SketchBoner24
Bluelighter
Hey everyone, this is my first post on bluelight and figured I would introduce myself by posting one of my experiences while rolling.
My group of friends and I had decided to go for another roll for the upcoming weekend and got a hold of a bunch of purple anchors. This was our third time rolling, we had rolled with each other the previous times, and we were excited because it was a different pill than the last two times, which were yellow butterflies, and we were curious to see if we could tell a difference between the two types. Most of us had to work that day till around 9pm and we were to meet up at a friend’s house right after work to get rollin.
So the time came and we got together at the house, locked and stocked with our packs of gum, ipod full of music that was picked out specifically for this night, and various drinks to get us through the night. Most of us started with half a cap, while me and another friend, A, started with a full. A and I were doing 6 caps each, instead of the 3-4 we had done previously, I now am starting to believe that this was a lot when I talk to other friends who have rolled before but not with me. Anyways the night started off good, we chit chatted about just what’s been going on in our lives lately and turned on the tv for a little while. About half an hour in I began to feel the tingling rush course through my body and knew the e had started work it’s magic, about 45 minutes in we all took another half. The music had started and so had the NHL 2k7 tournament that was to be the main event of the night. A little over two hours into the night we had taken another half and I was in need of a drink and a new piece of gum, I usually get very bad jaw clenching and always bite a huge piece out of my cheek. So I make my way upstairs refill some drinks and get some water but got distracted and became intrigued with what the bathroom had to offer. I walked inside and closed the door behind me; I then turned on the faucet and started to play with the water that flowed from it. I was pretty hot at this point so I removed my shirt and glanced up at the mirror to admire my saucer-like eyes. I stuck my hands in the water and turned the hot water off and let the cold run all over my hands, I grabbed my shoulders with my cold hands in a hugging like fashion which felt like some sort of being was hugging me to let me know that it is watching over me. I heard my voice being called from the basement as my friends came to investigate why I have not returned from trip to get some water which had lasted about 15 minutes but felt like an hour. As the night went on the NHL 2k7 goal celebrations were getting pretty ridiculous, we had come up with about a million ways to give each other a high five. With every slap of the hands our bond became stronger, as if we were brothers and would do anything for one another. We made quick mentions of how much we meant to each other and wouldn’t trade em for anything. It was a very floaty feeling and the room felt much larger than it actually was. We consistently took our remaining caps throughout the night varying from a half to a whole. I finished mine around 2am-3am. Another friend stopped by the house for a short time, he wanted a something to drink so we walked to a near by vendor with him. The air was crisp and the cool sensation on my skin made me feel very alive and that I couldn’t be happier, the trip to the vendor wasn’t long and we shortly found ourselves back in the basement with the tunes and the games.
This is where it started to get a little weird for me around 3am-4am, after I had finished my rolls for the night, I started to feel very quiet and like my emotions had been numbed. I curled up into a ball on the couch, faced inside and closed my eyes. I could feel my eyes moving about but I was in my own world now, I didn’t want to talk to anyone and I didn’t want to speak at all. My eyes were shut and I had some CEVs that reminded me kind of like a story book. With what I remember from that it was blurry like images, I could see more colors than I could see actual pictures or anything but it felt like I was reading a children’s story book in my mind. My friends became concerned with my silence but I told them I was fine, I just don’t feel like talking anymore. This may have started to bring down their trip which sucks, but at the time I had no emotions in me, I felt like a robot and wanted to be left alone so I could continue with my story book. I think I may have fallen in and out of sleep at this point though. I started moving again around 6am-7am and my friends were like welcome back man. I apologized and told them that I just didn’t feel like talking to anyone or being talked to, don’t know why. They said it was cool threw me a controller and I played for awhile. Around 9am-10am we packed a couple bowls to chill our systems out a bit and hopefully allow us to take a nap later. I was beginning to realize how sore my jaw was and noticed how large the missing part of my cheek was, ouch.
I stayed for a couple more hours and then left to meet up with a lady friend and we fooled around for awhile, which was pretty good, very difficult but good. I was experiencing what I thought was an orgasm but when we stopped it appeared that I had not, so we kept going until I had which followed shortly after. We went our separate ways and I went and took a nap. Once I had awakened from the nap it got even worse, the depression was brutal. I felt alone in this world, like I had no one and never would. I had a new found distaste for this world and I didn’t want to be apart of it, nor did I want anyone to talk to me. I felt like I was broken and wanted to cry but I thought what’s the point. I didn’t leave my room after that except to go eat some fruits and take some vitamins.
The next couple days weren’t too bad, I still felt very very sad but I knew it was an effect from the e and I knew I was happy but I just couldn’t help it. I thought the trip was fantastic while I was happy but literally I don’t know if I will ever roll again due to how serious the depression was. I would like to, and I love reading the trip reports and even writing this makes me want to round my friends together for another roll but I am terrified about the next day now. I don’t know if it was due to the amount I took or what but I hated everything and that feeling haunts me because the lack of emotion and just complete emptiness was very brutal. The bad part from this trip cancelled out the best high from any of my rolls in comparison. The last two times I rolled I still got pretty sad the following day, although I did have to go to work at 11am those times and I worked by myself in a store that isn’t very busy at all, that sucked but still wasn’t as bad as this time.
But that’s my trip report; let me know how I did as far as writing one. I have a couple really fond memories while doing some other drugs that I may write reports for because they are just plain fun to write. But that’s it, if you have any similar experiences with feeling anti-social or extreme depression let me know if that stopped you from rolling again or what you did to try and combat it next time.
