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Drug addiction and being antisocial and more solitary normal?

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hightimes223

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I am using ADHD drugs (stimulants) and I have noticed after about 6 months of this.. I don't like being around people high or sober. Like people often betray my trust and can get you in trouble so what's the point? And the thing I'm concerned about is I am perfectly happy being alone and not socializing or having a lot of friends. I used to want to try to seem 'normal' but I don't really care, I'm so much more content hanging alone than going to a party. It's just like I don't really believe I can ever find a soul mate or good friend who won't bite me in the ass at some point. Dunno. Just wondering if this is normal with addiction (it's more abuse, I have my stuff together and function well daily)? And does anyone feel like that wanting to be more independent/alone from there drug of choice/addiction?
 
I feel that way when I was doing adderall... I starting wanting to be alone all the time. I spent most of my time studying. I didn't want to e bothered. That is when people I associated with started noticing I had changed and had a problem. It really is no way to live, also if you continue to do it eventually when you get off it will be increasingly harder to be around large groups of people and only causes more issues like severe anxiety and panic disorder.

Do you feel this way a lot?
 
My teenager is on ADHD drugs and she seems the same way you described. She would rather be alone than havin friends over or goin out. Not that I'm complainin much bc she stays outta trouble. Anyway, I got clean for almost two years and I noticed a drastic change in my personality. I was much more sociable. Now that I'm back on opiates and benzos I'd much rather be around my kids and fiance than to be hangin out with others. But it won't be long till I'm clean again, blah. I'm on probation for drug issues so soon as my ankle heals I'll have to go clean again, grr! At least on opiates. They know I'm on benzos and let ne slide on that bc I have severe anxiety/panic disorder. Sorry, kinda got OT.
 
OP, do you feel that you have to be on ADHD drugs? I would strongly urge you to try being off them. I have seen them flatten people out to the point of no interest in anything (or anyone) over time. It doesn't seem worth it when you are young and there can be so much isolation anyway. Not everybody in this life finds a "soulmate" so that is setting the bar pretty high very early on. Trying to be the best friend you can be to people you genuinely like is the way to have deep friendships. Remember, everyone is lonely on some level; we can't all wait for someone else to put the work in. If parties are not your thing you have plenty of company. The myth is that this is what being young is all about for everyone. It isn't. My advice is to let the drugs go if you can, find one or two people that you feel a connection with (no matter how small) and try to cultivate a deeper relationship with them. <3
 
Wow, OP. Your post actually blew my mind because I am getting to be the exact same way. Except I have a girlfriend and occasionally enjoy to go out, but definitely not as much as before. I'm not on any meds though. I used to be opposite, going out every weekend, always being with people.

So I do feel like you do. And I am content about it. I'd rather be with my girlfriend or alone using which ever substance or browsing the internet for entertainment and gathering so much knowledge. Or all 3! haha.

I have been looking into this and a lot of similar reports point to depression. For my case anyway. They say a sign is when you'd rather be alone than contributing to society/being social. So if you relate to that or do some research on depression in relation to the points you make here, then that might be it. Otherwise, what I've been thinking, is just severe pessimism. I'm extremely pessimistic. And you saying "what's the point?" to friends is a sign of that too. But I'm sure even that falls under depression somehow lol, I haven't researched that aspect yet.

If that's not the case then maybe you just need to find what you do enjoy (it's difficult, I enjoy nothing at this point). Or force yourself to be in certain situations because you never know what positive things may come from them.

Oh, right, it probably does correlate to substance abuse. None of my friends are really into some shit that I do so I'm really only left with myself or my girlfriend, so that adds to being away from people. Maybe it's just finding new friends. Either people you can bond with over drugs (but not enablers causing a serious problem, just occasional fun), or that you have more in common with in general and can have fun with to decrease the alone time and drug use.

God I talk a lot.

EDIT: Also, how old are you, OP? I'm 20, so what adds to this mentality is the fact that I've done what's "fun" so much that I'm bored of it. Parties, sooooooo much in high school. Bars/clubs, soooooo much over the past 2 years. Girls, have had my share and am in a relationship now. So, maybe now it's just a "finding yourself" phase where you build the independence necessary to continue into the future with success. If you're older than 25 though then, rule this theory out, haha.
 
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What's so bad about getting in trouble? And betrayals are relative to the amount of eggs you put into someone else's basket. They can only smash what you give them, that's why people often joke around 99% of the time when hanging out with other people. Emotional support can often get on people's nerves and it's not that fun of a thing to try thinking about all the time.

Anyway I'd say yes it's getting more and more normal, but that's not a good thing. I've done and thought along very similar lines as you and many people in this thread, but getting out and doing new things or just doing anything is more beneficial and unpredictable than these text based interactions. You can control this thread environment to a large degree and there are no consequences, but you can only learn so much from this kinda thing.

Everyone's got problems, and if it's hard for you to accept others, then why should they accept you?
 
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It's common, but NOT normal.

Probably reversible brain damage, stop abusing stimulants as I'm sure that would help you become more open around others. You really need to change that state of mind - that is an awful place to be. Why do you want to be a loner? Love is a wonderful thing and it's everywhere. You're delusional.

Sounds like you yourself are being a dickhead, not the rest of the world. Sounds like you're being a snob, not to mention a paranoid. And you are the one who is going to be biting people in the ass who love you, with that drug addiction.

It has been so bad for me at points that even hearing people talk, or any loud sounds will piss me the fuck off.

I have just wanted the whole universe to piss right the fuck off and leave me in total peace.

That state of mind came with daily drug use.
 
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Rave that was insensitive and you met my expectation of a person congrats. Thanks for being another piece of garbage onthe street like everyone else (including me) I never said I wasn't a dick, I just said what I feel and I agree I'm paranoid and bitter but given the shot I've Been through I'm doing pretty well. Yeah and I spend every moment of my time with my family and doing college and working to help my mom.. Yeah I may be a dick but I'm not going to let you say I'm a bad person for doing drugs. You don't know me, I don't know you, to make that kind of judgement is hypocritical of your own being. I didn't post this to feel bad. I posted to see if it related to anyone else. If it ever has related to you and you still were an asshole, congrats on being avg person. Go smoke and chill out this forum is for helpIng not hating. Peace,
 
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