn't unusual for us.
Well during the course of the night we had an enjoyable time and even went on an adventure to a local nightclub and met some people. We'd consumed a number of pills and were having a great time. At around 6-7am I decide to drop my last pill and I think this is where things went wrong. I didn't get any high from it, but I did start to get 'brain zaps'. These were like a build up of white lightning in my eyes then an electric shock across my temples. Honestly one of the most terrifying things I've ever experienced. I knew right away something wasn't ok and told my friend. But I just kept my eyes shut and tried to fall asleep and enjured maybe 2-3 more of them.
The next day I wake up feeling 'sea sick' nauseous and a bit wobbly on my feet - I should add I'd maybe had two drinks so I wasn't hung over.
I also experienced this extraordinary and really unsettling feeling of constant de ja vu.
That night while falling asleep I experienced 1 or 2 of these brain zaps again. Quite scary and uncomfortable.
This continued for 4 days, getting slightly better each day. I was also away on holiday on the 2nd day so my first few days away were a bit unpleasant. I was even considering going to the doctors I was that worried about it.
Eventually I was back to normal but very afraid of it ever happening again. I'm not a big drug user but this shook me. I waited a few months before taking ecstasy again, but the problem is I don't really get the same effect anymore. I don't really get high and euphoric, just very very sleepy with the usual clenched jaw, sweating, monged out feeling.
I know I was very stupid taking it so far, 4-5 pills that strong is stupid. But I did it and I can't go back. But I miss taking it now and again.
What happened to me? Was this Serotonin Syndrome? I've suffered from depression for a long time (not on any SSRI's though). Is there anyway to restore things to the way they were before?
I've had bright lights (when eyes shut) again but luckily no zaps but I felt I was close to getting zaps even after relatively small doses.
I've wanted to post this for a long time. Those brain zaps were horrible. Really was scared I was having a seizure or something. Plus occasional jolts waking me up just as I'm about to completely fall asleep since then.
