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drugs to stop cutting

OGSnaps

OGSnaps

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okay, i've been cutting so much. for months now. it's been worse and worse and worse.
i stopped for a while at a point, 2 weeks. this girl gave me a way to get rid of wanting to cut, just drink cold water and hold ice cubes in your hands as long as you can.

it seems weird but it worked for a while. until she stopped talking to me because i apparently "lied" about my life.

i had strong feelings for her. i had a chance too. i just needed a lot of time.
it made me hate myself more when she stopped talking to me.

so i tried the ice cube thing, and i just cried. i couldn't do it. so i cut myself, so many times.
and i miss her.

I don't really have anyone to talk to, i used to have about a million people on kik. but they're gone.
all cause of who I am, the life decisions i have made to be on the... sketchy, ghetto, dark side of the world.

as you can see, i'm desperate.
are there any kinds of drugs that would help me not cut?
or anything i can do
i've tried running, scribbling on paper, pouring my heart out into poetry, rapping, jacking off, so much...
shit, even if someone could take the time to talk to me, that would help too.
i'm looking for anything that can help me. i hate the scars on my wrists. i'm sick of it.
 
Hey OG, I'm really sorry that you are turning everything on yourself. Cutting is a weird thing to try to figure out--I used to do it in my teens and early twenties and have spent years since trying to figure out why some people are compelled to do it. It seems to be the consensus that it has to do with control. It seems backwards that one would do something so obviously harmful as a form of control in their lives but no one ever said being human makes sense!:\8)
Conscious distraction is a way to change the habit of cutting. When you feel the urge, tell yourself that you are going to do __ instead. Running is a good one because not only can it get you through the obsessive moment but it will make you feel instantly better because of the endorphins produced by exercise. But it has to be a very conscious act--"I am doing this because I need to change this self-destructive behavior." Own it.


The most important thing that you can do overall is to try to foster ways that you can feel in control of your own life. I realize now in hindsight that one of the reasons that my life was so out of control was that I had not really accepted responsibility for it. I was afraid to take responsibility for my own life because I had a very fatalistic view of it and couldn't face the prospect of trying and failing--easier not to try. Are you living a life that is engaging to you? Or are you just trying to fit yourself into something because it is what you think you are supposed to be doing? Adulthood is figuring out this question.
 
Hey OG I would get some counseling to try and address whats up. If you do not have health insurance because of financial resources then I would consider applying at the government health care website as you should qualify for free coverage if this is the case. You could then use the coverage to pay for some professional counseling.

I am not a cutter so the next suggestions are just some ideas for you to consider. Its my understanding that the positive effects from cutting come from the endorphin release associated with the pain.

There are other ways to get this type of release. exercise that gets us breathing hard does this for us so I would really consider taking up some form of exercise that makes you breath hard and I would do this 4 or five times a week.

Exercise and Brain Neurotransmission
Neurobiology of Exercise
Aerobic Exercise
Exercise 4 Health, Mental Health, and Addiction vs. The Endorphin Factory
Exercise 4 Health, Mental Health, and Addiction vs. I worked all that out
exercise and sleep

Another option would be to take up eating spicy peppers instead of engaging in self harm that causes real damage. Hot peppers have a chemical in them and its the same chemical the body releases when it is burnt. So the peppers fool the brain into thinking your mouth is on fire. With this you feel the pain and the endorphins are released and you will get the same effects as cutting, but you would do far less real damage to yourself.

What the deal with hot peppers?

Sorry you are suffering and I hope you find some permanent relief and I hope these approaches help. :)
 
"Sorry you are suffering and I hope you find some permanent relief and I hope these approaches help. :)"

Same here!
 
I'm so sorry to hear how hard things are for you right now. I have a few tips but like someone said above try Counselling, CBT may help with a quick fix and person centred therapy may help you to resolve deeper struggles.

as for alternatives to self harm
try an elastic band on your wrist or ankle and snap it hard on to your skin when you are having thoughts to self harm,
Ice cubes can work for some people as can drawing on your skin in red ink, sometimes the visual image is enough.

use the amazing people on here if you need to talk, you don't have to be alone and self harm is nothing to be ashamed of, it's a way many people find to help them cope with overwhelming feelings.

Hope things pick up for you.
 
I think you should ask yourself the question, what is it you are seeking by cutting yourself? Is it the brief feeling of relief you get (that would be me)? Do you perhaps want to punish yourself? Just to feel something? In my experience there are various reasons for this kind of behaviour and therefore there are various solutions as well. For example someone who wants to punish themselves might quite likely benefit from therapy or counseling, while someone who is just looking for a relief might benefit from medication until they learn other coping mechanisms.
 
My friend who is in her late 50s is/was a cutter. We had difficulty finding psych doctors or counselors to treat her. Most of them turned her away because they only dealt with adolescence cutters... which we found to be a bunch of bull... wondering what they think will happen to cutters as they age. I digress... we finally found one who agreed to help her. They gave her heavy behavior modification tools and a script for ritalin. This is not just a teen issue... nor is it a "ghetto" issue... it's a condition that can be treated. It's interesting that you mentioned the ice therapy, as she was submerging her chin in ice when she felt an urge to cut. Must be something to that. Good luck and god bless.
 
I don't think anyone can give you an accurate answer over the internet. I'd strongly urge you to seek professional help.
 
Have you considered seeking out a dominatrix? The desire to self destruct and self harm does not couple well with self medicating in my experience. There are safe, responsible ways to seek physical pain as a release for negative thought and emotion. It's not for everyone and that culture has it's own pitfalls, safety concerns and problems. But some (myself included) have found it viable. I haven't self harmed in a decade and it wasn't drugs that helped. It was things like Sadism, Masochism and performance art. Your mileage may vary. On the plus side, the fact that you are reaching out to people for help and or advice is a good sign that this is something you can overcome, no matter how bleak things might seem.
 
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