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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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Good stuff on the sabbaticals ^ :)

Thinking about breaking my ket sabbatical soon, it's been over 3 months.... I have lots of speed and turbowonking is just so damn fun!

Been pretty controlled with almost everything for a few months, last exam later today and then I intend to have a proper blow out.

I'm keeping in mind stopping smoking pot for a while though (I don't smoke much but hey) it does subtly affect me in quite a few ways I feel and getting stoned is way more "set and setting" than it used to be. I don't always enjoy it so much, especially when it's 0 to stoned in 30 seconds with a bunch of people... :o
 
Reading over this my feat isn't much really. Haven't smoked a cigarette for almost 3 weeks, and have been drinking during that time too and hung around other cigarette smokers.

On an average day now I'll think about it once or twice for about 20 seconds and then it'll pass.
 
Well done tribal girl for the benzo break. I know how hard it is to keep it up. I have cut down a lot recently, using zopiclone to help me sleep on some nights has greatly reduced my need for diazepam in the days, my diazepam use has dropped to only 2 or 3 times a week now.

Although not a drug, I am taking an extended (forever) sabbatical from gambling. I recently fucked up again and lost about £800, this was obviously caused by my running a gambling website, was a stupid idea really. I've been trying to get real help this time around though to try and stop myself from gambling again. Even been to GA which was scary. Have been taking other steps too to prevent a downward spiral again.

Angelsmoke has been so supportive and understanding thoughout my latest relapse and I am lucky to have her by my side.
 
Jesus do I need a fucking drink, because if I cry one more time from thinking too much about things i've not thought about for a long time, or lie awake hanging around on the ceiling I'm going to SCREAM!

Currently making do with sugary tea and a film. It's instant gratification enough.
 
What a terrible situation Scrooloose. Its really a nasty business, psychotic episodes. They're terribly unpleasant.

Anti-psychs do help though. Much like Diazipam. Get a script along with your Diazies and you can just take them as and when needed. If you dont use them at least you know you have them to hand should things get too out of control. Chlorpromazine isnt that bad.

Hope you get the peace and relaxation you need though. Its not easy. Just rest and do your best to relax. Best of luck to you. Hope you feel better soon.
 
Urgh, just had my initial assessment with my link worker, and as a result I now need a drink. They dredge everything up. I'm going to be a good girl and stay shut up in here for the rest of the day. She'll be checking that i've not gone out and snuck booze in.

She scored me the highest points possible for risk assessment for myself, staff and community. :(

I had to correct her on her spelling of Mephedrone. She'd written Methadone. The women in the rehabilitation place this morning did the same thing, apparently these sorts of workers don't read the press. Or maybe they do, as the press get it wrong too!
 
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scrooloose said:
now i know why people around me keep asking the question are you alright .the truth is i'm not alright.just awoken from a knockout sleep. anyone who says alcoholism or drug addiction is an illness talks bollocks any self inflicted chemical abuse is tough shit i deserve to be beaten up and lashed with salt in the wounds. nobody forces any one to take drugs or drink themselves into oblivion but themselves tough shit for the consequences root out why these things are done and think about people with real illnesses and problems.
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Mates, go easy on yourself. Is alcoholism self inflicted, certainly. Does that make it any less of an illness, no not at all.

You deserve some help, not to be lashed for it.
 
I know it is, and thousands of people come unstuck doing things they inflicted on themselves, it doesn't remove the right to be helped mate.

A biker comes off his 1000cc at 100mph. Do you let him die in the road because he chose to ride the bike and chose to speed?

A mountainclimber slips on Ben Nevis and breaks an ankle. Do you leave them up there to die because climbing Ben Nevis was a risky/stupid thing to do?

Inflicting something onto yourself is a stupid thing to do but it doesn't make you worthless.
 
scrooloose said:
now i know why people around me keep asking the question are you alright .the truth is i'm not alright.just awoken from a knockout sleep. anyone who says alcoholism or drug addiction is an illness talks bollocks any self inflicted chemical abuse is tough shit i deserve to be beaten up and lashed with salt in the wounds. nobody forces any one to take drugs or drink themselves into oblivion but themselves tough shit for the consequences root out why these things are done and think about people with real illnesses and problems.
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scrooloose said:
what i mean is everything ive done to myself is self inflicted and my own fault.
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I couldnt agree more. But, as RZA says, you are no less deserving of help. I totally agree that these thing are self inflicted. As you say, you need to get to the root of the problem. Some doctors still get it wrong but treating the symptoms rather than offer help at the root of the problem. Its not on. Folk with these problems need to be offered CBT and counselling / therapy to fix the root of the problems along with prescribing medications. A person needs these perscriptions like benzo's anti-pyches and anti-depressants in order to relax enough to be able to attend these sessions and talk to people about it.

As I said before, I wish you the best of luck. You've at least identified that there is a problem and sought help for it. You're really rather lucky you've found a good doctor and one that is aware of your problems. Those that go in first time just get perscribed anti-depressants. This is the NHS's first course of action. IMO anti-depressants should never be perscribed with out the offer of counselling. Its so difficult to get put on the CBT and Counselling waiting list. Seems you have to go in several times and ask for it every time before they offer. Its a disgrace really. But then, thats the NHS for you. Folk complain about it but in reality its still better than other countries medical systems (i.e. like the American system) by far.
 
Sadie and RZA, i know you both speak sense and wisdom. My minds been a bit of a fog.All this self whipping just goes hand in hand with the self destructive cycle. Feel a little clearer now. Gotta work on a plan to self help.
 
scrooloose said:
now i know why people around me keep asking the question are you alright .the truth is i'm not alright.just awoken from a knockout sleep. anyone who says alcoholism or drug addiction is an illness talks bollocks any self inflicted chemical abuse is tough shit i deserve to be beaten up and lashed with salt in the wounds. nobody forces any one to take drugs or drink themselves into oblivion but themselves tough shit for the consequences root out why these things are done and think about people with real illnesses and problems.
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Drugs only mask the real problems for as long as you're willing to withstand the abuse. This I know. :\ <3
 
The RZA said:
I know it is, and thousands of people come unstuck doing things they inflicted on themselves, it doesn't remove the right to be helped mate.
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Spot on. Don't beat yourself up, just sort out a plan.
 
scrooloose said:
Sadie and RZA, i know you both speak sense and wisdom. My minds been a bit of a fog.All this self whipping just goes hand in hand with the self destructive cycle. Feel a little clearer now. Gotta work on a plan to self help.
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That's good to hear scroolose, sometimes even gaining that little bit of clarity is enough to build up some momentum and make it grow - stay positive.

Peace.
 
Indeed

Look,everyone on here speaks so much sense. I find it so much easier to take in what people say when it is typed/written than when people talk to me face to face,my mind kind of wanders and everything doesnt get absorbed. I know that i can always check back on here what i've done or what i've said.Feel much clearer now. Doctor has arranged future appointments.
 
Sabbatical.

Finally came around and realised how much i'd been fucking up on gear after my parents intervened.

Had literally been out to my car 10 minutes previous to get some ciggs, was just going back outside to put my meth in the glove box and the car had disappeared outside the house. Never felt so sick in my life at the thought of my car being stolen, didn't know what to do, so me and guy are running around trying to look for it.

Turns out my mum had seen car outside the house and knew area was well known for drugs, so has gone home got my dad and spare keys and drove off with my car.

So just been talking to them for hours now about what i'm going to do, and was trying to explain how i'd realised I was taking to much and that's why I actually went tonight to get some methadone so I could get through the rattle before it got any worse.

But they aint having none of it, methadone is even worse then heroin in their book.

/ vent over.
 
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