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WARNING: Do NOT try this unless you are an experienced DXM user and you have an idea of what you're getting yourself into, without a trip sitter, are prone to bad trips/don't know how to pull yourself out of one, etc.
Substance / Dosage: 6 oz bottle of Vicks 44. 30mg of DXM per dose = 1080 mg... perfect for an intense 4th plateau trip.
Setting: Very positive frame of mind, no trip sitter but I had people on call who knew what was going on if something went south. I had made plans for my first ever 4th plateau trip to be in my room, as dark as possible (tripping in the light is fun, but Dex is a whole other, far more intense game when it's dark!!) I'm a very, very experienced user of Dex, and I hardly ever have bad trips... and when I do, I know how to pull myself out of them just as quickly as they come, so I wasn't worried about that. I know I took something and that all I have to do is ride it out for a few hours, then it will be gone. Overall, I was in a great mindset and a safe place, with great people who love me by my side that would be there in an instant if I needed them. It was a good time and place to go on a trip.
The Trip: I have been in a very positive, loving mindset as of late, so I figured last night was the best time to take a trip to the 4th plateau. I've had my fair share of 1st, 2nd, and 3rd plateau trips, all which are different in their own rite, so I was excited. A bit of nervous anticipation, since I'd never crossed that barrier before and had no idea what to expect. I didn't even know it was possible to go higher than the 3rd plateau and live through it until very recently. A few weeks prior to this one, my boyfriend and I had decided to take a trip. There was only one bottle of 4oz Tussin left, so we grabbed a 6oz Vicks 44. We knew the dosages/sizes were different (Tussin is 15mg, making a 4oz bottle some 360mg. The Vicks dosage is written above. HUGE difference.) We had planned to split it, each take half and half, but... well, somehow I ended up pounding most of the Tussin while my boyfriend ended up pounding most of the Vicks. See, even though we KNEW the dosages were different, we didn't quite put two and two together at the time HOW MUCH different. I ended up having a solid 2nd plateau trip while my boyfriend unknowingly threw himself into a 4th plateau trip and spent the entire time hiding in his bed and rolling around while tripping balls. Afterwards, he couldn't remember what happened, just that it "changed his life" and that he couldn't wait to do it again. While I'm not a hardcore psychonaut, I do love psychedelics and dissociatives and I am always down for a good trip... the more intense, the better! So needless to say, I couldn't wait to try it. And I decided to make last night that day.
I went to the store around 3pm and bought my Vicks 44. Pure Dex, no other nasty ingredients. I had only planned to take 3/4 of it, just for a taste, but at some point I guess I drank the rest because I noticed an hour or so into the trip that it was ALL gone. Whoops! Oh well. At that point I called my boyfriend and informed him I would be gone for a while, visiting the 4th plateau. He just laughed and told me I was going to have the time of my life. So I settled down and waited for the peak.
Rewinding a bit... I don't quite remember the beginning part of the trip. I knew I had planned to see the whole trip through in the darkness of my room, but in reality, only the peak happened there. Somehow, I ended up in my garage instead for most of it. Some things I remember or the first two hours:
- Crazy, vivid hallucinations in my peripherals. For example, I would be looking forward, but out of the corner of my vision was a whole different world. I saw friends that were cities away, just sitting there staring at me (but I was alone). It looked like they were sitting just beyond a picket fence on a mountaintop, but it was still my garage. Hard to explain.
- INTENSE audio hallucinations. Whenever I robotrip lately, I get that song "Give Your Heart A Break" by Demi Lovato stuck in my head for some reason. Every time, without fail. But this time, the song was OUTSIDE my head, and at one point Demi was in my garage singing it. I couldn't see her, I just knew she was there. But it was layers of sound, which is hard to explain. It was like the song, a crowd of people talking, and that really loud buzzing metallic robotic-like sound only robotripping brings. But they were there in layers and I could hear each one, separately, not affected by the other sounds I could hear. Very hard to describe, but it was pretty legit.
- Visual distortion. Looking at my laptop was damn near impossible, because it kept moving from side to side and zooming in and out of it's own accord.
