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Drugs That Changed Your Life

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Post your stories on any drug or research chemical that has changed your life, for better or worse.

Any advice regarding your experiences, is also welcome and encouraged.
 
Methamphetamine. At low dosages, and combined with marijuana, I went from being a floundering grad student with virtually no social life to an expert in my field who was quite popular among his colleagues. I'm not sure that could have been sustained, but the year and a half where I was using methamphetamine was, hands down, the absolute best time of my life.
 
Oxycontin changed my life... Before that it was just drink, get stoned and do a various mix of other drugs. I always did opiates for the most part but when I got on oxycontin shit changed. I was using all the time, hanging out with a new crowd of people, stealing, using my money only on more pills and the list went on. When I stopped getting enough money to buy pills I became a middleman and got other people oxycontin which helped support mine. Even though I did at one point I ended up selling more and wasn't really just a middleman...I would also move large quantities for these big dealers who I grew to know (but of course cops everything I say is just a story and this is just my online persona.) The addiction got so bad and I'm surprised I even made it through school. I just saw many people end up in jail, rehab or dead. People kept coming in and out of my life.

So it wasn't very stable and I was losing certain people around me. Well I did manage to get clean at one point but I ended up using dope instead. I got into using dope because there is no way I can support that oxy habit and dope is a lot cheaper... Yeah oxycontin changed my life in many ways.
 
Heroin - This was at the time when my depression was starting to manifest but was still subtle enough not to drastically impact my life. I found this drug and just like almost everyone, found it to be the perfect escape and that sent me into a 7 month habit. I can guarantee that this drug, along with my careless use of it, is definitely the biggest reason for why my mental health is the way it is.

LSD - Saved me from suicide during an Oxy/Roxi and Xanax binge, which was brought on by the depression that resulted due to my Heroin habit.


These two substances are my absolute favorite, and I find it somewhat poetic that one had the potential to destroy my life and the other saved my life.
 
@ Seyer - My experiences are very similar!

Heroin - This was used as an escape and has definitely had the largest negative impact on my life. I won't deny I had a great time in the early days of use, but once it became a chore just to be "well"...the blessing became a curse.

Magic Mushrooms - A single Summer of dosing Thai psilocybin mushies (about 6 times at a low-moderate level), helped me to gain perspective on my life, and ultimately helped me deal with depression brought on by Heroin PAWS (Post-acute Withdrawl Symptoms), especially depression.
 
Buprenorphine - Enabled me to stay off of heroin for the long-term. Excellent analgesic.

Cannabis - I find this to be an excellent anti-depressant/anxiolytic.

Heroin - I gained a shit-ton of bravery while using heroin. I also became more patient as a result.

MDA - Changed philosophical views, intense spiritual experience, as well I found appreciation for my life.

Mushrooms - Changed philosophical views.

Temazepam - Insomnia has been alleviated when necessary, and since I'm also responsible with temazepam, this has probably kept me from relapsing on heroin.
 
Amphetamines - Made me a more anxious person overall, and it caused a severe depression. Caused me to become a big fan of downers in general. Benzos first, then opiates. They helped for a while but then abuse got out of hand.

Benzos - At first they helped me with anxiety, then they fucked up my life because I wasn't able to abstain from taking huge doses. Now I'm back to a normal dose, but that hardly helps. I just take it because I'm scared of the w/d.

Opiates - Cravings, cravings and more cravings. The drugs that didn't seem to have any negative effects, but affected my life the most of all drugs, and it affected the people around me too.

LSD - Made me realise how idiotic my benzo-opiate intake had become. In a way it saved my life too.
 
LSD - Definitely let me tap into a creative energy that I have always possessed but had never been aware of until I started dropping acid. Gave me all of the questions I was afraid to ask myself.
MDMA - Destroyed my social anxiety in a single fell swoop, but also developed into a nasty habit (uncommon for E, I know) which led me into depression.
Psilocybin - Gave me the answers to the questions that LSD showed me.
Cocaine/Amphetamines - Kickstarted my stimulant addiction (that I have since recovered from), but ultimately taught me how to moderate my drug use.
Cannabis - I used it as a psychedelic, and it helped me tap into my own creative energy on a different (but not necessarily weaker) level than Psilocybin or LSD.
 
Under the aftereffects of my first night with DMT I realized that the person who I am is a fine person to be. This message has been forgotten and relearned a few times.

While on 4-AcO-DMT earlier this spring I realized that I spend too much of my time inebriated to really enjoy and appreciate sobriety. Since then my drug use has curtailed quite a bit, and I see this trend continuing.
 
MDMA - besides weed and alcohol, it was the first drug I got high on. abused it and ended up with severe depression and anxiety. I feel like I tried to unsuccessfully recreate those first couple rolls with my drug use after that

cocaine - got rid of some social anxiety, but took me down a dark road; I alienated friends, made new "friends" who I eventually realized weren't friends at all and just people to get drugs from and get high with. Wayyyy too many bad decisions were made when I was using coke, and after my house got raided I got kicked out of school, went to jail, went broke and lost all my friends

I'd like to say that psychedelics have changed my life but they really haven't, drastically. I've made some really significant/powerful realizations on 4-aco-dmt but failed to take any action to actually change anything. I want to try a high dose 4-aco trip again but am admittadly scared because I kind of already know what it's going to show me and don't know if i'm ready to make such drastic changes.
 
