well, i did a total of three 2nd plateaus (0 others), but this wont continue, i am not letting another drug getting out of hand and make an addiction. i will change my use to weekly.
but early today, about eight in the morning i wanted to robo and go for a walk, it really lifted my spirits, has made me more sociable days after the use, and I feel so relaxed and happy. so then i thought during the walk, i wonder if i can meditate on this.
in short, i did and i thought of something that i seriously sat and thought about for an hour and a half. i felt a force, like i touched barriers with a feeling that was on the inside but not in my body, it was a string thinned to infinity going through the very center of my body. it was a sense not smell, taste, feel, see, or hear, it was something that i felt on another realm of existence. like it felt like the place was a different 4D point on a chart but the same 3D point as us, so far away in a 4 dimensionally moved place.
and then i felt a presence. it is everywhere, omnipresent. it was thinking and i knew then that the string was my soul, and that the presence is god. i automatically knew these things as if he told me those things but instead of communicating the info telepathically, he basically implanted the knowledge in my mind it seem like.
but it is not pantheism because god is everywhere but still not everything. kind of like the holy spirit in christianity without the son or the father.
the string sort of felt like it was shaking very very rapidly, and i felt like i was in the perspective of the string, my senses coming from the string not the outer shell. the whole time i felt like i was being accelerating, going forward slow but i wasn't shaking or nothin
anyone have a similar belief or experience
but early today, about eight in the morning i wanted to robo and go for a walk, it really lifted my spirits, has made me more sociable days after the use, and I feel so relaxed and happy. so then i thought during the walk, i wonder if i can meditate on this.
in short, i did and i thought of something that i seriously sat and thought about for an hour and a half. i felt a force, like i touched barriers with a feeling that was on the inside but not in my body, it was a string thinned to infinity going through the very center of my body. it was a sense not smell, taste, feel, see, or hear, it was something that i felt on another realm of existence. like it felt like the place was a different 4D point on a chart but the same 3D point as us, so far away in a 4 dimensionally moved place.
and then i felt a presence. it is everywhere, omnipresent. it was thinking and i knew then that the string was my soul, and that the presence is god. i automatically knew these things as if he told me those things but instead of communicating the info telepathically, he basically implanted the knowledge in my mind it seem like.
but it is not pantheism because god is everywhere but still not everything. kind of like the holy spirit in christianity without the son or the father.
the string sort of felt like it was shaking very very rapidly, and i felt like i was in the perspective of the string, my senses coming from the string not the outer shell. the whole time i felt like i was being accelerating, going forward slow but i wasn't shaking or nothin
anyone have a similar belief or experience
