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DXM as a cure for heartache

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melquiades

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In 2009 I was in a long-distance relationship. I was exploring drugs, and she was a little against it, but I did it anyway! A couple times I would take DXM- but never quite enough to get to the third plateau. I was only ever on the first and second plateaus. Near the end of trips (and one trip especially) I would call her, just wanting to be close to her through any means necessary. But she was pissed that I had taken DXM, and started arguments... and like, with that nastyness, I just wouldn't feel any incentive to re-establish a connection. I feel like some combination of DXM and me made it so that my trip killed my emotional connection to her. (After the one extremely-so trip it took us a few weeks before we restored normal contact.)

Return to present day. I have a crush on a girl that I BADLY need to get over. She has a boyfriend. (We were making out and she cheated on her boyfriend with me once... but she's not going to leave him.) I have fallen in love with her, and she knows it.

I'm thinking that if I take a bottle of DXM, and maybe even start an argument with her at the same time, then maybe it could be a great way to dispell my current love for her?

(And in general, if anyone wants to ramble about the effects that DXM has on emotional connections that would be fantastic!)
 
Yeah I love DXM and everything but this is definitely NOT a healthy way to cope with these situations...

I'm thinking that if I take a bottle of DXM, and maybe even start an argument with her at the same time, then maybe it could be a great way to dispell my current love for her?
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Really? Come on dude... just stop and think for a second about what you're saying here! :\
 
Remember one of the great pinnacles of morality:

Don't be a dick
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If she is with someone else, you need to either convince her that you are a better match for her, or get over her. Cheating with someone else's girlfriends and intentionally starting arguments for no good reason are two prime examples of being a dick.

If you actually care about her, and are not just infatuated with her, you should ask what course of action is best for her. Is the other guy actively bad for her for some reason? If not, you have no right to ask her to leave him for you, and you need to find a healthy way to get over your emotional problems. Take up a hobby, or meet a someone new. Cut off all contact with her for a few weeks. Don't try to fix your problems by getting fucked up.
 
If she cheated on her boyfriend with you, then she will cheat on you too..
When you see a hoe, u know it.. Made that mistake before, so happy she cheated on him with me and then she ended up with me.. and she cheated on me too.

You cant expect to trust a cheater, once a cheater, always a cheater.
Fuck the hoes.
 
Getting fucked up because you can't deal with your emotions and personal life sober is pretty much the definition of dangerously irresponsible drug use.
 
melquiades said:
(And in general, if anyone wants to ramble about the effects that DXM has on emotional connections that would be fantastic!)
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OK. DXM, as you already know, can distance you from emotional connections. Or it can give you a new sense of empathy. It all depends on you.

Instead of running away from heartache, use the DXM head space to view your emotional hang-ups objectively. It can be a great tool for that, since it disconnects you from yourself just enough to allow a clear understanding of what influences your emotional state, and the state of others.

Question your reasons for wanting to be in that relationship. Is it lust? Is it to fill an emotional hole? Could you offer her anything she doesn't already have? Does she really need you in her life? Do you need her as much as you think you do?

If you're going to embark on a DXM journey, try doing a cold water extraction of DXM poly from Delsym. You might as well go in for the long haul. Dose in the evening, so you can think about these issues all night. If you just want to get high to escape your feelings, then forget it. Don't take it. If you really want to work through your feelings, then I'd say go for it! Don't hold anything back from yourself. Deluding yourself and running from your problems will only make you worse. Maybe you will discover that what you need and what you want are entirely different things. Also, I recommend that you take your journey alone. Don't call up the woman you have a crush on. Her input (and a possible argument) can only serve to mess your head up during a powerful experience. You need to figure things out for yourself.

I worked through my last breakup in this manner. I discovered that even if I gave up all drugs, I really wasn't what she needed in her life, that in fact she would be better off without any man, at least until she worked through some problems of her own. My problems on top of hers just made for a very bad situation. It tore me up to let the breakup happen, but it was for the best.

Good luck, whatever you choose to do.

P.S. I recommend that you don't rely on DXM forever. The lessons you learn can last forever, as can the consequences of over-use.
 
I doubt you are really in love. You are probably just fucked up from doing so much DXM, and you think that you have feelings that are really artificial.
 
I should add that my advice is probably not entirely beneficial, but is based on the assumption that when a person is set on taking a drug, he/she will. It's better to make the best of the experience, exploiting a drug's potential for certain things, than to waste precious brain cells on an experience which will yield nothing.
 
lostPixels said:
I doubt you are really in love. You are probably just fucked up from doing so much DXM, and you think that you have feelings that are really artificial.
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To assume a person's feelings aren't real, even if said individual is "fucked up," is to offend both that person and probably 3/4 the people here on Bluelight. This is a drug-centered site, after all. Just because a person is drugged up doesn't make his or her's feelings invalid. I can't see how statements like yours are helpful. Personal growth can (and should) happen regardless of a person's current state.
 
mecaib, thanks for your advice. I'll do those things.

And no, I'm not just "trying to get fucked up"- I can do that with alcohol, pot, whatever. What I want is to cultivate some emotional distance. Hahaha, yes, I will admit that at first it does sound stupid to use drugs to escape or try to fix things. But hey, what is the point of using psychedelics? Aren't we all looking to explore ourselves, so that we can try to fix (or at least Understand!) the things inside of ourselves?

I'm also not fucked up from DXM... I've only taken it three times. The first time was to test myself for enzyme deficiencies, and the following times I got to plateaus 1 and 2, respectively.

I won't call her when I trip on DXM (whenever that will be).
 
i think the best way to get over her using dxm would be to do a high dose and engross yourself in things that are not her in order to help wipe her from your memory. eternal sunshine bro.

and drugs as escapism has always seemed to work for me so long as i don't escape too far from the things that are actually important.

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just noticed that this will be your third real dxm trip... don't do TOO high of a dose. =P
 
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