- Playing with a stuffed bear my boyfriend gave me. On the phone I had mentioned to my boyfriend that I wished I had a friend there with me to talk to, as I was feeling very empathetic and had so much LOVE to give, I just wanted someone there to give it TO. Not in a sexual way, just in a friendship kind of way. So my boyfriend said somewhat jokingly, "Well you have that bear I gave you! He'll be your friend." Well what do you know... the bear already happened to BE IN THE ROOM WITH ME! So I took my boyfriend's words to heart and proceeded to make the bear my friend. I had a fun time playing with that stuffed bear while tripping. It was like he was ALIVE. He never spoke to me, but it was like I knew he was alive. His eyes seemed very expressive and it was so real that it was like he would burst into song or start moving on his own or speaking at any minute. Well, he never did, so I eventually grew bored of staring at the bear.
- Calling my boyfriend a bunch of times because time was SO distorted. A minute seemed like an hour. I'd get off the phone with him, then call him 10 minutes later and be like, "I haven't talked to you in FOREVER!" And he would be like, "Baby, I just talked to you. It's been a few minutes." I didn't even believe him! LOL it had seriously seemed like a whole day had gone by or something. I think I did this three or four times. At one point he said he was going to take a shower and that he would call me when he was done, but that if I needed to call him to feel free, and that he promised he would answer... and if he didn't, to keep calling. Well, at one point I DID call him and he DIDN'T answer. I texted, called, etc. about five times over the course of an hour. No answer. Even in my distorted state, I knew that no one took showers for THAT long. Now, if I had been sober, I would have realized that he had fallen asleep. But I was robotripping, and so I was convinced that he was just ignoring me and didn't want to talk to me. Oh God. So I proceed to text him first, "Someone doesn't care as much as they say they do!", and then a sad smiley face, and then, "You make me sad". And I left it at that, and proceeded to start getting really depressed. He called me like an hour later informing me he fell asleep and apologizing profusely, but by that point I realized I had been tripping (quite literally) and felt horrible for waking him up, and so I started apologizing profusely, and it was all very sweet and somewhat comical lol. I'm really so lucky and so blessed to have a boyfriend that loves me as much as he does, and who is as understanding as he is, because I can almost guarantee that this would have annoyed the shit out of anyone else.
At this point, I went to go lay down because I knew the peak was starting soon. So I went in my room, made it as dark as possible, and laid down on an air mattress I had for occasions such as these. Besides, my actual bed seemed like it was 10 feet tall and I wasn't even trying to attempt that climb in my state LOL. The second I closed my eyes, the peak started, and I had the most PROFOUND mental and emotional trip accompanied by the most INTENSE physical body high and visuals/delusions ever in life. Acid, salvia... nothing compares. I wish I could remember it all, but I can't. Here's what I DO remember, of epiphanies I had and thoughts and visuals and what not:
- I had a lot of thoughts about the capacity for human emotion and intelligence. I thought about how much I loved my friends and my boyfriend, and how connected I felt to people in general.
- I had a very sensual experience at one point. It was like, an orgasm for my soul. I was incredibly turned on, but I didn't want sex, and masturbation did nothing for me. It sounds torturous, and in a way it did kind of suck lol, but overall it was just freaking amazing and beautiful.
- I started trying to figure out where human beings REALLY came from. I thought about how everything, including us, is made up of particles and atoms and other natural things. This led to the thought that we are more connected to the earth that I previously understood, and how most people are more comfortable in nature than anywhere else, and so therefore we MUST have evolved from the earth over a very long period of time. And that the earth must have evolved from one little particle at some point. I suddenly understood the Big Bang Theory PERFECTLY, which I have never studied in my life.
Now, here is the part of the trip I really want to talk about. On the flip side, the above had me start thinking about God. As soon as this happened, some sort of entity appeared to me. I can only describe this entity as "The One" or "The Creator". It looked like a... like a soul. Or something. But it had the face of a cat, but slimmer, and a long body like a centipede with several arms. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, and it offered to show me whatever I wanted, and to answer any questions I wanted answered. It didn't speak to me, but I somehow just KNEW what it was trying to convey. This started the most enlightening, intense, beautiful part of the entire trip and it truly did change my life. First I closed my eyes. I had no visuals or patterns like normal. Instead, everything was black but there was a lot of depth to it and it went miles and miles out. I understood this to be the "starting point", to go wherever I wanted and do anything I wanted. All I had to do was ask. This "starting point" was just nothingness, pure nothingness, but very peaceful and calm... kind of like what I imagine a deep state of meditation to be like. There was no body high, no feelings, just as sense of looking out into miles and miles of darkness while my entity waited patiently for me to ask a question I wanted answered, or to ask her (it was a she) to go somewhere. So I did.
