I'll get to the point quickly with this. Until 2015, I had 2 decades of mainly CNS downer abuse, a slew of mental health issues such as anxiety and constant, low grade depression, not to mention that by the time I was 30 I'd started having tonic/clonic alcohol withdrawal seizures, was a perpetual shaking nervous wreck. Then, toward the end of 2015, I tried methamphetamine, which going by its total physiological effects, turned out to be the near panacea I was always on the lookout for but had largely given up hope of finding. Suddenly a chemical had made it possible for me to powerfully improve my focus, regain nearly perfect hand eye, have lightning quick reflexes that were very useful/helpful in my day to day, as well as to feel relieved of the need I had for alcohol or other downers when I was on it. Within a year I had not cut out drinking, in fact I'd started doing "controlled drinking" and to this day, I haven't allowed myself to get drunk in years, despite the fact that I drink often. But when I do, my intake is less than 1 Oz per hour of alcohol so I might drink a bottle of wine in under 16 hours, the only effects of which are likely placebo and possibly a very mild anxiolytic effect.
6 months into what was to become an ongoing prescription (I'm currently on 20 mg of dexamphetamine twice a day) I started doing calisthenics again, which I haven't stopped. I'm 46, 6'2 and about 185 lbs. The long lasting action of this chemical (give or take 6 hours when orally taking capsules) is one that I often extend, play music the whole while. I've been a guitar player and teacher most of my adult life, but thanks to a consistently more effective focus and improved awareness, my musical ideas and execution, as well as my writing, public speaking (much higher confidence levels), thinking habits, mental approach, communication in all its facets...all of these surged when I started taking dex, and while I've had quite a tolerance for years now, I still benefit from its intended therapeutic effects.
I'm in the best shape I've ever been in, and I put in the work. However, I'm also careful to never really overdo my intake too much. I don't know how else to report the changes its use made possible for me than to list them matter of factly. I now take this, and thanks to a most unexpected phenomenon several years ago, I no longer have any of the addicted 'needs' I had to continue drinking, doing opiates, benzos, etc. I can and do take these sometimes, but only occasionally and for specific purposes instead of an ongoing inability to effectively, safely stop. In short meth has indeed proved to be quite the effective antidepressant, performance enhancer, and general mental health supplement. I am thankful for what it's made possible for me, just as I've seen the occasional individual who can't seem to handle these without suffering psychoses as a result of their use, and that's a pity. I, however, am grateful and better overall thanks to this "neurotoxic killer etc etc etc...".
I'm glad I found it.