MarcusJD9999
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Firstly IMO it's the role it plays in your life that determines what the abuse / use means: for example I use psychedelics for different reasons than why I use narcotics and usually dissociatives eventually tend to fall with the narcotics and not the psychedelics. It's not about what it says about the manifestations of the mind for me, but rather about the escapist qualities to numbing AND dissociating. Certain dissociatives are called psychedelic heroin for a reason. We ought to focus on that heroin bit rather than the psychedelic bit.
I could not judge psychedelics in the same way, because they are unsuitable for such escapist purposes. Even if they remove me from reality, the trip they give is more confronting than reality and not intrinsically soothing at all. It's only soothing when I feel good about myself in the first place.
I would personally be quite skeptical about any supposed transformative-or-not positives of dissociatives because you would not need to use them frequently for harmless therapeutic purposes. It's the problems that are relieved that make it feel more rewarding to do often, that's a typical thing.
That there are interesting things and similarities about psychedelics make all of this confusing, and also LSA happens to be a relatively narcotic psychedelic that for me tends to make me feel heavy / drowsy and tranced, a little like low to moderate AMT.. but you might be able to figure out more about that being honest about the roles these substances play. It's easy to fool yourself with justifying reasons, but it's the real underlying reasons you want.. the ones you kind of have to admit.
Availability is a fair but still poor reason to choose drugs, especially to use frequently. It's possible having other drugs available would clarify which drugs you'd turn to and why.
Ok cool thanks. I guess psychedelics can involve facing your problems, and dissociative can be like escaping, like saying I need a drink and going to the bar to numb the pain. I just couldnt get enough of it, and it made me feel goooood, enhancing other activities, such as walking or making music.
When you have to have it to enjoy those activities or cant live life fully without, then it is becoming a problem....it was getting that way for me. Eventually you wont even take the drug to get high anymore, you will take it just to feel normal. DXM can possibly get to that point, I suppose.