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TDS Eating Disorders Megathread

Hey hyroller, it's human nature to cut corners and i'm only human and asume you are to. I think cutting corners is all about saving time. And "time" only exists to screw with/control humans. But the evolved human can screw time right back with drugs. From DMT to crack with it's super slimming atributes they're there to use, so why not. I do. I wan't caloiries and other don't. I found pot to help with eating not because of "munchies" but due to the abillity to slow one down to "normal" and stop and think and FEEL what my body really needs. I found that drugs that make you numbish eg: coke/crack, speed, ice, duramine, H, codeine, oc etc etc etc, stop you from feeling what you need. I dunno, or maybe these are the ramblings of a silly stoner, you decide. But we all know Right from wrong, it's just a matter of where we draw the line. Peace.
 
well yeah - ice definitely quells the appetite, there's no doubting that!!!!

also another reason I'm reluctant to give up the ghost for good

but of course, if I got off my ass and exercised my metabolism into normalcy, this wouldn't be such a drawback
 
Hey if you know how to get my metabolism into normalcy let me know. Mines set to "Light speed" i wan't it at about "slow down or you'll kill someone!".
Don't mean to be a nagger, but ice really does screw people up perm. Seems to cause brain damage and loss of spouse sydrome. The first is the one to watch out for though, you can always get new partner, but not new life. (Sorry christians, but you just can't ok.) Only Afterlife which i've visited before.....
 
Traditional Triggers Much?

n3ophy7e said:
And so the ugly head of purging rears itself once again :|



Wow, I so thought I was done with this...
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Ah, I know where you are and expect to be back there soon too... :(

Does it come up on you suddenly, without warning, or can you tie the B&P cycle to triggers?

The ED clinicians I worked with several years ago had me convinced it was all a matter of "properly handling the ideas that trigger your ED behavior" but I swear bi-weekly when all is fine and I am totally unfocused on my body image/self esteem, I go on autopilot and just purge whatever healthy, reasonable meal I've just eaten.

I am completely sure that the way the medical profession treats EDs is bunk for at least 75% of the inpatient population.:p
 
I don't know if this should be put here... but I think I have some sort of eating disorder.
tl;dr I'm not sure whats wrong with me, I don't like eating because I don't get anything from it.

I love to eat food, I am like a black hole, I can put it away, and no one thinks badly about my eating habits. I weight around 115-125 and I can eat probably the equivalent of 3 other people's meals in one go. When I go to my friends houses, the know I will clean out their kitchen since I eat so much.

I feel that its futile to eat though, I sometimes skip eating (like a day or two) to see what it does to my weight. Nothing. Zero. Nada. Same as always. It bothers me quite a bit.

Its like it doesn't matter if I eat or not, I just get a hungry feeling in my stomache, I can make it go away if I take some Adderall or Dex+caffeine.

So either I have the best metabolism in the world and will not be affected by eating huge amounts of healthy or unhealthy food, or maybe I have some sort of tapeworm? I have no idea.
 
The amphetamines most certainly have something to do with you eating and not gaining weight.


If you are eating a lot and then going a few days without, it evens out.
 
xxkcxx said:
The amphetamines most certainly have something to do with you eating and not gaining weight.


If you are eating a lot and then going a few days without, it evens out.
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The problem is that it occurred even when I wasn't on anything. I guess what upsets me is that I don't really gain anything from the food (besides a full feeling stomache and thats only for a few minutes).

Its been going on my whole life, I've always been short, and thin, but I eat like theres no tomorrow.
 
^What do you expect to gain?

You are extremely lucky that you can eat what you want and not gain weight, you should appreciate that.
 
It seems like its worthless, since I waste a lot of money on food and don't really get anything from it besides a feeling in my stomach (and oftentimes the hunger will come back in 20-1hr later). It feels like it doesn't matter if I eat or not, I wish it had some effect, but it really doesn't.

I feel like its a worthless expedition to eat since it doesn't seem to matter. There seems to be no effect and it really bothers me that I can't do anything with the food I eat. I don't know where the nutrition goes, and why I can't seem to get anything if I eat healthy, nothing, unhealthy etc.

I don't know if this is even a problem... most people would be happy to have it, but I just get upset since it feels like theres no effect. I know its a normal human function to eat and if I am able to eat a lot, thats great in the day and age where everything has high fructose corn syrup and dehydrated soy. I don't really know.
 
^Regardless of whether you are conscious of the effect, what you put in your body has a huge impact, perhaps not on your waistline but certainly elsewhere.

