magic carp
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 31, 2002
- Messages
- 37
Why am I drifting,
With no destination?
Yeah, of course I’m happy, but potentially so much more.
To brighten your day brings meaning to mine
For a minute…
And then that fades out, and I can see you, but I am in shadow.
And I go home alone, leaving you and your rectified happiness to yourselves.
And I owe this world so much, my head knows that, but my hearts just not in it.
It never really has been.
So I happily drift,
With no destination.
In and out of doors that others have always opened for me,
Expecting nothing in return.
The doors I have needed have always been open to me
And I don’t know how to turn a handle.
I’m scared that when something needing even the smallest amount of effort from me arrives, not only will I not want to try (as that is my nature) but I won’t know how.
Oh now, look, that day’s arrived.
I tried banging my head, but its not opening.
Maybe someone will get it for me, if I just stand here long enough…
With no destination?
Yeah, of course I’m happy, but potentially so much more.
To brighten your day brings meaning to mine
For a minute…
And then that fades out, and I can see you, but I am in shadow.
And I go home alone, leaving you and your rectified happiness to yourselves.
And I owe this world so much, my head knows that, but my hearts just not in it.
It never really has been.
So I happily drift,
With no destination.
In and out of doors that others have always opened for me,
Expecting nothing in return.
The doors I have needed have always been open to me
And I don’t know how to turn a handle.
I’m scared that when something needing even the smallest amount of effort from me arrives, not only will I not want to try (as that is my nature) but I won’t know how.
Oh now, look, that day’s arrived.
I tried banging my head, but its not opening.
Maybe someone will get it for me, if I just stand here long enough…
