drug addiction

[jungo87]

my lifes a mess i spent nearly a 800 quid on drugs some where shit and im stuck in a rut, i take anything i can get my hands on just to feel good for a few hours. im banned from 10 pubs in my area for asking random people for drugs like diazepam, cocaine and amphetamines. i tried heroin for the first time last week and slept with a junkie which i really liked. my lifes a mess but drugs are all that help.

 

[Glitched]

I'm sure you can get yourself clean mate. By the sounds you're not addicted to any one particular substance which makes this easier.

Why don't you tell us your routine about things and if we can help we will.

On the heroin though, please don't do that again, for your own good. If you think you're struggling now, you will really be if you keep on that.

I'm sure we can give you some advice mate if you give us more details.

 

[Bluebell]

my lifes a mess i spent nearly a 800 quid on drugs some where shit and im stuck in a rut, i take anything i can get my hands on just to feel good for a few hours. im banned from 10 pubs in my area for asking random people for drugs like diazepam, cocaine and amphetamines. i tried heroin for the first time last week and slept with a junkie which i really liked. my lifes a mess but drugs are all that help.

Smoking Black Mamba mate aint going to help!

 

[4x4ledbury]

**Don't be such a dick**

 

[monstanoodle]

Jungo - The people over in TDS are the perfect people to help give you ideas as to how you can get out of this rut. Would you like it if this thread were moved over there? To be honest it's where such threads belong and you're only getting a small corner of the earth's help if it stays here.
Sorry things are so grim for you at present mate.

 

[Bluebell]

Yes EADD isnt the best thread for sincere replys!!!

Sorry

 

[monstanoodle]

Aye, I'll shift it over.

EADD ----> TDS

 

[TheMiddleWay]

Your last words:

"my lifes a mess but drugs are all that helps"

Should read:

"my lifes a mess but drugs are all I HAVE DISCOVERED SO FAR that helps"

It seems you are upset with your behavior, while also asserting drugs help you not feel bad about your behavior. This is can be a serious problem if you don't catch the negative feedback loop in your logic.

No one but pain management patients have straightened out their life using opioids. NO ONE.

 

[jungo87]

i'm wandering around taking drugs.My routine is getting up and drinking then im pestering people for drugs in pubs. I was getting abused by my neighours, telling lies about me, stalking me and it put me back on the drink. I took speed at a guys house but he tryed it n with me, i ran away to london and bought this legal high stuff called black mamba which is am- type cannanabiods. i'm seriously thinking about trying again i wouldnt normaly use it but im in the gutter. the brown i chased on the foil didt really give me a hit. And thank you people and the moderators for moving this to tds.

 

[adamski10]

Yo jungo87,

Hope you're feeling ok today mate, it sounds like you're having a particularly hectic time atm. From what i can can gather you sound to be in a place i describe as the "fast lane" and somewhat lost in the lifestyle. When i was in this sort of place i was trying to escape from the chaos around me and found solitude in intoxication, the problem i found with this approach is that the feeling is only temporary, tolerance increases and drugs are far too expensive (to most)to use constantly.

You can't sort out the route of your problem whilst off your face, trust me. i've tried to use every drug to sort out a range of problems and just ended up with an addiction. Be smart.

Message me any-time dude, stay safe and leave it 20 mins before making any important decision (impulse is a quicker process than logic ;] )

Peace

A

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[TheMiddleWay]

I'm confused, are you asking something? How to stop, out just wanna vent? Clearly the choices you are making are unwise and dangerous. If you are a girl, theres even more reasons to be careful. How are you accessing the internet if you live on the street?

Don't ask random people for drugs. It creeped me out when some random guy asked me to smoke my weed with him.

He did not know me. I had some, but he stereotyped me because I had long hair at the time.

Your going to find out really fast what you will reap, if you continue.

 

[badfish45]

Not having a DOC sure helps, but general drug addiction is just as bad. Let me give you some advice, stop heroin now. That's a path worse than nearly all drugs, and you will never find what you're looking for. Hopefully this will turn you off. Think of all the bacteria that's on heroin, due to the poor conditions that it's manufactured in, and all the people who touch it. Now consider you're shooting it right into your veins, which essentially bypasses all your immune system's defenses. Read through the dark side, look at everybody's post, you won't find one that doesn't regret trying heroin. It's a short lived happiness. It's a road you never want to go down. Get some help, fast. While you still have some control.

 

[jungo87]

Hi adam thanks mate its just the drugs help me get through at times,i was buying street valium and someone sold me coke which was salt. being off my face helps. i even thought about trying salvia to give me a trip as i've never tryed it properly before. I got mushies the other day and i didt really get a trip even though people said i was tripping. I really feel like trying smack again just to feel as good as people say it is. can i pm you anytime adam mate. And the themiddleway i'm a guy and i ask people for drugs

 

[jungo87]

i've never shot heroin up just trye it once on the foil and it never really gave me a dunt yet the girl i was sleeping with was gouching. i don't want to try it agagin really as i know what will happen. im an alcoholic and have like benzos and weed

 

[TheMiddleWay]

i've never shot heroin up just trye it once on the foil and it never really gave me a dunt yet the girl i was sleeping with was gouching. i don't want to try it agagin really as i know what will happen. im an alcoholic and have like benzos and weed

K, just assumed because you mentioned sleeping with a junky.

I still don't understand what advice you're seeking. Poly-drug use can get out of control, especially alcoholo/benzo use. Everyone who has died from benzos has alcohol or opioids in their bloodstream. Advice would be to figure out why you feel the need to be intoxicated. Is there a question your asking?

 

[herbavore]

Your life is miserable to you and you feel trapped, yes? You are trying to feel better by doing something that makes you feel worse---over and over again. It will continue if you do not change what you are doing. I think you already know that but it feels scary as hell to consider giving up even temporary relief for no relief. You have to find your courage. I hope you do and I hope the support people here will give you will help.

 

[maxalfie]

I used to feel the same way and would seek out anything that would change my brain chemistry and the way I was feeling.
I realise this is not want you may want to hear as it hardly sounds a very exciting or fun option, but have you thought of maybe talking to your GP and asking if he thinks anti-depressants would help change the way you feel?

 

[Hardcoreprawn]

Wow. You sound a tad self-destructive there mate. I hope you can use this forum to get the support you need and talk things out rather than just get yourself addicted to whatever's available.

 

[jungo87]

K, just assumed because you mentioned sleeping with a junky.

I still don't understand what advice you're seeking. Poly-drug use can get out of control, especially alcoholo/benzo use. Everyone who has died from benzos has alcohol or opioids in their bloodstream. Advice would be to figure out why you feel the need to be intoxicated. Is there a question your asking?

i love booze and benzos because they numb me, i use anything now to help me. I love alcohol but now drugs are becoming a problem

Your life is miserable to you and you feel trapped, yes? You are trying to feel better by doing something that makes you feel worse---over and over again. It will continue if you do not change what you are doing. I think you already know that but it feels scary as hell to consider giving up even temporary relief for no relief. You have to find your courage. I hope you do and I hope the support people here will give you will help.

I feel trapped, i feel numb and now i just want help because i'm losing everything. Even a little bit of relief for half an hour helps. Thanks for your support

I used to feel the same way and would seek out anything that would change my brain chemistry and the way I was feeling.
I realise this is not want you may want to hear as it hardly sounds a very exciting or fun option, but have you thought of maybe talking to your GP and asking if he thinks anti-depressants would help change the way you feel?

I was on quetiapine and mirtazapine but i lost my script through not collecting them on time due to taking drugs and not know whats happening half the time. I feel terrible without something, but anti-deps don't help me