Hello everyone, pretty sensationalized title, I know. Its kinda true though, I'm no hardcore drug user, as I have never done anything illegal, but let me freakin tell you that there are a few legal drugs you can buy online right now that will make you go through a withdrawal that would easily put you at the end of your life, or wish you were at least just to stop the agony.
Let me start by saying I like bluelight... way better than drug crap forum where everyone is swimming and talking loads or ignorant garbage with less light-of- heart discussions... losers. Anyways, so lets talk about the drugs I've used. Alcohol... excessively, oxy and hydro... excessively, LSA... excessively, dxm... almost excessively, all kinds of other experiments that were less promising, but my FAVORITE of all... phenibut. Holy crap it makes you feel like God himself in every aspect of your life. Euphoria that I would assume feels like mdma, extreme well being, calm, relaxed, empathogenic... it was exactly what i needed!!! Yea, I knew the tolerance stories warned me, but I was a fool... I could handle it! Well I couldn't lol... after two weeks, starting out with 3 grams a day, 4 grams the next day, and progressing in that pattern to something like 10-15 grams a day... I withdrew. Was it how people explain heroin withdrawal?... no. Hydro and Oxy withdrawal... no, been through both and they sucked but I got over it. Alcohol withdrawal?... no, I went through alcohol withdrawal and it sucked but I moved on after a few days with minimal post acute withdrawal (paws)... no, all other withdrawals I've ever went through or heard of sounded hard, but not like this...
Phenibut withdrawal- started two days after my last dose... COLD TURKEY CAUSE IM A MAN AND I CAN HANDLE IT! Severe heart palpatations and blood pressure so high that I was bed-bound with my bloodshot eyes wide open laying on the bed stiff with opiate withdrawal like aches.. but effin worse. Because my gaba B was so heavily abused and had such low endroginous gabardine levels, my glutamate was spiking in a way you couldn't hope to imagine- severe neurotoxin like. I was in my own hell in my own mind with severe paranoia, thinking my wife hated me, I was a bad father, every mistake I ever made in my life was on my mind 24/7 and I throught about suicide the whole freaking withdrawal... which lasted 15 days just for the acute withdrawal. And guess what? I didn't sleep until the 10th day lol. Up all night long, all day long for 10 days, in my own hell... no break. At night when I wanted to sleep, my mind gave me closed eyed hallucinations instead... creepy hallucinations, not the fun kind kids! During the day I was open eye hallucinating, seeing white ghost like floaters that were chasing eachother, swirling in a spiral like a yinyang. No appatite, severe heart palpatations, severe muscle cramps, nasty crawl out of my own skin feeling, the worst night sweats when I was trying to sleep... fear. Just primal fear of the worst kind, fear like my whole family just died in a car crash and my pets got killed and I lost my job and got divorced all at the same time. And nothing stopped the feelings or thoughts... cause I ruined my natural system.
A few months later... here I am. Going through PAWS with extreme anhedonia, anxiety that I never had before, severe depression and horrible aggitation at everything. I am different... I feel different. I keep reading that it will take time, but 6 months to a year is a long time to be like this.
Drugs are awesome on occasion, like alcohol or oxy or dxm or hallucinogens or what have you. If you feel a tolerance... you just screwed up. You threw your natural balance out of wack and you can either withdraw, go through depression... anhedonia, which is the worst... yea.
Not saying all drugs are bad, some are needed and do wonders. I have aspergers and adhd... tried to self medicate with a ridiculously tolerance building drug.
Just remember, happiness comes from yourself. If we are depressed, its probably our own damn fault and we need to get off our ass and fix it, exercise, eat right, feel natural pleasure like sex, social life, nature... find a goal, achieve it... you get the idea.
All I'm saying is... drugs run out... they make YOU run out and burn out... then you will really be screwed. Unless you need it for a substantial reason like a medical condition, keep it like once a month... addiction is sick and can kill you, or worse... make you wish you actually were dead.
Thanks guys for reading, occasional trips are the best and are even more special than frequent ones!!!
Let me start by saying I like bluelight... way better than drug crap forum where everyone is swimming and talking loads or ignorant garbage with less light-of- heart discussions... losers. Anyways, so lets talk about the drugs I've used. Alcohol... excessively, oxy and hydro... excessively, LSA... excessively, dxm... almost excessively, all kinds of other experiments that were less promising, but my FAVORITE of all... phenibut. Holy crap it makes you feel like God himself in every aspect of your life. Euphoria that I would assume feels like mdma, extreme well being, calm, relaxed, empathogenic... it was exactly what i needed!!! Yea, I knew the tolerance stories warned me, but I was a fool... I could handle it! Well I couldn't lol... after two weeks, starting out with 3 grams a day, 4 grams the next day, and progressing in that pattern to something like 10-15 grams a day... I withdrew. Was it how people explain heroin withdrawal?... no. Hydro and Oxy withdrawal... no, been through both and they sucked but I got over it. Alcohol withdrawal?... no, I went through alcohol withdrawal and it sucked but I moved on after a few days with minimal post acute withdrawal (paws)... no, all other withdrawals I've ever went through or heard of sounded hard, but not like this...
Phenibut withdrawal- started two days after my last dose... COLD TURKEY CAUSE IM A MAN AND I CAN HANDLE IT! Severe heart palpatations and blood pressure so high that I was bed-bound with my bloodshot eyes wide open laying on the bed stiff with opiate withdrawal like aches.. but effin worse. Because my gaba B was so heavily abused and had such low endroginous gabardine levels, my glutamate was spiking in a way you couldn't hope to imagine- severe neurotoxin like. I was in my own hell in my own mind with severe paranoia, thinking my wife hated me, I was a bad father, every mistake I ever made in my life was on my mind 24/7 and I throught about suicide the whole freaking withdrawal... which lasted 15 days just for the acute withdrawal. And guess what? I didn't sleep until the 10th day lol. Up all night long, all day long for 10 days, in my own hell... no break. At night when I wanted to sleep, my mind gave me closed eyed hallucinations instead... creepy hallucinations, not the fun kind kids! During the day I was open eye hallucinating, seeing white ghost like floaters that were chasing eachother, swirling in a spiral like a yinyang. No appatite, severe heart palpatations, severe muscle cramps, nasty crawl out of my own skin feeling, the worst night sweats when I was trying to sleep... fear. Just primal fear of the worst kind, fear like my whole family just died in a car crash and my pets got killed and I lost my job and got divorced all at the same time. And nothing stopped the feelings or thoughts... cause I ruined my natural system.
A few months later... here I am. Going through PAWS with extreme anhedonia, anxiety that I never had before, severe depression and horrible aggitation at everything. I am different... I feel different. I keep reading that it will take time, but 6 months to a year is a long time to be like this.
Drugs are awesome on occasion, like alcohol or oxy or dxm or hallucinogens or what have you. If you feel a tolerance... you just screwed up. You threw your natural balance out of wack and you can either withdraw, go through depression... anhedonia, which is the worst... yea.
Not saying all drugs are bad, some are needed and do wonders. I have aspergers and adhd... tried to self medicate with a ridiculously tolerance building drug.
Just remember, happiness comes from yourself. If we are depressed, its probably our own damn fault and we need to get off our ass and fix it, exercise, eat right, feel natural pleasure like sex, social life, nature... find a goal, achieve it... you get the idea.
All I'm saying is... drugs run out... they make YOU run out and burn out... then you will really be screwed. Unless you need it for a substantial reason like a medical condition, keep it like once a month... addiction is sick and can kill you, or worse... make you wish you actually were dead.
Thanks guys for reading, occasional trips are the best and are even more special than frequent ones!!!
