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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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Nice one Riklet, you should be well chuffed with yourself %) and saving yourself for special occasions and summer-psyche-bliss n' whatnot is certainly going to make it all the more of a celebratory time! =D

Getting off the daily cycles is in my opinion the way to go - big leap from using for daily relief of stress, relaxation or whatever excuse and doing it for fun with care and respect = harm reduction <3

I'm there now and life is all the sweeter for it. Will probably live an extra 10 years too 8) lol
 
2.5mg of diazepam?! You lucky lad. Your tolerance must be basically nothing now.

For Riklet.
 
I need some help staying off the booze til I have got my new job and moved into my new flat...no one else I know is keeping off booze!

I don;t really have many vices...I'm not smoking much weed at the moment coz it makes me too passive...when I move and start my new job I will start smoking a few times a week again, I can function that way, not everyday...but I don't allow myself to get high that often right now. :\

It really started being bad when my parents split up 3 years ago, and I found out my dad wasn;t my real dad, and then I was hit with depression that had been creeping up on me for about 4 years...then my fiance broke up with me...I started drinking everyday, and crashed my car drunk...got convicted...

THen I went into psychotherapy and sorted out alot of my head, and since then it's not been a real problem...but still find it hard to stop at just one.

arghhhh it just makes me depressed the next day if I have more than 3 or 4...and I know this...I been having trouble with booze the most...I find myself avoiding seeing my main circle of friends here too much, coz we always start at the pub more or less...and I find it really hard to order a non alcoholic drink like a j2o or a coke...guinness just calls my name!
 
3 or 4 isn't a lot, really. Don't beat yourself up about it. You're not fucking yourself up, you just feel guilty. I'd add more, but I'm shit with advice. :)
 
Diazepam, yeah. My valium tolerance has never crept up that much anyway; I still usually only take diaz in 5mg doses unless i'm coming down really hard or I want a proper lovely mongy nod, which tbh 10mg still gave me a month or so back. Until then i'd probably taken valium once or twice most weeks for the past 7-8 months or something, usually for hangover or post-drug grimeyness but thinking about it I probably munched through a fair few, some of them just because I could. Feeling quite clear headed atm generally... :)

Having a load of valium after summer turned me into a WUSS with hangovers though. Guess i'm lucky they're just one of those drugs I don't seem to get much tolerance with, ketamine and MDPV are another ones. Heh, (un?)fortunately it seems to be the drugs I like and find quite habit forming which I get sod all tolerance to! =D
 
Having a load of valium after summer turned me into a WUSS with hangovers though. Guess i'm lucky they're just one of those drugs I don't seem to get much tolerance with
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Ha I'm the same, can't stand to have a hangover, got so used to boshing valium. When I went to Aus it was the first time I'd been without benzos in years and I was getting pished every night, took some getting used to. Soon as I got to Asia went on a benzo buying mission because I couldn't hack it. Never built up a tolerance either despite taking them fairly regularly for years (few times a week) for hangovers, comedown, sleep etc. Lucky I guess.
 
up to 3 o clock yesterday it was either 3 or 4 weeks drug free.
then had a cracking session at a little festival.
had me some fleph n meph then a little mdma
 
wife and bump all good.
less than 8 weeks now.
had anti natal class last week.

festival was brillant,very small,nice people,good weather,bring your own booze.
 
Cool! We've got a little longer than 8 weeks to go. Bump is good though, although baby brain is defo effecting the missus! So drug sabbatical for me is not a bad thing.
 
ye same here.got me some meph/fleph about 5 weeks ago and only dipped into it yesterday.

going to try n stay good till june bhol wend.have half a green light to head to life festival for 1 or 2 nights max.all depends on the bump.
3 weeks between festival n D-day.
 
Had a smoking relapse tonight, i went 2 month without any nicotene at all and had 2 cigs a few hours ago because i was drinking. I feel disgusted with myself now.
 
Awww shit - don't beat yourself up - that's a horrible part of the cycle, but just assure yourself that you'll go much longer next time!

Beating yourself up over it just makes your self confidence in your efforts to beat the habit THAT much harder and less realiztic.

Had a bunch of drinks last night, with a bunch of spliffs - all the drinks were bought for me by people who owe me favours...so don't feel bad about spending rent money...still, didn't feel very nice this morning...am seeing things from a good perspective though, now just need to stay strong at like 1 or 2. :p
 
Four days off weed and diaz, was smoking daily for 4 years and taking far too many benzos, slowly starting to feel like a normal person again, and it feels pretty good :)
 
Having real problems quitting drinking cos I'm miserable at the moment. Still living with me parents and every time I slip up and drink my Mum tells me I'm a pathetic alcoholic. I'm drinking maybe three nights a week, Friday through Sunday. Big improvement on what I was but still shit tbh.

It really hurts but she seems to use it as a one up over me cos she's fucked up but I'm dependent on a substance so I'm worse :\ It's not an 'you need help with your drinking' it's just a sneer and a 'fuckin alkie'. It's breaking me to be honest and I don't know whether to just go to the doctors and ask for help or to move out with one of my friends for a while. I try to tell her that I'm doing my best and her attitude isn't helping but it just makes it worse. I know I'm gonna be ok because I don't get withdrawals I'm just psychologically addicted but she insists on telling me I'm a worthless alkie. I honestly feel trapped and I just want to be normal and happy but I can't quite make the commitment.
 
Well, tonight is the last night I can drink, because as of tomorrow I move into a dry safe house somewhere in a secret location that I can't reveal to anyone!

So of course I have a glass of wine by my side just now.

I have mixed feelings. Pretty fucking nervous actually.
 
Take me with you <3

And yeah 3 nights a week ain't bad! But ain't good enough either apparently. Rooting round, considering going and crashing with my mate for a few weeks or whatever.
 
(Disco~Biscuits) said:
Four days off weed and diaz, was smoking daily for 4 years and taking far too many benzos, slowly starting to feel like a normal person again, and it feels pretty good :)
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I hear that!. I've been off diaz for the last 13 days myself, and heading for a definite 17 days. My heads just starting to sort itself out, and I feel I'm finally in a position to keep it within my control again. Could just be false hopes, but you never know. :)

cherrycolouredfunk said:
Well, tonight is the last night I can drink, because as of tomorrow I move into a dry safe house somewhere in a secret location that I can't reveal to anyone!

So of course I have a glass of wine by my side just now.

I have mixed feelings. Pretty fucking nervous actually.
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Ooh, I think I've missed lots as usual. I won't ask, but all the best love. <3

This one's for you, I always find a comfort in it and hope you will too. There's a strange optimism in it's sadness. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcGK6jvigt8&feature=related
 
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