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Drug taking procrastination

sdxyln

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Fūcking hell.

I should be in hyperspace. I should be feeling good. But no. Set it aside for another day, a better time, and a more inviting space. When shall that be? Well, not tonight.

And so on.
 
Sometimes the build up / anticipation is better than the actual act. Like with eating or sex. It can be more about the chase and anticipation of the act then the act itself. Though it does suck when you're ready and then have to put it off until another time, the disappointment and frustration can sure be great.
 
If you can put it off long enough, you may even not feel like taking it in the end. Which could be a great thing, depending.
 
I am over a month behind on doing MDMA. I was supposed to start a preloading regimen on Sunday. Got a lot of nervous energy and am struggling with it
 
Maybe listen to your gut? There must be a reason why you've been avoiding it.
Plus MDMA is not very good for the brain anyway, unless you're planning a psychotherapy session with it I don't see why you have to take it now.
 
I space out each session by three months at the least. It has been over four months this time. I take it to resolve trauma and minimise compulsiveness.
 
I feel ya. I've been sitting on one batch of MDMA since February without having touched it and another since August. I was supposed to in vivo test both....months ago.

I think it's my brain subconciously telling me to fuck off. Or I'm stuck on pints and fungus.
 
Geez I almost always have the opposite problem. Except for certain psychedelics I have always meant to try and never have yet due to being intimidated, despite having all of them nicely labeled in vials in my closet. Particularly, 5-MeO-DMT, and DPT. I also need to try my DOB and TMA-2, but those aren't due to nervousness, just the fact that it's hard to find time to be tripping for 24+ hours.
 
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