Cyas
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substancecode_ecstasy
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My group of friends and I had decided to go for another roll for the upcoming weekend and got a hold of a bunch of purple anchors. This was our third time rolling, we had rolled with each other the previous times, and we were excited because it was a different pill than the last two times, which were yellow butterflies, and we were curious to see if we could tell a difference between the two types. Most of us had to work that day till around 9pm and we were to meet up at a friend’s house right after work to get rollin.
So the time came and we got together at the house, locked and stocked with our packs of gum, ipod full of music that was picked out specifically for this night, and various drinks to get us through the night. Most of us started with half a cap, while me and another friend, A, started with a full. A and I were doing 6 caps each, instead of the 3-4 we had done previously, I now am starting to believe that this was a lot when I talk to other friends who have rolled before but not with me. Anyways the night started off good, we chit chatted about just what’s been going on in our lives lately and turned on the tv for a little while. About half an hour in I began to feel the tingling rush course through my body and knew the e had started work it’s magic, about 45 minutes in we all took another half. The music had started and so had the NHL 2k7 tournament that was to be the main event of the night. A little over two hours into the night we had taken another half and I was in need of a drink and a new piece of gum, I usually get very bad jaw clenching and always bite a huge piece out of my cheek. So I make my way upstairs refill some drinks and get some water but got distracted and became intrigued with what the bathroom had to offer. I walked inside and closed the door behind me; I then turned on the faucet and started to play with the water that flowed from it. I was pretty hot at this point so I removed my shirt and glanced up at the mirror to admire my saucer-like eyes. I stuck my hands in the water and turned the hot water off and let the cold run all over my hands, I grabbed my shoulders with my cold hands in a hugging like fashion which felt like some sort of being was hugging me to let me know that it is watching over me. I heard my voice being called from the basement as my friends came to investigate why I have not returned from trip to get some water which had lasted about 15 minutes but felt like an hour. As the night went on the NHL 2k7 goal celebrations were getting pretty ridiculous, we had come up with about a million ways to give each other a high five. With every slap of the hands our bond became stronger, as if we were brothers and would do anything for one another. We made quick mentions of how much we meant to each other and wouldn’t trade em for anything. It was a very floaty feeling and the room felt much larger than it actually was. We consistently took our remaining caps throughout the night varying from a half to a whole. I finished mine around 2am-3am. Another friend stopped by the house for a short time, he wanted a something to drink so we walked to a near by vendor with him. The air was crisp and the cool sensation on my skin made me feel very alive and that I couldn’t be happier, the trip to the vendor wasn’t long and we shortly found ourselves back in the basement with the tunes and the games.
This is where it started to get a little weird for me around 3am-4am, after I had finished my rolls for the night, I started to feel very quiet and like my emotions had been numbed. I curled up into a ball on the couch, faced inside and closed my eyes. I could feel my eyes moving about but I was in my own world now, I didn’t want to talk to anyone and I didn’t want to speak at all. My eyes were shut and I had some CEVs that reminded me kind of like a story book. With what I remember from that it was blurry like images, I could see more colors than I could see actual pictures or anything but it felt like I was reading a children’s story book in my mind. My friends became concerned with my silence but I told them I was fine, I just don’t feel like talking anymore. This may have started to bring down their trip which sucks, but at the time I had no emotions in me, I felt like a robot and wanted to be left alone so I could continue with my story book. I think I may have fallen in and out of sleep at this point though. I started moving again around 6am-7am and my friends were like welcome back man. I apologized and told them that I just didn’t feel like talking to anyone or being talked to, don’t know why. They said it was cool threw me a controller and I played for awhile. Around 9am-10am we packed a couple bowls to chill our systems out a bit and hopefully allow us to take a nap later. I was beginning to realize how sore my jaw was and noticed how large the missing part of my cheek was, ouch.
I stayed for a couple more hours and then left to meet up with a lady friend and we fooled around for awhile, which was pretty good, very difficult but good. I was experiencing what I thought was an orgasm but when we stopped it appeared that I had not, so we kept going until I had which followed shortly after. We went our separate ways and I went and took a nap. Once I had awakened from the nap it got even worse, the depression was brutal. I felt alone in this world, like I had no one and never would. I had a new found distaste for this world and I didn’t want to be apart of it, nor did I want anyone to talk to me. I felt like I was broken and wanted to cry but I thought what’s the point. I didn’t leave my room after that except to go eat some fruits and take some vitamins.
The next couple days weren’t too bad, I still felt very very sad but I knew it was an effect from the e and I knew I was happy but I just couldn’t help it. I thought the trip was fantastic while I was happy but literally I don’t know if I will ever roll again due to how serious the depression was. I would like to, and I love reading the trip reports and even writing this makes me want to round my friends together for another roll but I am terrified about the next day now. I don’t know if it was due to the amount I took or what but I hated everything and that feeling haunts me because the lack of emotion and just complete emptiness was very brutal. The bad part from this trip cancelled out the best high from any of my rolls in comparison. The last two times I rolled I still got pretty sad the following day, although I did have to go to work at 11am those times and I worked by myself in a store that isn’t very busy at all, that sucked but still wasn’t as bad as this time.
But that’s my trip report; let me know how I did as far as writing one. I have a couple really fond memories while doing some other drugs that I may write reports for because they are just plain fun to write. But that’s it, if you have any similar experiences with feeling anti-social or extreme depression let me know if that stopped you from rolling again or what you did to try and combat it next time.
Cyas
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substancecode_ecstasy
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