E-influenced conversation is simply conversation that is occuring while the people in the conversation are under the influence of ecstasy. Whether what is being said is meaningful, meaningless, false, superficial, insightful or nothing more than drivel is something that needs to be determined by the people in the conversation. In other words, there are no hard and fast rules about this sort of thing. Person A's 'lovey-dovey' talk might be absolutely genuine and heartfelt, whereas Person B's lovey-dovey talk might be insincere, superficial and in no way an expression of what the person really thinks or feels.
What is beyond doubt of course is the E does make one less inhibited about expressing heartfelt thoughts and feelings. Generally speaking, most people are reluctant to fully express ourselves unless we're in the company of people we're close to (and even then a large proportion of people find it hard to open up). I think one of the best lessons we can learn from E is that -contrary to what we lead ourselves to believe during normal, sober times - full self-expression is nothing to be afraid of. When we open up to a stranger or someone we love and tell them how we really feel about things we are living life powerfully and fearlessly. By contrast, when we hold back from being fully self-expressed we are in effect letting fear (fear of being perceived negatively, fear of being thought of as silly etc) constrain our ability to truly connect with people.
It's no surprise that a lot of people say that many of their best conversations have been those that have occurred while pilling because deep down we we don't want to conceal our true selves. Similarly, we want those we communicate with (particularly when it's someone close)to not be afraid to reveal their true selves as well. When our ego and inhibitions are stripped away - as what happens when on E - what's left is our real self, rather than the self we normally project ourself to be in normal day-to-day life. For me, given the choice of having a conversation with someone who's ego has temporarily collapsed or someone whose ego is very much there I know who I'd choose. And I'm the same - when I'm pilling I don't feel any need to adopt my 'smart guy' persona, or my 'funny and witty guy' act, or anything else that I rely on to get by in the world and be accepted. I'm just me. As a result of that, what I say in conversation doesn't go through any "how will this be interpreted" filter. When I'm chatting with someone whose in the same state the conversation can easily and very quickly get on to personal matters where we fully express what we REALLY think and feel rather than simply expressing only those things we are comfortable about revealing. What I'd like people to get tuned in to is the fact that normally when revealing something about yourself when under the influence of E the sky does not fall down, the world does not end and once all is said and done you're the same person you were before. The message: Don't be afraid to open up more in your normal day-to-day life. As the E experience shows time and time again, the people in our lives (and people we've just met) don't want the person who is afraid to show what they really feel - they want the real you.
Having said all that, I must admit there are times when I have gotten annoyed at conversation that I thought was real but which, when the pill effect had worn off, turned out not to be. For example, a couple of friends of mine who had been going out together for quite some time got engaged while pilling at the old Sublime nightclub (Sydney). My friends and I were so happy for them, and a lot of attention was showered on them that night because of this announcement. However, the next day they decided that it's not such a great idea after all and it only seemed so in the first place because they were on E. I was pissed off because it meant that all my "congratulations I'm so happy for you kiss kiss kiss" stuff was pointless. I guess I just regarded the whole thing as immature.
A few months later I was with the girl component of the couple while we were both on E and she began a conversation with "I'm not sure whether it's the pill talking ..." and at that point I politely but firmly cut her off and said "Before continuing please decide whether what you're about to say is real or just the 'pill talking' because if it's just the pill talking I don't want to hear it as it won't be sincere'. This she was fine with.
- Gassohuz
