Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

[koneko]

Every now and again I see some of you saying I'm going to take a break, stop taking so much of this or that etc etc - so thought it would be useful if we had somewhere we could come to some support and snoos each other.

It will also help to keep me out of the "I'm Fucked Thread" where someone pointed out to me my somewhat alarming post count.

I do drug sabbaticals where I impose time limits on myself from taking my favourites on a daily basis and from binging on the specials. These sabbaticals are shit... but necessary.

I aspire to be a recreation and not habitual user. My boundaries aren't good, I have an addictive personality, always want more, more, more

Often I fail on the sabbaticals, sometimes I stick to them - am erratic and chaotic as some druggies are by nature

The older I get the more I notice my drug-talking and the lifestyle this leads to take a hard toll on both my mind and body. It takes me that big longer to recover, the damage hits me harder and it fucks too many things up. My work being one example, I cannot do that job fucked out of my face 24/7. It also effects relationships I have with straight friends and family. Let's not forget money...

Hopefully the sabbaticals and what I learn from them will ensure I can continue to enjoy drugs for much longer in my life. I want to drop acid when I'm 70+, and I've always wanted a spectacular "drug" garden when I'm older and have the time (and the pension to fund it all) to grow my own things and bake my own goodies.

Realistically I'll be lucky at a maximum to get another 5 years out of using stims, and the other RC's I play with. Certainly I cannot continue to use the way I have been for the last 9 months especially and after a 3 year break - I should be disappointed in myself, but I've not relapsed into what I was before, thank fuck - but all the warning red-flags are there again Least I recognise them now and have the skills to do something about it. If you ever get the chance to do CBT grab it!

Every time I overdo it i shorten that precious timespan and my body and mind won't enjoy the drug sessions so much because i'm not healthy enough in the first place to do them justice. Like when I had the Indian parasite thingies and was so ill before xmas, the extended drug sessions i had weren't as good, too hard on me... I wasn't in good enough shape or place.

Ultimately being fucked is always the nicer option for me. I'll have been a drug user for 26 years this summer but I'll soon be 43 and now need to maintain balance and self discipline - it's all about damage limitation, ensuring better quality experiences and having a full life not a restricted one.

So a big drug sabbatical is coming up for me.

Dam.

 

[masaz]

good luck with your sabbatical it is pretty hard though i've never had a problem staying away from drugs, it's the booze that's been the problem. 56 days sober as of today haha. oh man.

it really does give you a different perspective on life though, i'm noticing little things i never would before and have also gained a hugely renewed interest in psychedelic drugs and the like.

you've got a really good approach to this though, a lot of people i've talked to have just been all 'i do this too much, should probably stop' but never really think about why, and i guess i'm guilty of doing the same with alcohol too. i think i only really stopped to prove to everyone else that i physically could. if i look back there are myriad other reasons and i know them now. really really glad i did stop, and i don't think i'll go back. not for a loooooong time, anyway.

 

[wibble]

I seem to have found myself on a sabbatical from everything except weed oddly. Definitely over did it about a couple of years ago and we all decided to ease off for a bit.
Anyway now its time to give up weed for a bit, it's the one drug I can't leave along if we have some. Id really like to give up smoking it because i have cancer fear! Think I'll give some weed baking a go for my birthday anyway!

Good luck to all those trying to take some time off from drugs

 

[felix]

I want to drop acid when I'm 70+

Realistically I'll be lucky at a maximum to get another 5 years out of using stims, and the other RC's I play with.

well, you know i'm with you on the above.

thank fuck for my rota, otherwise i fear i would be going mad every weekend... as well as during the week.

we all have to pay the piper, and i'm also getting to that age (even though i'm a late starter) where it'll all catch up with me.

so no more drugs for at least 5 weeks.

 

[B9]

This is a good thread Kate & many of the points you made resonante with me.

muttered by felix we all have to pay the piper, and i'm also getting to that age (even though i'm a late starter) where it'll all catch up with me.

That's true but I think the choices we make in choosing which substances & when we take them are very important.

I'd anticipate being able to continue to eat psychedelics until i'm very ancient - provided i don't overdo it & i don't drink shedloads of booze & eat glassfuls of stims.

Balance & whatnot & being aware of your mindset is super important, coz that can be a very tricky one IME.

