woodspiece
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 20, 2010
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Like many, I started out with weak opiates like #3s. Quicky discoverd vikes and percs--then crossed the line into H. And sub. too. In all of my opiate years, I've never thought about getting blasted or parting. I've thought of qwelling the depressive aspects of my personality that don't respond to tradional AD treatment. And I've used opiates, especially H. to "get away from it all"; to find my own place of freedom always inhabited by depression and other problems.
And then i learned that one not be a full blown junkie--but when moving into the dangerous place with narcotics, to simply live with sub. I've never used much sub. Always inducted around 2mgs. and quickly brought myself down to 1mg.
But now a darkness has entered my life for the first time. And that is the inability to score a script (easy for me) or cop from the street (pills, H., etc.)
Not that I've lost my touch--it's due to where i live. There simply are no scripts to cop--and the street, well, one of the most dangerous streets in the world-if you ever even gain access.
So i sit-with my sub. keeping sickness at bay--but suffer the unbearable inability to get the real thing. Kind of like a dry drunk--but not by choice-but by situation and curcumstance.
I've suffered a lot of anxiety over this situation for months now. Even a simple advil requires a doctor's script.
Sometimes we take so much for granted-like the releif of opiates--but when they become impossible to get, it can become quite dark.
And then i learned that one not be a full blown junkie--but when moving into the dangerous place with narcotics, to simply live with sub. I've never used much sub. Always inducted around 2mgs. and quickly brought myself down to 1mg.
But now a darkness has entered my life for the first time. And that is the inability to score a script (easy for me) or cop from the street (pills, H., etc.)
Not that I've lost my touch--it's due to where i live. There simply are no scripts to cop--and the street, well, one of the most dangerous streets in the world-if you ever even gain access.
So i sit-with my sub. keeping sickness at bay--but suffer the unbearable inability to get the real thing. Kind of like a dry drunk--but not by choice-but by situation and curcumstance.
I've suffered a lot of anxiety over this situation for months now. Even a simple advil requires a doctor's script.
Sometimes we take so much for granted-like the releif of opiates--but when they become impossible to get, it can become quite dark.
