lagomorpha
Bluelighter
There are likely to be large pieces missing from this report as the night was very disorienting. I suggested to my friend on Tuesday that we should try DXM. He agreed and we both took 300mg around 9pm. The first couple hours seemed like a pleasant nitrous buzz to me. J said that whenever he closed his eyes he could still see the room but the walls were red.
After talking with some people in a friend's room for a while we decided to go back to J's room. Walking down the hall I discovered my balance was very poor and I had to hold onto the wall for stability. When we got there South Park was on his TV. My mental state made the show seem much funnier than I think I normally would've found it. The entire universe seemed very funny. After South Park, J put on his Pink Floyd CD.
The music seemed to have an enormous effect on my mental state. I brought out the box of nitrous and tried one balloon. After I inhaled I stood up, it didn't seem to have any effect. I took 2 steps then something changed with the music and everything became a spiral of colors. I think I may have spun around but I'm not certain. Starting with my toes my entire body spiraled around itself disappearing on the way up. Nothing was left in the universe except for two legs of color spiraling around each other. Other than those there were not even any thoughts. When I came to, somehow I had gotten across the room from rolling across the couch and my friend caught me. This happened again that night while I was sitting on the couch. The second time while I left my body my legs started spiraling around each other and when I came to found my left leg landing on my friend to the left of me and the right one landed crossed over it.
Later in the night I remember becoming a black and white fractal of infinite circles, squares, and yin-yangs spinning across an infinite grid. I turned into 3 different shapes out of sine waves that I thought were the machine code of consciousness. Somehow I became convinced that the reason there was something rather than nothing in the universe was because something chipped. Exponents flew everywhere, something to do with recursiveness. All I could think about were sine waves then BAM: my arms spun around each other in front of me and turned into a spiral extending infinitely into space, everything else disappeared. I thought, “this is it, the end of the universe. Consciousness was just an illusion created by the complex multidimensional shape of the universe and I've broken it. This is the shape of the universe.” I didn't really feel bad, at this point I forgot what it was like to feel human. I wanted to remember who I was, I thought my name to myself a few times in a panic thinking some reminder of who I was would help me out of this place. After what seemed like a long time but was probably a minute I became aware of where I was.
Later, another friend sat next to me on the couch. I looked at him and where each of his eyes should have been he had two smaller eyes stacked above each other. I said, “You've got 4 eyes!” then told J to look at him and J also saw 4 eyes. For several more hours I continued to feel the buzz and altered consciousness. On Wednesday I smoked some pot thinking it would mellow me out but it brought back a lot of the body effects from the DXM. It wasn't until Thursday morning that I was able to stop feeling fractals and sine waves enough to feel like a normal human again.
This was our first time taking DXM and I enjoyed the experience but do not believe I'll do it again. J enjoyed it a lot and says he probably will try it again sometime. I have not talked to him yet about everything he experienced. I did see him today on the way to class and he does not seem to have any lingering effects.
After talking with some people in a friend's room for a while we decided to go back to J's room. Walking down the hall I discovered my balance was very poor and I had to hold onto the wall for stability. When we got there South Park was on his TV. My mental state made the show seem much funnier than I think I normally would've found it. The entire universe seemed very funny. After South Park, J put on his Pink Floyd CD.
The music seemed to have an enormous effect on my mental state. I brought out the box of nitrous and tried one balloon. After I inhaled I stood up, it didn't seem to have any effect. I took 2 steps then something changed with the music and everything became a spiral of colors. I think I may have spun around but I'm not certain. Starting with my toes my entire body spiraled around itself disappearing on the way up. Nothing was left in the universe except for two legs of color spiraling around each other. Other than those there were not even any thoughts. When I came to, somehow I had gotten across the room from rolling across the couch and my friend caught me. This happened again that night while I was sitting on the couch. The second time while I left my body my legs started spiraling around each other and when I came to found my left leg landing on my friend to the left of me and the right one landed crossed over it.
Later in the night I remember becoming a black and white fractal of infinite circles, squares, and yin-yangs spinning across an infinite grid. I turned into 3 different shapes out of sine waves that I thought were the machine code of consciousness. Somehow I became convinced that the reason there was something rather than nothing in the universe was because something chipped. Exponents flew everywhere, something to do with recursiveness. All I could think about were sine waves then BAM: my arms spun around each other in front of me and turned into a spiral extending infinitely into space, everything else disappeared. I thought, “this is it, the end of the universe. Consciousness was just an illusion created by the complex multidimensional shape of the universe and I've broken it. This is the shape of the universe.” I didn't really feel bad, at this point I forgot what it was like to feel human. I wanted to remember who I was, I thought my name to myself a few times in a panic thinking some reminder of who I was would help me out of this place. After what seemed like a long time but was probably a minute I became aware of where I was.
Later, another friend sat next to me on the couch. I looked at him and where each of his eyes should have been he had two smaller eyes stacked above each other. I said, “You've got 4 eyes!” then told J to look at him and J also saw 4 eyes. For several more hours I continued to feel the buzz and altered consciousness. On Wednesday I smoked some pot thinking it would mellow me out but it brought back a lot of the body effects from the DXM. It wasn't until Thursday morning that I was able to stop feeling fractals and sine waves enough to feel like a normal human again.
This was our first time taking DXM and I enjoyed the experience but do not believe I'll do it again. J enjoyed it a lot and says he probably will try it again sometime. I have not talked to him yet about everything he experienced. I did see him today on the way to class and he does not seem to have any lingering effects.
. Anyway, congrats, sounds like you had fun!