Hark at me - General Hypocrisy

Being controlled in your substance use is easy - it's overcoming the uncontrollable urges that is difficult

Anyway good luck to all the quitters/part timers

Maybe a list of drugs which are gentle on body & mind could be compilied - for the more mature generation you know :D

First drug up - magic mushrooms - good shit %)

 

[parttime crackhead]

i had a look in this thread out of curiosity but ill not be back much. there will be no drug sabbatical for me. ive got dedication, stamina, willpower, I can't be beat, I won't be beat!

lol, i need to stop smoking this trippy grass

 

[bogman]

i agree with everything you said above.the last 3 years my breaks between drugs are getting longer plus my drug wends are now 1 or 2 nites max unless its a festival wend.my drug of choice would be pills n mdma and as im 39 this year i notice that a crazy wend starts to affect me a lot more.atm i can go up to 6 weeks without drugs,the 2nd wend is the hardest.best of luck to you ( i had some pills feb14th and going to stay away till wend mar 13/14th.)

 

[Inso]

I've had a sabbatical forced upon me the last month or so due to being ill for a very long time now; I simply cannot handle even one beer or spliff that's how fucked I am. Before that I never went more than one or two nights sober for close to three years, mostly the culprit was mega-strong sticky green, I really miss it, along with beer and MDMA and all the other goodness. Its weird because although I haven't had the slightest bit of intoxication for all this time I haven't felt 'sober', since I feel so goddamn ill most of the time that its like being wasted just without all the good parts. I long for some fucked-ness, once I recover I'm going on the mother of all benders to celebrate.

 

[InTherapy82]

I've been on a 6 months break from drugs. I was an everyday user before that and during the last 6 months only used things which are not really my drugs of choice. I just got a new connect and can get what I was addicted to but I'm really really resisting the temptation. I'm on such a good path. I want to get high again but unfortunately will just have to find some other way to occupy my time, sex is always something to look forward to.

 

[The Kid]

Hey Kate!!! Rather bizarrely, i've just got back from my recent trip away and decided to give up booze, ciggies and gack for a month. I've been hammering it too much this year, with too much travelling and my body is definitely feeling it. For example, i've had flu twice this year, and i've never had it before 2009. I'm also worried i might be heading down the diabetic route too...so decided to take at least a month off everything.

There is a caveat though....pre-arranged "events" are not included! Which includes a 4 day ski trip and a stag do....................

 

[masaz]

haha aye you've got to go all out on a stag do really. i am also jealous of you and your 4 day ski trip, even though i'm shit at skiing.

good luck anyway :D given up the ciggies myself, think i've not had one in two months now. nurse amended my records to say 'ex-smoker' yesterday so i was pretty chuffed

 

[The Kid]

haha aye you've got to go all out on a stag do really. i am also jealous of you and your 4 day ski trip, even though i'm shit at skiing.

good luck anyway :D given up the ciggies myself, think i've not had one in two months now. nurse amended my records to say 'ex-smoker' yesterday so i was pretty chuffed

Hahah, cheers Snolly. I gave up smoking at Xmas.....and managed until about Feb 1st. Since then had several relapses, usually on business trips.

But not had any booze since Weds night, or ciggies, and no gack since Sat night.

Stag do has got work people on it....not sure if that makes it a good or bad idea.

 

[DS_]

I've just decided to come into this thread. I wasn't going to come in here, ever, however, I would just like to say that I wish to not be apart of this thread. It's going against everything that's good in the world and I just won't have it.

 

[The Kid]

It's going against everything that's good in the world and I just won't have it.

Not true. Butterkist popcorn is a good thing in this world, and this thread is not against Butterkist popcorn.

 

[DS_]

Not true. Butterkist popcorn is a good thing in this world, and this thread is not against Butterkist popcorn.

I'm not a fan of popcorn so...

 

[The Kid]

I'm not a fan of popcorn so...

Then you need to stay out of this thread, FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!

 

[duck_racer]

...I'll... need to maintain balance and self discipline - it's all about damage limitation, ensuring better quality experiences and having a full life not a restricted one.

There's a lot of people on this board who would be wise to take that advice..

 

[McFly]

Yeah, as much as i loved my H and oxy scripts it stopped being fun and became a total burden having to worry about getting fixed to evade the WDs and it mean si can do or go anywhere now without having to worry about getting some brown or even going back a bit to hash/grass i always felt i needed it to enjoy stuff but its bollox, I dont.

Currently been 8 weeks with only 2 smokes of weed which i didnt really enjoy tbh. STill i almost cracked on friday, almost.

Sobriety yay! well no, its crap if someone offered me anything right now i'd take it

 

[koneko]

Awww you are lovely aren't you! Hugs and snoos to all of you who get what I'm trying to do and can understand what's involved

And fuck you to those who came in here to not really "get" what I was trying to say. This is NOT an anti-drug thread.

It's about being a long term users and finding yourself with problems because of that and trying to manage them to enable even longer term drug use safely without fucking killing yourself, or making yourself ill.