I've never had an OBE (out of body experience), but I've always wanted to, so I asked for one. My eyes stayed closed for fear of breaking this awesome experience if I opened them, so I didn't quite SEE it but I definitely felt it! First I could feel my soul being lifted from my body, floating up. And then I was flying and floating and soaring all at once. It was the most amazing body high I have ever felt, far better than rolling, or anything else. When I was done, I told her there was a question I wanted to know about, I wanted to know what would be the fate of human beings. She told me the world would never really end, but that humanity would. That we will become extinct just like every other species, because no species can truly last forever. I somehow also "knew" that I would see this happen in my lifetime. I asked her another question, about what the true meaning of life was, and I felt a huge roadblock at that point and then that part of the trip just all shut down at once. I somehow knew I wasn't supposed to know that - yet - or that perhaps there just really ISN'T a universal meaning and as human beings, we're supposed to create our own meanings. I started thinking about how everything else has a purpose, and we know their purposes - the meaning of a bee's life is to gather pollen and create honey and serve it's queen - and so on and so forth. So why is it that we can understand the meaning of life for every other living thing on this earth besides ours? I was just having crazy, random, profound thoughts like that. I felt like I could ask any question and understand it perfectly if I meditated on it long enough.
I know a lot of other things happened, like at one point I WAS *just* an atom, and I was travelling through the earth and through space. I don't really remember anything else. All I know is that it was the most beautiful and profound thing I ever experienced, and even the things I didn't like - such as my realizations about the end of humanity - had a quality of great peace to them. There was nothing really bad about the trip. It definitely changed my life. I know that there is more knowledge out there, more to be learned, and that our time on this earth is just one small part of our soul's journey. I don't know what happens when we die, but I now believe that it's just a whole new adventure with new things to learn and see and feel. I DO know that we don't understand emotion... that there are beautiful, intense emotions our human bodies simply don't have the capacity to feel. At one point, I felt TOO MUCH ecstasy, it was so intense, and it was amazing. I just learned a lot about love and human compassion and I realized exactly how limited we really are, stuck in the human body. And that life is a gift that isn't to be wasted, that we should experience everything we can while we have it.
All in all, it was a great trip. Very profound and definitely changed my life. I don't know if I REALLY answered any questions, or if any of the answers that came to me were right. But it was fun, at the very least. It isn't something I would want to repeat often. It feels too... sacred, or something. It's a very spiritual experience. But I will DEFINITELY try it again sometime in the future! :D
Substance / Dosage: 6 oz bottle of Vicks 44. 30mg of DXM per dose = 1080 mg... perfect for an intense 4th plateau trip.
Setting: Very positive frame of mind, no trip sitter but I had people on call who knew what was going on if something went south. I had made plans for my first ever 4th plateau trip to be in my room, as dark as possible (tripping in the light is fun, but Dex is a whole other, far more intense game when it's dark!!) I'm a very, very experienced user of Dex, and I hardly ever have bad trips... and when I do, I know how to pull myself out of them just as quickly as they come, so I wasn't worried about that. I know I took something and that all I have to do is ride it out for a few hours, then it will be gone. Overall, I was in a great mindset and a safe place, with great people who love me by my side that would be there in an instant if I needed them. It was a good time and place to go on a trip.
The Trip: I have been in a very positive, loving mindset as of late, so I figured last night was the best time to take a trip to the 4th plateau. I've had my fair share of 1st, 2nd, and 3rd plateau trips, all which are different in their own rite, so I was excited. A bit of nervous anticipation, since I'd never crossed that barrier before and had no idea what to expect. I didn't even know it was possible to go higher than the 3rd plateau and live through it until very recently. A few weeks prior to this one, my boyfriend and I had decided to take a trip. There was only one bottle of 4oz Tussin left, so we grabbed a 6oz Vicks 44. We knew the dosages/sizes were different (Tussin is 15mg, making a 4oz bottle some 360mg. The Vicks dosage is written above. HUGE difference.) We had planned to split it, each take half and half, but... well, somehow I ended up pounding most of the Tussin while my boyfriend ended up pounding most of the Vicks. See, even though we KNEW the dosages were different, we didn't quite put two and two together at the time HOW MUCH different. I ended up having a solid 2nd plateau trip while my boyfriend unknowingly threw himself into a 4th plateau trip and spent the entire time hiding in his bed and rolling around while tripping balls. Afterwards, he couldn't remember what happened, just that it "changed his life" and that he couldn't wait to do it again. While I'm not a hardcore psychonaut, I do love psychedelics and dissociatives and I am always down for a good trip... the more intense, the better! So needless to say, I couldn't wait to try it. And I decided to make last night that day.
