Drugs and Parents
I like recreational drugs. A lot.
Weed, LSD, ecstasy, the occasional 'shroom, and more to come. Not so much alcohol, though. Out of the others, it is the most destructive and addictive (depending on how strong your will is). I WILL stay away from meth, coke, crack, heroin, and their analogs. Those are just ridiculous. As for the others, I take them safely, research them fully before taking them, and practice harm reduction. I realize that there are some minor long-term negative effects that result from drug use, and even worse/longer negative effects when you take them in excess. I am okay with these facts. I believe in having fun, living life to the fullest, taking risks, etc. However, I also believe in moderation, and I am not without a sense of responsibility, nor am I a dumbass.
The issue is my parents. They are very understanding and they always let me know that it is okay to experiment and have fun as long as it's safe. They even offer me a glass of wine or a cocktail for special occasions. They are no stranger to drugs either; my dad is a very successfully recovered ex-junkie (all I know about is his heroin addiction, a lot of weed, some coke, maybe LSD), and my stepmom is a former college party girl. She has only mentioned the use of weed and alcohol, but she has alluded to more.
I visit them now and then, and the topic of drugs come up from time to time. One time I visited right after a huge smoke-out, and smelled like weed, but I lied and said it was my friends that smoke weed, not me. Another time, I went to Earthdance, took acid and ecstasy, and stayed up most of the time. When I talked to them about it, they asked if I took acid to stay awake for so long, and I said that it hurt my feelings to be accused of taking acid, and they bought it.
Well, I'm tired of dancing around the subject with them. One part of me wants to tell them the truth and get it out there and over with. The same part would think that taking drugs WITH them would be kickass, if they were okay with my drug use. But the other part of me wants to keep them in the dark. It feels safer that way. My parents won't worry about me, or hassle me. They also might get REALLY pissed off at the fact that I've been lying to them about drugs since junior year of high school.
Any parents with (constructive) thoughts on the situation? Or people who have been in my position? I just don't know what to do, or who to turn to.
Thank You
P.S. Is this the right place to post this kind of thread? I didn't really know where else to put it...