Doh

No one in their right mind would wish dependency and addiction issues on anyone.

. 56 days sober as of today haha. oh man.

snolly this is fantastic, keep it up and the way your thinking about doing other things, like the psychedelics, shows you are looking after yourself. Your health is too important harem wifey-sister to play roulette with ...

Anyway now its time to give up weed for a bit, it's the one drug I can't leave along if we have some. Id really like to give up smoking it because i have cancer fear! Think I'll give some weed baking a go for my birthday anyway!

Cannabis is the one drug I've not been able to give up on so easily. Ever Physically it isn't that harmful, psychologically she's a clinging bitch with abandonment issues... I also find eating it can help break the 24/7 smoking cycle...

so no more drugs for at least 5 weeks.

You're going to be a good influence on me and I on you %)

Being controlled in your substance use is easy - it's overcoming the uncontrollable urges that is difficult

Maybe a list of drugs which are gentle on body & mind could be compilied - for the more mature generation you know :D

First drug up - magic mushrooms - good shit %)

B9 this is a great idea - maybe I should have titled the thread "the mature person's drug retirement plan"

Ah mushrooms so gentle (ok maybe dose dependant) and organic. I'm also up for growing my own "green" and fungi varieties... so I have choice and quality control. Poppies also appeal, for the very occasional winter afternoon tea party... The whole garden thing is an area I'm looking forward to doing much research into as I get older

Also agree - the craving and thoughts never leave you. A day doesn't pass without me thinking about wanting to get fucked, it has rewired my brain Hard one.

i agree with everything you said above.the last 3 years my breaks between drugs are getting longer

Thanks Bogman for joining in with me :D... I'm also trying to lengthen the breaks and have less relapses. It appears to be a good strategy... making it work a tad more difficult but worth sticking with I think.

I've had a sabbatical forced upon me the last month or so due to being ill for a very long time now;

This is a major one - being ill is the worst of the worst and I've been there too. Sounds like you are doing the best thing for yourself by stopping everything as you'll just prolong and make your illness worse. Think how much better it'll be when you are well again and you can really enjoy your drug-excursion. Take care honey, stick in there and get well again

I've been on a 6 months break from drugs. I was an everyday user before that and during the last 6 months only used things which are not really my drugs of choice.

Also think this is a good idea - breaking out of what your habit is and trying new things. It's the habit forming ones that are the fuckers

Hey Kate!!! Rather bizarrely, i've just got back from my recent trip away and decided to give up booze, ciggies and gack for a month. I've been hammering it too much this year, with too much travelling and my body is definitely feeling it. For example, i've had flu twice this year, and i've never had it before 2009. I'm also worried i might be heading down the diabetic route too...so decided to take at least a month off everything.

Ah Kid - big hugs to you. That gorgeous wee one of yours is the best reason ever to make sure his handsome dad is 100% fit and well. Of course you're not getting any younger like the rest of us... haha, so a month off everything, an excellent idea!

Yeah, as much as i loved my H and oxy scripts it stopped being fun and became a total burden having to worry about getting fixed to evade the WDs and it mean si can do or go anywhere now without having to worry about getting some brown or even going back a bit to hash/grass i always felt i needed it to enjoy stuff but its bollox, I dont.

Currently been 8 weeks with only 2 smokes of weed which i didnt really enjoy tbh. STill i almost cracked on friday, almost.

Hey another Scot *waves* You didn't crack - well done H is the one thing I've never had a problem with thank god... hard one.

Phew... bit of a long reply and to anyone else I've missed out - many thanks for participating. EADD is such a special place because of the people who come here... I love it and have become so, so fond of many of you, I'd hate to see bad things and awful times happen to you just because we all have a love of drugs. I want you all to be here for a long time coming and to enjoy our drugs and live as good a lives as we can.

Surprisingly, I have not went on a major drug binge this weekend. I will admit to indulging every day during the week there. But many "not good" things have happened this weekend that have put me in a place where I'd have wasted the experience. So I chose to not do it.

The sabbatical starts on Monday for the next month. There will be a "one" day excursion as I have stims at home that will constantly remind me of there presence and will "need" to be taken... put I'm going to chose the session with care and do them justice.

It's going to be hard, my sleep is already fucked up badly, my health not 100% and my work-life pretty dodgy, but I'm onto that... and feeling all the better for my good intentions and plans.

Now to stick to them and not go MAD

 

[Treacle]

No one in their right mind would wish dependency and addiction issues on anyone.

No, except some really nasty cunts. I've got far too much experience with dependency, and it's fucked my whole life up.