Dumb ideas

Well, I thought I was doing pretty good. Stuck with the subs five weeks now but got some sort of infection that made my tounge swell up huge, and haven?t taken the past two days as they are films.


Then...



Somehow my brain fucking shit off today, and I cold copped. I have never successfully done this before, first time I was ripped off about a year ago. I went for h. I got it fine.
I have fent strips. I tested a tiny amount in a spoon, think amount on the tip of a sharp knife, maybe 1mm diameter, and it popped positive for fentanyl twice. Which has deterred me enough from doing a line, tho I did sniff bag residue before testing as it did have the faint smell to it.
Plug is being very pushy and insisting it?s fine, sniffs 5-7 a day.

Anyway just feel like I really fell off the wagon, like emergency ejection.. but I?m gunna hold off and try subs at a different ROA asap in morning.

:-/

 

Recovery is a process. Try to identify the triggers that led to you scoring and work to avoid them in the future

 

I guess the withdrawal from the bupe, I was scared of being allergic but after ruling it out I had already made the mistake. I did do a bit of the h but it was an incredibly dirty feeling, so now I’m going to try and tough it til tomorrow.. definitely in full w/d from bupe now but dunno feel like I should leave some space between what I tried and next bupe dose which I’m gunna try sniffing. Knowing how crappy that bag was/tiny bump made me feel actually has me wishing I was still leveled out on the bupe x10000.