If you stop eating out of perceived futility, then malnutrition and associated health problems are inevitable.

If you eat unhealthy, it will catch up to you eventually. You are young I presume and have a fast metabolism, that won't last forever.

MANY biological processes are dependent on you eating and mental health is certainly affected by the quantities and content of what you consume.

Just because you are unaware of the impact your diet has, does not mean your diet does not have an impact. Do a little research on this and you'll see that since you are a human organism, what you consume certainly does impact many different aspects of your physiology.
 
^^ Spot on, thank you C2TL.

Depressicaa, you do not have an eating disorder. You most likely just have a fast metabolism which is completely normal for some people. If you would like to have tests done for intestinal parasites or any other medical causes for your inability to gain weight then please do so. But otherwise, your condition isn't really relevant to a thread like this.
 
CHiLD-0F-THE-BEAT said:
There's a pretty simple equation: weight = calories imbibed - calories worked off through exercise.

Restricting, purging, binging whatever you want to call it is not the only way to control your weight or your life
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^this plus therapy helped me immensely.

Man, I am embarrassed that it took me so long to get where I am at body/mind but I am sure glad I did!
 
I don't have a textbook style ED like most of you do, but I have a problem that I really just wanna talk about somewhere. I have what I like to call "anxiety-induced anorexia."

In terms of body image, I've always been a little chunky, the "fat kid" if you will, but it's not really the case anymore. I'm 5'2 and 125lbs, when I was "the fat kid" I was maybe 170. I felt good enough to wear a bikini this summer...yes I wasn't fit and muscular like a lot of the other girls but I was still comfortable walking around.

However, two and a half years ago my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer (she died 3 months later) and during that time I didn't really eat, at all. I dropped from 150 lbs to 115 lbs in about 3 months. Ever since then, I've had a really hard time eating normally.

I got myself back to around 125 recently, but because of stress I'm falling back to 120. I love food, I want to eat, I realize I'm a beautiful woman and enjoy my body. But I can't eat. Mentally cannot. I may do something like only eat a piece of broccoli at a dinner not because I don't want to eat everything in sight and love it, but because I can't...the food almost sits in my throat, and I get nauseous, and I can't do it.

I've found pot to be a big help with this, but even now I often go several days eating very, very little food sometimes. And since I only eat maybe once a day or so I don't worry about how "healthy" it is, which I know isn't good for me either.

I don't really have a question or anything with this post, I just wanted to talk about my problem --- it didn't seem off topic for the thread to me, since all I really want is to eat and enjoy food normally like I have my whole life until a few years ago, I just don't remember how to, or who knows how well I even knew how to in the first place.
 
well, purple_cloud, I got so good at being bulimic that if my stomach/ab muscles were flexed, food would come up. It's gotten better since I have started to eat small amounts constantly all day. And I work out, which gives me endorphins. And go for the pot! And ice cream! And yogurt!
 
Just a quick reminder that I know pot helps a lot of people with increasing appetite and reducing nausea etc, but we have to be careful when suggesting any recreational drug use to people with psychological disorders. Anorexia and bulimia have both been linked with a decrease in serotonin in the brain, and marijuana usage has been shown to decrease serotonin levels in the brain, further exacerbating the problem. It's just something to be self-aware of, and to be careful about.
 
^I agree, all drugs should be considered carefully. My GRANDMA was actually prescribed a canniboid medication when she had nausea during chemo b/c she lost so much weight. It helped her a lot.
 
its a living hell that i feel like it will never end i would drink for days in order not to it wouldnt care if it gave me a small belly then id smoke so much weed till i puked the booze i lived like that for 3 months till it stopped working i started using ecstasy and evencoke for weight then when i came down it would make me binge and throw up more until i started getting ba dteeth is when th euse of laxatives occured to me implannign on going back to excersice take some vitamins and eat healthy..hope i can keep uo with this without getting ack to drug laxative or binge earting
 
thank u im also going to the therapist but it doesnt help but ive improved alittle i notice when i dont think about my weight that much is when i drop more on accident or keep myself occupied nto to binge and just eat the healthy ammount
 
I'm down to 47kg now..... Dropped off the pot and codeine in hope it will normalise me. But the w/d's are gone now, but i still crave a cone all day and specially at night to stop the terror sweats i get, (unrelated to w/d's.) I hope all on this thread keep healthy mentally as i figured out that it's a lot to do with this. I think if things get worse i'll have to go back on drugs. I'm still going but feel weak now. I hope things get better for all of us. Peace and good luck.
 
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