Dare I say the drought is over although the quality is not on parr with what it was but it seems even the bash movers have a steady increase in quality and 8/10 times you can get gear you can get some kind of nod off. I knew as soon as I am not in a position to be using things would start improving a fair bit, catch 22. 0.7 for £30 and if you smoke about half you can get a decent nod on the go. I hate being clean and using as one night of smoking fucks me up for at least a week, 5 days of feeling like total shit followed by several days of general crappyness, rinse bank account and repeat. As much as I hated having a habbit and dedicating all my time and money to gear and rock, life was simpler as you are not torn between using or not using and feeling like shite is standard. Even if I giro junkie it and use bi-weekly I still feel like shit all the time. There is no middle ground with hard drugs, it's go hard or go home and those that think other wise are not deep enough in yet or are just kidding themselves and down playing the addiction.
Firstly ello everyone, glad to see some of the usual suspects still posting, hope u all as well as you hope to be.
DITP Eyup m8, now I know ur an oldschool poster and we might av a friend in common, so no offence but this and a few of your subsequent posts are really fuckin arrogant pal! You display a bit of an arrogant, ignorant and condescending attitude when you say the kind of things you say regarding whether or not an addict can be happy, can have a full life and especially when you say that there's no middle ground, and anyone thinking otherwise is either "not deep enough in yet or kidding themselves and downplaying the addiction."
I'm sure you've your own fair share of experience, and know many others who share your views, but the fact is there's at least 250,00-odd B addicts in the UK, and unless you've known each and every one of them, you can only be wrong making sweeping statements like that. My habits spanned 3 decades, and trust me I've been in plenty fuckin deep enough, yet the fact remains I am still using, I've maintained a job I've loved and excelled in for well over ten years, I have my own mildly successful business, a long term mrs, clean driving license, full set of teeth, clean bill of health, given up cigarette smoking for a year now, ok granted little spare money, but I'm as happy as I'd likely ever be despite having battled depression for fuckin years. I'd say the gears helped me, and that the almost singularly primary aspect that has fucked me up to do with my addiction is it's illegality. I've managed to maintain a habit without ever , EVER having stolen to fund it, or sold myself or anything in that bracket. I've also been on methadone for years, and see that as a fuckin godsend and wont slag it like most of my fellow gear heads.
If I ever meet you I'll tell you the same, and our mutual friend will at least tell you that he's got no reason to say I'm lying. Now don't get me wrong, I wouldn't recommend heroin (or rather brown) to any cunt, but I think that a lot of gear heads are or were well into the shit before they got on brown, and that the fact they develop a habit is circumstantial in many cases, and the drug gives them a perfect opportunity to blame everything that is or was wrong with their life, on. A scapegoat. And society will 100% back this up, from the absolute bullshit that the media has generated regarding drugs and their image. Every paedo, killer, psycho etc, probably gets their sentence reduced by blaming drugs. See Ian Watkins. Or any other scum cunt who blames drugs for the evils they've commited. Anyway I'm digressing. The only point I wanted to make is that you're wrong, and what you said is more than a little bit arrogant. But I mean no offense, feel free to try to tell me I'm wrong, peace.
Ello Brimz el matador, long time no see or speak I ain't forgotten ya!
