drug induced psycosis troubles :/

[Luna electa]

This year I have began experimenting a lot with a range of hallucinogens. This was amazing until a few weeks ago when I took a TCI trip. I was so gone I wasn't sure if I was going to ever come back. I couldn't tell what was reality and what was not which was awful, which was awful especially in the paranoid state I was in. fortunately it pasted but since i haven’t been myself. I get incredibly paranoid and have stated hearing things that I’m sure aren't there. People say thing, which don't make sense coming from them. Strangers pull thing out of my head and I hear them murmur and laugh behind me, make fun of me for thing that aren’t happening but often start to happen in my mind. I have to consistently divide what I’m created in my mind from reality. I know these things are in my head but its hard. I don't feel comfortable in telling my friends about this, in fear they will think I am mad. I just want my mind back, its slowly getting easier but I don’t know anything about dealing with this. If anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it.

 

[OverDone]

Hey Luna, time is pretty much what you need to let this pass. I loved the immediate pleasure that getting high brought (at first) but there was always a longer term consequence afterward.

Give yourself a break from using for a bit and these effects will pass. It sucks going through it but that's really the only way you'll get through it.

Also, your brain needs proper nutrients in order to function properly. When my diet is off, I'm absolutely nuts.

I'm glad that its slowly getting easier for you. That's a good indication that its passing.

Give it more time

 

[lolalady]

Good Morning Luna. I am sorry to hear you are in a bad state. I had a psychotic episode while coming off benzo's a few years back. I was out of my mind and reality and VERY paranoid. I don't even remember everything that happend during that time, but I did not recognize my own family and the people on the TV were actually talking directly to me! I ended up it the hosptial for about 3 weeks and then treatment for chem dep after that. If time does not improve your condition I would consider some mental health intervention. Im not recommending a hospital stay by any means, but possible some outpatient appointment. I agree with OverDone about laying off for now as well. I stayed totally sober for a few years and have recently taken a step back with alcholol but I am obsessing about trying heroin or other street opiates. So far it is just a crazy obsession, but I am contemplating an NA meeting. I like this site and the people I've communicated with, but some of the stuff is powerfully triggering and not helping my obsession! Happy Thanksgiving and get well soon.

 

[Legerity]

Paranoia is a pretty difficult to deal with. If you have periods of feeling calmer then this can be a good time to evaluate whatever thoughts you were having before. I've made some pretty questionnable decisions while in a state of panic and things are not always how they seem when you're feeling that way.

 

[badfish45]

I always give my mind sometime to relax after a trip. Just don't jump to conclusions yet, but I'd say if this gets worse or persists, you should probably get yourself check out. Just do what OD and lolalady said, take a break from drugs, even pot and alcohol, it would be bad for you to trigger anything when your mind is this sensitive.

 

[molly897]

EDIT i just reread

research chemicals are no joke first of all. AM-2201 acts on your weed receptors but is also considered a psychedelic hallucinogen and has fucked me up in the past pretty badly. i have not taken TCI. RCs are also very fatal if taken in short amount of time frame and in much use. i would really reconsider taking RCs for a very long time after this. you are definitely saying you have signs of psychosis, the fact that you can pull thoughts out of your head and converse with them as if they are real supports that. i suffered drug induced psychosis from a MDMA/adderall/oxy 4 day no food binge, and i was constantly hearing songs that weren't playing but i would start singing along to. i would be in the bathroom doing my make up and hear the discovery channel on when i knew we didn't even have cable. i could literally hear the australian word for word about this documentary. this lasted for a while. as in 4 months. but i was very unhealthy and treated my body bad and did not eat/have proper nutrients and kept fucking with drugs, so this isnt necessarily the case for you

you need to get some good nights sleep and drink alot of fluid and wait this out, if you tell the wrong person about your drug use it can affect your entire future. i know it's fucking weird but it does go away and you will get your mind back. sometimes when i smoke AM2201 straight up in powder form, not mixed in herb, i will hallucinate an entire day and wake up the next morning reliving it as if it happened

they are being researched for a reason lol a new study was just released where a university in florida generated human cells in a lab which will allow future testing for drugs like these without the administration of them through actual people. so soon RCs will come with warning labels hehe

don't go to the ER unless you're feeling so crazy you're about to harm yourself or someone else you are perceiving as a demon or something (just an example). i was almost committed for symptoms far less than that, if you complained about things like that they do have authority to commit you to inpatient care against your will

 

[Bojangles69]

Intense paranoia and delusions are the worst. This is why I hate not only hallucinogens but strong stimulants like speed. Although MDMA never seemed to cause them for me. But when I'd walk I'd think every single person was watching me and making fun of how I walked. Or when I got out the car I'd think someone was laughing at how I got out of the car. I mean the shit can really invade every aspect of your life. And it can also make you think you are behaving much more differently than you are. You just start perceiving things so differently that you feel different.

I still found however as horrible as paranoia is it did give me some certain type of core control over my thoughts when I am not in drug induced paranoia. Yeh I get anxious being sober but I do not allow myself to fly out of control and go into those emotional "peaks" anymore. I just know when to cut the thought track off and do it. Drug induced paranoia can make that impossible sometimes. Still you should strive to eat as healthy as possible and SLEEP a FULL 8 hours every night. This is such an important thing for healing the brain and getting it back to normal.

Sleep deprivation can almost amplify anything. But my point is hang in there, keep your head about you as much you can, things usually do get better.

 

[2spun4one]

the best advice I think anyone could give to you is to simply not do any kind of drugs anymore.