windtalkers1221
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Hi everyone, I need advice: I am new to the forum & need help getting OFF hydrocodone, 325mg pills, down to 3 a day every 8 hours.
wondering if the rehabs are scams, living in mid-Florida, no surprise there, (crackdowns going on big time here, feds calling it an epidemic here) Anyways, I was on Methadone from a PM or CP issue, been using about 10 years; last week id had it, told my doctor no more, cause I knew I was getting toxic, not breathing right, nearly died, - waking up gasping for breath, etc.; so the doctor says " No, stay on it" after I appeared in his office because the pharmacy RAN OUT of the drug, & told me "we'll call you when we get it." -I went to over 10 pharmacies, NOBODY HAD IT! At that point I am thinking, I 've been cut off, or maybe they didn't have it? , thought:" I cant go on, this is bad really bad! I am getting real sick." So, I come home with the hydro, & of course went through the most miserable withdrawal alone in my apartment...lost 3 days, no memory, in total AGONY, unexplainable pain & I WAS STILL TAKING HYDROCODONE, & I think I almost passed through this last experience.-Yeah it was dumb to try that decrease of opioids, ALONE, but I knew I was toxic, I am really serious about getting off this junk.
Not only that, I am on Ativan, and some other lovelies, of which I ate through little avail through withdrawal, yes I know you aren't supposed to mix, but hey, those are small change at this point.
therefore; I am wondering, is there really a way off these pills? I am okay today, but if I go to rehab I really don't want to take the subs, as I've heard they are stronger than the hydro, any one have experience getting off hydrocodone, are there any medicinal homeopathic methods I could try? Any advice on good rehabs in Tampa Bay area, I know there's a Mayo clinic in Tallahassee, I've got insurance, that covers, luckily & can stand the withdrawal, I think if it weren't for the "kicks" that's the part of w/d I absolutely cannot tolerate, cannot tolerate, I'll jump out the f'ing window if I have to feel that thrashing of my legs again, and that butterflies on the bottom of the feet thingy/feeling. I am thinking maybe some ted hose or something would help?
-I used to be a nurse, (& hell no that's no how this started! I'd never take someone's dope, esp. in nursing home!)- I had an accident with my back, (hairline fracture, that's gotten worse over the years, started with Percocet) and then my BYF died, of alcohol poisoning (typical crowd for a nursing mind, we tend take in the sick & suffering) and then Satan decided to give me man that could have only come from the lowest gutters of hell, during my grief & loss of the love of my life, this new "friend" pretty much took advantage of the situation & basically ruined me; cause he had "pills for my back pain" ( & my grief). - blah, blah...
Now- 44 years old, alone, 10 years later & scared; jobless, broke, and wondering if withdrawal may not just kill me next time, my health is decent, but I smoke like a pig, probably have some heart disease and my pet guinea pig died last week.
I am thinking this is the end. I used to be such a benevolent loving spirit, and now I just can't tolerate people, so sad, a waste case.
ahhh- 8( sick of being sick,- wind.
Edited the size and color, small and red makes it difficult to read and you will get more responses this way, feel free to change the color again but making the entire post have incredibly small text will definitely make more people not bother reading it. -CaseFace
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