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EADD Heroin Discussion Nininininineteen [19] (I wasn't really sure what was going on)

curious_24 said:
I think I read some of your stuff a few years back. Will definitely take another look! :)
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I just started the blog 3 months ago. 8)

Unless I posted a story or something I wrote here on Bluelight. This is 95% all new material. One old story/journal entry I posted.
 
Was down South for the first time in a month.

Scored some stuff which was 'the best in town' it was very white in colour, even more so than the stuff I'm currently getting in Manchester. Was a 15 bags with no deals. Stuff was quite nice, was feeling pretty iffy by the time I got it, and after a couple of toots I was feeling much better. Nice strong rush and good long afterglow. I reckon its on par or a bit better than stuff I get in Manchester BUT the sizes was probs 30% less.

All in all I was happy enough.
 
Sweet blog altek thanks for posting the link , like Sammy g your scene out there fascinates me. Love the whole stamp bag thing, iv followed pig pens junky says for a couple of years , good to get another.
Cheers.
 
Thanks for pig pens junky strungout!

Read a few posts and it looks good. Not genrally a fan if heroin junkie blogs. I find some of them can be a bit 'heroin chic'
 
alteknj said:
I just started the blog 3 months ago. 8)

Unless I posted a story or something I wrote here on Bluelight. This is 95% all new material. One old story/journal entry I posted.
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Ah, my mistake then. I just read the "A Day In The Life Of A Heroin Addict" entry and got a massive sense of deja vu. Good stuff anyhow.
 
Perhaps not the best idea to run the risk of getting addicted to PV and heroin! 8(

The only way you get better is with is getting more experience! Unsurprisingly.
 
wcote2 said:
I find some of them can be a bit 'heroin chic'
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Heroin chic? Heroin PRICK more like :| I just can't be doing with narcissistic wankers that get off on the kudos and status of being a 'junky' more than the drugs themselves. Against my better judgement, I clicked on this guy's link, and found exactly what I was expecting... The second entry included the immortal paragraph:

'I owned the drug market at Montclair State University. If you were selling anything but weed or ADD meds (Adderall), then you worked for me or stopped the selling. I was the only one on the college campus selling hard drugs and the volume of prescription pills that I was. If I found out someone else was selling Oxy’s or coke, then I did a few things. I either got them working for me and gave them my products to sell. I bought them out and stopped them right then, and then I would get them selling or buying from ME. And if they didn’t listen, then we straight up robbed them.'

What a fuckin' wanker..!!

For a start, if you go to university in the USA you're obviously a privileged middle class white boy.. Secondly, if you still get off on being a junky, then you've obviously not sunk low enough, otherwise you wouldn't revel in that status any more. I seriously hope the feds have read this and bust his ass!

There is NO glamour in being a heroin addict - unless you've listened to too many Lou Reed tracks and read too many William Borroughs novels (who couldn't write for shit anyway). Why people insist on telling the world what badass junkies they are/were is beyond me.

Being a 'Junky' is a state of mind, rather than a physiological condition. Not all opiate addicts are junkies - only tossers that revel in being the biggest baddass mo'fo' in the 'hood (or thinking they are). Opiate addiction doesn't necessarily turn one into a cheating, lying, thieving scumbag - unless you are one to begin with. So sorry, I don't find this shit entertaining at all, why not fuck off and tell yer stories to the sycophantic wankers that think this stuff is 'f'real man'?
 
i know a fuckin tool who brags a bout being a junkie he thinks hess ard hangin out with the big boys wen there just using/robbing him,hes always bragging about it thinking he looks cool. I think what a nob im sure theres 1 like this in every town/city. Oh the storys i could tell about this utter plank but i wont cus im a gentleman. fubar is spot on tho im not knocking the blog writer each to there own but theres limits man
 
'I owned the drug market' + 'we straight up robbed them'

How sad trying to make out you were some big time drug dealer. Drug dealing is nothing to show off about.

Agreed with the junkies who act like dickheads. I swear some people use the title of being a 'junkie' as an excuse to act like a horrible person, when the reality is you were a nasty person to begin with. I was with my mate the other day and we scored off this fella, he was talking as if he was a proper badman just because he was selling heroin and crack. He is just a runner, but I think because he picks up the parcel from another city it means he is his own man..... when actually he is just doing it on behalf on someone else who doesn't want to get caught up on the day to day street dealing. And for some reason he talks like he is from inner city london, when he is actually from a small town.

