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TDS Drug, Depression, and Ex Problems.

Lustmord

Lustmord

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So I've recently been on a heroin binge since my ex left me in March. Drugs are the only way I've ever known to cope, and its been a gradual progression from weed, to weed and drinking, to heroin (and weed) because it seemed like a good idea at the time. I've been clean of everything but weed for the last two days, and my depression + the withdrawal symptoms, they are fucking kicking my ass.

My ex left me in March of this year, because of my (our) depression. Anyways, she just fucking got married. And I have still been trying to get over her, and I've even been talking to this girl and I've actually really been into her. But that, what my ex did, that fucking makes me feel like I was nothing. That she meets this guy and marries him, or worse, that she was into him while we were still together (because that's what happened with us).

So yeah, anyways. I am feeling like fucking shit, and I don't know what to fucking do. I could just use a little venting, and a little support/help.

EDIT: Oh yea, I'd like to add that she dumped me a day before our two year anniversary, through text and Facebook message conversation, from 7 hours away in L.A. while she was on a photoshoot. We never talked about it because her grandma was dying at the time and she had too much on her plate and just didn't want to. So I simply moved out and haven't seen her since.
 
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She is not worth it there are millions of girl better than her. you'll find one that will love you and life will be awesome :)
 
Lustmord, your post just made me tear up. I can relate to it so much and have been going through hell myself lately. I wish I knew what to say to ease the hurt, but do know you're not alone down here. If there's anything that you can do to get you into a sort of out-of-time state, I definitely recommend you do those things. I've been walking and drawing a lot (i'm not an artist), and it does help a little. Take care of yourself best you can. Bon courage, fellow traveler.
 
I can relate as well..I'm not sure how I'm gna get over this if I will..I'm in a bad way over the situation myself..
I wish I had some kind words for u, but I could use them myself..8 years he dumped me on a monday n had multiple dates set up by the weekend..ill never understand how someone could do it, im so hurt.I've lost all Faith, and everything I had and loved... pm me if u wana vent together.
 
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I couldn't even do that. I cnt face him at all wo loosing it and begging him to come home..I'm in a very sad pathstic state..
 
I waz suicidal over the whole thing..I couldn't do it..I guess I should be thankful, he's taking care of that..I'm assuming my parents are going to help, but I'm such a wreck.
 
This girl/woman sounds very fickle: the getting married after only courting this other person for such a short time; the dumping you over text/FB. All of that indicates a person who is just in the wind. W/ people like that, everything lies on shaky ground no matter what. In some ways, even though this hurts, you are probably dodging a bullet.

My addiction took off when I lost the love of my life (slipped through my fingers for the third time - due to my alcoholism, largely). Sure, I obscured all that pain and pushed it into unreachable depths w/ the drugs, but really, I wish I woulda just let myself feel it. It was wrong to do to the memory of her. Since I really cared about her, the right thing woulda been to experience that pain, as strange as that may sound, and grow from it. When things like this happen, they are opportunities to grow, even though that growth will come at a cost paid in pain. With the drugs, you get the pain, but little to no growth in your life, as you've escaped that teacher, at varying levels of success. Now is the perfect time to try new things and develop new coping mechanisms for yourself. I know it will be hard for you to get excited about new experiences, but it will save you a lot of trouble if you open yourself up.

PM me if you need some ideas about what you can specifically get into. I wish you the best.
 
Sconnie, I mean this with nothing but concern for you and utmost well-wishing, though it may seem harsh, but, "man the fuck up girl!!!!!" OK, your situation seems shit. Own it. Take control of your situation. Fuck him. Smile in his face. Show him that you are above his bullshit. Succeed, find an achievable goal and smash it, then set a bigger one. Smash that fucker too.
Progress yourself in baby steps. If you can't make it, fake it... you fake it often enough, you will soon be making it.
You can do this shit, everyone else does. 76.3% of the achievers are just as frail as you (82.4 % of statistics only apply to 67% of those who believe them anyway).
Just pick yourself up, give yourself a good kick in the arse, and show that fkr that he cannot beat you down.
And your niece will continue believing that you are the legend that she sees in you. <3
 
motherofearth said:
This girl/woman sounds very fickle: the getting married after only courting this other person for such a short time; the dumping you over text/FB. All of that indicates a person who is just in the wind. W/ people like that, everything lies on shaky ground no matter what. In some ways, even though this hurts, you are probably dodging a bullet.

My addiction took off when I lost the love of my life (slipped through my fingers for the third time - due to my alcoholism, largely). Sure, I obscured all that pain and pushed it into unreachable depths w/ the drugs, but really, I wish I woulda just let myself feel it. It was wrong to do to the memory of her. Since I really cared about her, the right thing woulda been to experience that pain, as strange as that may sound, and grow from it. When things like this happen, they are opportunities to grow, even though that growth will come at a cost paid in pain. With the drugs, you get the pain, but little to no growth in your life, as you've escaped that teacher, at varying levels of success. Now is the perfect time to try new things and develop new coping mechanisms for yourself. I know it will be hard for you to get excited about new experiences, but it will save you a lot of trouble if you open yourself up.

PM me if you need some ideas about what you can specifically get into. I wish you the best.
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Sweet. I would love some ideas, because I'm about out. I'm a college student. I've been running lately, I trained up to a half marathon which I completed last weekend.

I HAVE been trying to find new ways to cope.
 
bunnymunro said:
Sconnie, I mean this with nothing but concern for you and utmost well-wishing, though it may seem harsh, but, "man the fuck up girl!!!!!" OK, your situation seems shit. Own it. Take control of your situation. Fuck him. Smile in his face. Show him that you are above his bullshit. Succeed, find an achievable goal and smash it, then set a bigger one. Smash that fucker too.
Progress yourself in baby steps. If you can't make it, fake it... you fake it often enough, you will soon be making it.
You can do this shit, everyone else does. 76.3% of the achievers are just as frail as you (82.4 % of statistics only apply to 67% of those who believe them anyway).
Just pick yourself up, give yourself a good kick in the arse, and show that fkr that he cannot beat you down.
And your niece will continue believing that you are the legend that she sees in you. <3
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Very true..I wish I had someone like u irl to keep me in check..I'm trying to build up a good support system, I've been going out..but I need to do something, achive something..thank u for the kick :)
 
the best way to get over/back at an ex lover is to pretend to have the time of your life.. the easiest way to pretend is not to have to and actually try and have the time of your life.. I hope you are doing good sconnie<3
 
Thnx hun..better today then yesterday that's for sure..all. know atp is I never want to have to go through this again and iwouldnt wish this kind of pain on anyone..this really has been one of the greatest devistations of my life..but you're right..I have been getting out which has immensly..it would just be easier if I had a confidante.
 
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