Pslicybin definitely changed many things about me. It has been about 13 months since my first trip and I feel like I enjoy just about every thing more now that I previously did. My friends and family have all noticed a marked improvement in my level of happiness on a day to day basis. I had a complete attitude change for the better. It also helped bring me out of a semi bad time in my life. Before taking them I had lost my scholarship, dropped out of school, and been basically wasting my life hiding away in my room for days or even weeks at a time. It was very unhealthy. I got back in school and now I've made the Dean's List the two semesters following my trip. I also started making a conscious effort to live healthier. I completely gave up fast food and all soft drinks and started being physically active far more often. I'm still not where I probably should be, but it is a start. I might say that taking psilcybin was one of the best/smartest things I've ever done.
 
Recounting all the different drugs I've tried and their impact on my life is kind of like going through ex-lovers and recounting what their impacts were on me. It will take more thinking for me to post my answers. Not that anyone cares about my answers, but that's all I could come up with. :p
 
MDMA for the better. While on MDMA, I don't have my anxiety issues. And it just made me feel more open in general, even when off of it. Helped my anxiety for a while.
Mushrooms - made my anxiety worse. Kind of reversed what the MDMA did to help me, in a way. *sigh*
 
^ same, drugs anyway.

MDMA- made me more aware and considerate of how people feel, whenever I feel down I think about my past experiences with it and feel better just thinking of them. I often relate to and go back to the thoughts and realizations I had on it, which can add flavor to intellectual conversations I have with people... it also expanded my social circle, and not in a bad way which some drugs might.

Shrooms- no words, just feelings, advanced and primitive.
 
Opiates in general. I'm addicted 2 the point were I know if I didn't have scripts I'd get um some way. Never did I ever think that this'd happen 2 me. I'd say that's a pretty big impact/change :/
 
Methamphetamine - I would definitely say that drug destroyed me worse the IV heroin and WAY quicker. It totally kidnapped my life. One day when my husband was in a psychosis and a black out on klonopin, the cops came by and I lost everything. Although I did well on hiding my drug addiction from my baby girl, held a job, and did everything with her a good parent would, it still didn't take long to alter her life. We got arrested this day on marijuana possession and child endangerment due to just having syringes (even though they were in a bag in a lock box (unlocked at the time, but closed) on our closed off (renovation) bathroom floor, behind the toilet) and legal prescription medications. Even though I KNOW I never did anything to harm or put my child in danger, "what it looked like", ruined everything. All the cops saw was that there were two people, who used IV to administer drugs, and a toddler living under the same roof. I can't hide that. My husband is still in jail due to the arrest, his parole officer finding out and violating his parole due to it, and we're really hoping that in the next 2 months, when I go in to do my sentence, he will be getting out.
Turns out to be the best thing to ever happen to me! Now, I'm clean (from illegal substances - still take my perscriptions) and still see my daughter everyday. My Mom and I are hoping that come January, when I get out of state mandated treatment for 6 months, I will have my daughter (and my husband) living in my home with me again. She's currently the guardian of my baby, per my request, until I get through treatment, then she's all mine again and we can move on with our lives.
 
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POT SAVED ME!!I wanna say this and not be considered crazy...I had a massive dilaudid/percocet addiction in 2009 to 2010. I have a back injury from falling on the ice while pregnant and than the year following that childs birth I had a double roll over. I have a significant curve in my lower back degenertave disc disease and a buldging disc in my l4 or l5 I cannot remember. So in the course of the two incidents I was on dilaudid pills and iv,percocet, Fentyl patches and iv, and lots of flexiril which blows ass. That is alot of mother fucking pills and hospital visits the pain was so intense when I was pregnant I and I am sure my dr thought caused some preterm labour episodes. I was hopsitalized when I went off the hard core opiates...HELL ON EARTH...I thought I was gonna mother freaking die dude. THree days in the hospital to rehydrate because I was so sick. SO pot saved me because I am able to control the pain with Soma and Tylenol 3...I admit I am still taking opiates but not fun one trust me I know. It is terrible to know that NO ONE should ever know that it is the worst feeling in the world to go from great to detox in a short time. And when I run out of pot I dont fiend for it and if I remotely may seem like I might it is due to massive pain flair up. I was the biggest ANIT DRUG person in high school. God who would have known that I would have been an addict...I was SO ANTI POT it was ridiculous. And now I am all about getting active with the politcal bills that come through and taking the time to really educate myself about this wonder drug. POT is just simply put amazing it has made me grow as a person mentally <I wanna add I am in my late twenties and I only started actively smoking and or ingesting THC in Nov. 2011. I was so scared of it. And here I am so thankful to be alive and to show that MJ I don't believe in my case is a gateway drug I kinda did it ass backwards a friend had told me in the terms of my drug use. So I am very thankful for it. And sometimes it helps with my Tourette's syndrome.
 
Alcohol - Turns me into a violent, psychotic, bitch.
Cocaine - Led me into prostitution and played a part in losing custody of my eldest son.
Speed/Base - Gives me the energy and enthusiasm to get up each day, has allowed me to lose a lot of weight. It has given me insomnia and the rare day I don't take it my energy levels are non existent.
Clonazepam - helps me relax at a low dose and sleep at high dose. When taken for sleep leaves me sluggish the next day.
Zopiclone - Allows me a full nights sleep with no hangover. Gives me a disgusting taste all the next day.

Many others I feel have not had too much of an impact on my life.

I also have bipolar that could have been triggered/made worse by my drug use. Though part of the reason I seem to be easily addicted could be down to the bipolar.
 
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