The guy's I score up from up north don't act like badmen, they are sound enough you can have a decent small talk with.
 
Guys.. listen. First of all, I never "claimed" to be some type of gangster or something. Yes I am a lower-middle class white boy. I went to college. I had a chance. I fucked it up. I don't know if the terminology of the word 'junkie' means something different over there in England, but we use as a slang for a heroin addict amongst other things. I went down a road MANY a young men went down in the USA. Pills-> Heroin -> to becoming an utter, hopeless, fucking JUNKIE. I don't know how the heroin addict culture is in the UK, but from what I've read/seen it seems mighty different, which is why I was nice enough to post my link here so you can see how it is in the USA, especially NYC. I wasn't trying to come off as some big time drug dealer hustler who reveled in the glory of it all, but LOOK I am being 100% honest.. I fucking felt like it at the time. I did sell drugs. Every kid who gets into heroin usually goes. We sell drugs to support our habits. And I am not trying to say I was fucking Pablo Escobar or something, but I wasn't selling nickels of weed on the corner. Everything I wrote is true. I didn't mean it to come off like that, it might sound like that to you guys, but that's the way it was. That is the way I WAS. I have changed now for the better. That was years ago. (A college isn't the toughest place to sell drugs at by the way) but off the subject of that shit. I don't claim to be some gangster or something, yes I am a white kid from America from New Jersey, yes. BUT.. how dare any of you say you know me to tell ME what I went through? That I haven't hit my bottom? I have suffered enough and caused enough suffering to other people. I am done with this shit. I am done with this life. That is all this is. It's not something I do for attention, to make me some like some sort of bad-ass. "OHH HE SOLD DRUGS, OHH HE ROBBED, OHH HE DID THIS, HE DID THAT" We all do shit we aren't proud of because our addictions take hold. I am sure some of you have, so don't be the pot calling the kettle black. I am sorry that I even posted it here and you had to click it and were instantly disgusted and unamused. I thought our brothers across the "pond" would like to read some a blog of addiction from the USA. I read one from someone in the UK, and while quite different we all have our similarities. And we all have the same DISEASE. And maybe it could or did help someone. I just don't post war stories, which I quite fondly understand a lot of you didn't take too kindly too. I write about contemplative shit as well. That's all I have to say. Whatever.

Edit: And you took that paragraph out of context. If you read the story, you would of clearly saw I was an asshole from the beginning. And I was an asshole back then. But just taking those sentences out of context makes it seem 100x worse. I am not denying that it might seem like I was trying to be Mr. Tough and, surely at the time, I was young and dumb and felt like it. But I am older now and wiser. And I don't think like that anymore. And I wrote that for factual purposes, to tell the story and wrap it up into something (the blog itself) with a message that addiction can be fought and overcome. People do change.
 
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i wasnt knocking u sir i read your blog and enjoyed it, i like reading about the US H scene, i think some people r too quick to judge others
 
Thanks. I just think FUBAR went a little overboard. I am not portraying a tough guy. I thought I was a hot shot at the time, years ago. I was young, dumb, had an ego and felt invincible. I've learned now through my addiction. I've been to the bottom of the barrel and learned in rehabs and jails my transgressions and I am paying for it and just trying to share something I enjoy writing with other fellow addicts/junkies. And by junkie I don't mean it as an insult. Maybe you do in the UK, but we don't here in the USA. Either way, thanks for reading at all and thanks for the comments, negative or not.
 
Well, today I actually feel almost normal again! The old endorphin factory is back up to full capacity, and everything is alright with the world. I could get used to not having a toot. The last week, with the frost burn and the toenail ache and the night sweats and the waking up at random hours and the body pains, has been totally worth the suffering to feel this great.

Some people run marathons, I go through WDs .....
 
Being addicted to heroin is not a disease. Addiction is not a disease.

For example. I have epilepsy but I still don't have a disease. I have a medical condition.

Addiction is not even thought to be a medical condition by many, let alone a disease.
 
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