Hi and welcome to Bluelight
I'm sorry that you want to end your life. I know you probably don't care but please at least try to reconsider your decision.
Do you really not have anything to live for? Think about the pain your friends and family would feel if you were to die. Maybe you think they don't care but in most cases this isn't true.
I had a very close friend die and trust it's one of the worst feelings.
Life can suck big time at times but I promise you it will get better.
I have a friend who attempted suicide a few times and now he's pretty happy just after a few months. He just waited it out and now he feels better. He hasn't attempted suicide in several months.
Please just wait and things will get better.
I've had a bout of depression a few years ago (not to the point of suicidal ideation but still) and what really helped me was:
-Trying to think positive (sounds corny and is not really a solution but it can help)
-Physical activity (the rush of endorphines , dopamine etc. Feels really good and a healthy body helps keeping a healthy mind)
-A healthy diet (maybe it sounds stupid but it can help trust me, feeling healthy really does wonders for the mind)
-Meditation (this is easily one of the best things you can do to help with anxiety, depression. Etc. It's not some new age shit I promise. I can tell you a few good books if you want. It takes time to see results but trust me it's well worth it)
I don't know you so I don't know your problems but that stuff really helped me out.
Also you could try and get some therapy or something, or just vent to a friend.
Lastly, you probably don't believe me but I care about you. I don't know you but just knowing that you're in pain makes me feel empathy towards you. Shoot me a PM if you need to talk, alright? Please
Hope I helped at least a tiny bit! You can visit the sub-forum "the dark side" for further help and resources.
Have a nice day and as I said PM me if you need to vent or help navigate the site.
P.S.
link to The Dark Side