I went to the store around 3pm and bought my Vicks 44. Pure Dex, no other nasty ingredients. I had only planned to take 3/4 of it, just for a taste, but at some point I guess I drank the rest because I noticed an hour or so into the trip that it was ALL gone. Whoops! Oh well. At that point I called my boyfriend and informed him I would be gone for a while, visiting the 4th plateau. He just laughed and told me I was going to have the time of my life. So I settled down and waited for the peak.
Rewinding a bit... I don't quite remember the beginning part of the trip. I knew I had planned to see the whole trip through in the darkness of my room, but in reality, only the peak happened there. Somehow, I ended up in my garage instead for most of it. Some things I remember or the first two hours:
- Crazy, vivid hallucinations in my peripherals. For example, I would be looking forward, but out of the corner of my vision was a whole different world. I saw friends that were cities away, just sitting there staring at me (but I was alone). It looked like they were sitting just beyond a picket fence on a mountaintop, but it was still my garage. Hard to explain.
- INTENSE audio hallucinations. Whenever I robotrip lately, I get that song "Give Your Heart A Break" by Demi Lovato stuck in my head for some reason. Every time, without fail. But this time, the song was OUTSIDE my head, and at one point Demi was in my garage singing it. I couldn't see her, I just knew she was there. But it was layers of sound, which is hard to explain. It was like the song, a crowd of people talking, and that really loud buzzing metallic robotic-like sound only robotripping brings. But they were there in layers and I could hear each one, separately, not affected by the other sounds I could hear. Very hard to describe, but it was pretty legit.
- Visual distortion. Looking at my laptop was damn near impossible, because it kept moving from side to side and zooming in and out of it's own accord.
- Playing with a stuffed bear my boyfriend gave me. On the phone I had mentioned to my boyfriend that I wished I had a friend there with me to talk to, as I was feeling very empathetic and had so much LOVE to give, I just wanted someone there to give it TO. Not in a sexual way, just in a friendship kind of way. So my boyfriend said somewhat jokingly, "Well you have that bear I gave you! He'll be your friend." Well what do you know... the bear already happened to BE IN THE ROOM WITH ME! So I took my boyfriend's words to heart and proceeded to make the bear my friend. I had a fun time playing with that stuffed bear while tripping. It was like he was ALIVE. He never spoke to me, but it was like I knew he was alive. His eyes seemed very expressive and it was so real that it was like he would burst into song or start moving on his own or speaking at any minute. Well, he never did, so I eventually grew bored of staring at the bear.
- Calling my boyfriend a bunch of times because time was SO distorted. A minute seemed like an hour. I'd get off the phone with him, then call him 10 minutes later and be like, "I haven't talked to you in FOREVER!" And he would be like, "Baby, I just talked to you. It's been a few minutes." I didn't even believe him! LOL it had seriously seemed like a whole day had gone by or something. I think I did this three or four times. At one point he said he was going to take a shower and that he would call me when he was done, but that if I needed to call him to feel free, and that he promised he would answer... and if he didn't, to keep calling. Well, at one point I DID call him and he DIDN'T answer. I texted, called, etc. about five times over the course of an hour. No answer. Even in my distorted state, I knew that no one took showers for THAT long. Now, if I had been sober, I would have realized that he had fallen asleep. But I was robotripping, and so I was convinced that he was just ignoring me and didn't want to talk to me. Oh God. So I proceed to text him first, "Someone doesn't care as much as they say they do!", and then a sad smiley face, and then, "You make me sad". And I left it at that, and proceeded to start getting really depressed. He called me like an hour later informing me he fell asleep and apologizing profusely, but by that point I realized I had been tripping (quite literally) and felt horrible for waking him up, and so I started apologizing profusely, and it was all very sweet and somewhat comical lol. I'm really so lucky and so blessed to have a boyfriend that loves me as much as he does, and who is as understanding as he is, because I can almost guarantee that this would have annoyed the shit out of anyone else.
At this point, I went to go lay down because I knew the peak was starting soon. So I went in my room, made it as dark as possible, and laid down on an air mattress I had for occasions such as these. Besides, my actual bed seemed like it was 10 feet tall and I wasn't even trying to attempt that climb in my state LOL. The second I closed my eyes, the peak started, and I had the most PROFOUND mental and emotional trip accompanied by the most INTENSE physical body high and visuals/delusions ever in life. Acid, salvia... nothing compares. I wish I could remember it all, but I can't. Here's what I DO remember, of epiphanies I had and thoughts and visuals and what not:
- I had a lot of thoughts about the capacity for human emotion and intelligence. I thought about how much I loved my friends and my boyfriend, and how connected I felt to people in general.
