Poetry drowning brown

[Jabberwocky]

Reluctantly gulping down that brown stuff
Everyone other than me is someone that I love
Thinking maybe this is all a case of back luck
About to get blown away by shotgun like clay dove
Drinking alone again under the killing moon
Karma is a bitch and wants another payment soon

Drinking from a flask which I said is dry but still wet
Been a few years, though, since my last cigarette
Bursting out the gate like the drunken fool
Maybe I should learn to use my emotion as the tool
Nobody here wants to hear me drunkenly sing
About all the nights spent as the supremely drunken king

Why am I always so mad at the world?
I want to scream from my soul until it can unfurl
I ate the sun and haven't seen that stupid bitch for days
Surprise! Still blind with the sun shining in my face
I'm not sure what you want me to tell you fellah'
I'm still super dope shit living in my mom's cellar

Now I'm running line and waiting in place
I'm the biggest casualty of the time that I waste
I just want to make the most of it before I die
I've already eaten my share of that big pig pie
Situation Normal All Fucked Up In The Void
Smoking DMT with some backwards space elf droids

Drunk again, writing an overemphasized goodbye
So just pretend this is a wrong hello, nice try
I'm just waiting for the stopping to start
Quick, before some demons rearrange my cosmic chart
I would accept some help from somebody if they could
But always busy nailing myself to some pieces of wood

Spilling beer from accidents on bannisters
I'd like to remember life before it vanishes
My head feels like I'm flying like a bird
In the morning I can't even remember a single word
I feel like I'm getting boxed into a corner
I can't even put a square and circle in order

I'd be a tree myself carving into the bark
If it's not me, somehow I'll still leave a mark
As I stumble forward into dumb endless dark
Like Captain Heroin, I wont stop writing blood art
With this the juice, I swim on that toxic river
I think the methanol will eventually claim my liver

 

[FixXxer]

Some people who live the longest lives drink regularly. They say a shot a day is good for cleaning..
if you are "dirtier", it would make sense (to me) that it could take more to do the job

IMO

If you think, or experience, that it hurts you then you are hurting yourself.
If, however, it brings you joy and makes life fun to live for you, then that is more important than being depressed by being unable to something you love.
You can change your experience sometimes by changing "what you think", but don't lie to yourself to hurt yourself.

I say love the stuff... I know I do, and don't plan on stopping..
I tend to drink 2-4 times a week myself, but i know many people that do it daily and do not judge..
(if you ever feel judged by me , then you are judging yourself.. in which case, do whatever makes you proud of yourself as to not judge yourself negatively)
(everything in moderation, it 's not "too much" without the "too" part)

Counter the negative effects you experience( ie: Dehydration --> drink water)
and keep yourself in check (ie: don't give yourself poisoning, do stupid shit, give your body a chance to recover between drinking)

PS : You keep finding new and interesting ways to have random things in common with me.. my RL last name has one of the meanings "of the forest" lol