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Drugs as a form of self harm, not euphoria?

I was just thinking about this today, I got real introspective thinking about my usage and why I consume drugs. I came to the realization that, altho I do like drugs because they "feel good", I also very much find it a thrill to know that it COULD go all wrong and mess my whole life up, even while practising harm reduction. Either instantly by ODing, or slowly being eaten by the fire of addiction. Like where is the line? How much is too much? How often is too often? In a day? In a year? In a lifetime? Of course there is studies about lots of drugs and you can take an educated guess, but there's always outliers where a little bit could seriously fuck you up, and others where they take so much you wonder how they are even alive at all. Also mistakes and accidents happens even when you do your best to minimize the risks, either while using drugs, extreme sports, or a dangereous/harzardous job.

idk if it's obvious for most people, but it just now hit me for real, I felt it deep in myself. I remember hearing when I was yougner that some drug addicts like that the drugs are bad for them, because they hate themselves, and how it's self harm. I never really got it, but I do now :/
 
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Its not nice to say, but even though I have never taken a blade to my skin, I am actually quite good at finding unique and stupid ways to punish myself that are generally initially alien even to me. So, yeah that is for sure a thing.
 
GooberDoober said:
Its not nice to say, but even though I have never taken a blade to my skin, I am actually quite good at finding unique and stupid ways to punish myself that are generally initially alien even to me. So, yeah that is for sure a thing.
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You have me interested, would you mind sharing one of those aliens ways?
 
like drug abuse in times of depression - alledgedly sure.

Or like in effort of self harm I.E I am going to drink and take Tylenol tonight cuz Fck my liver ---- No I have not.
 
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