- I had a very sensual experience at one point. It was like, an orgasm for my soul. I was incredibly turned on, but I didn't want sex, and masturbation did nothing for me. It sounds torturous, and in a way it did kind of suck lol, but overall it was just freaking amazing and beautiful.
- I started trying to figure out where human beings REALLY came from. I thought about how everything, including us, is made up of particles and atoms and other natural things. This led to the thought that we are more connected to the earth that I previously understood, and how most people are more comfortable in nature than anywhere else, and so therefore we MUST have evolved from the earth over a very long period of time. And that the earth must have evolved from one little particle at some point. I suddenly understood the Big Bang Theory PERFECTLY, which I have never studied in my life.
Now, here is the part of the trip I really want to talk about. On the flip side, the above had me start thinking about God. As soon as this happened, some sort of entity appeared to me. I can only describe this entity as "The One" or "The Creator". It looked like a... like a soul. Or something. But it had the face of a cat, but slimmer, and a long body like a centipede with several arms. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, and it offered to show me whatever I wanted, and to answer any questions I wanted answered. It didn't speak to me, but I somehow just KNEW what it was trying to convey. This started the most enlightening, intense, beautiful part of the entire trip and it truly did change my life. First I closed my eyes. I had no visuals or patterns like normal. Instead, everything was black but there was a lot of depth to it and it went miles and miles out. I understood this to be the "starting point", to go wherever I wanted and do anything I wanted. All I had to do was ask. This "starting point" was just nothingness, pure nothingness, but very peaceful and calm... kind of like what I imagine a deep state of meditation to be like. There was no body high, no feelings, just as sense of looking out into miles and miles of darkness while my entity waited patiently for me to ask a question I wanted answered, or to ask her (it was a she) to go somewhere. So I did.
I've never had an OBE (out of body experience), but I've always wanted to, so I asked for one. My eyes stayed closed for fear of breaking this awesome experience if I opened them, so I didn't quite SEE it but I definitely felt it! First I could feel my soul being lifted from my body, floating up. And then I was flying and floating and soaring all at once. It was the most amazing body high I have ever felt, far better than rolling, or anything else. When I was done, I told her there was a question I wanted to know about, I wanted to know what would be the fate of human beings. She told me the world would never really end, but that humanity would. That we will become extinct just like every other species, because no species can truly last forever. I somehow also "knew" that I would see this happen in my lifetime. I asked her another question, about what the true meaning of life was, and I felt a huge roadblock at that point and then that part of the trip just all shut down at once. I somehow knew I wasn't supposed to know that - yet - or that perhaps there just really ISN'T a universal meaning and as human beings, we're supposed to create our own meanings. I started thinking about how everything else has a purpose, and we know their purposes - the meaning of a bee's life is to gather pollen and create honey and serve it's queen - and so on and so forth. So why is it that we can understand the meaning of life for every other living thing on this earth besides ours? I was just having crazy, random, profound thoughts like that. I felt like I could ask any question and understand it perfectly if I meditated on it long enough.
I know a lot of other things happened, like at one point I WAS *just* an atom, and I was travelling through the earth and through space. I don't really remember anything else. All I know is that it was the most beautiful and profound thing I ever experienced, and even the things I didn't like - such as my realizations about the end of humanity - had a quality of great peace to them. There was nothing really bad about the trip. It definitely changed my life. I know that there is more knowledge out there, more to be learned, and that our time on this earth is just one small part of our soul's journey. I don't know what happens when we die, but I now believe that it's just a whole new adventure with new things to learn and see and feel. I DO know that we don't understand emotion... that there are beautiful, intense emotions our human bodies simply don't have the capacity to feel. At one point, I felt TOO MUCH ecstasy, it was so intense, and it was amazing. I just learned a lot about love and human compassion and I realized exactly how limited we really are, stuck in the human body. And that life is a gift that isn't to be wasted, that we should experience everything we can while we have it.
All in all, it was a great trip. Very profound and definitely changed my life. I don't know if I REALLY answered any questions, or if any of the answers that came to me were right. But it was fun, at the very least. It isn't something I would want to repeat often. It feels too... sacred, or something. It's a very spiritual experience. But I will DEFINITELY try it again sometime in the future! :D
