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Mental Health Dreams about pills - Will they ever stop?

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ReggieTheCat

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Hey Bluelight. For the last 5 years I've had a pretty serious addiction to zopiclone and various benzos. I've also binged on high doses of opiates - mostly hydromorphone and oxy. I'm almost off of the zopiclone and am not taking opiates as regularly anymore. Since I've been cutting down in the last year and a half (zopiclone taper took forever with my dose), I've been experiencing re-occurring dreams involving pills. They happen nearly every night. They usually involve me stressing out trying to scout out pills, then I do a line or take a bunch and then wake up pissed off. I know some of you have had experiences with this, but did they EVER stop?!?! They drive me crazy and they make my cravings way worse. I have no idea how to even go about stopping them, and I'm not sure I can.

What's your experience? Did they ever go away? What do you do to cope?
 
My advice:

It will go away with time, but using your mental energy is also going to be useful.

I would think about more enjoyable things right before going to sleep (sex for instance), and see if this helps shift gears for the kind of dreams you're having.

The less you think about the past, the better.

Have a support network, people you can talk to in case you wake up and have a dream and need to talk about it. You can always post here too. :)
 
In my using dreams I never am able to use the substance, something always happens like the it leaks out, or I drop the it, or something is spilled on it rite before use after i have watched every one else get their turn, or my personal antifavorite:X in my dream the popo barge in rite as i'm about to use and cuff me up before i can and taunt me. Addiction is nothing more than different parts of your brain, the cerebral cortex of your frontal lobe (kinda the location of your conscious thought and the part that has decided that we will limit or stop taking the substance) and the limbic system (driver.. controls sex drive, the thirst drive, emotions, and the drive for whatever substances you have now programmed in) are at war. The cortex says hell no we are not using it is really hard to control and destroys our life while the limbic system is incapable of thought and just says USE, it is necessary for the continuation of life just like everything else I make you do.. You need to USE, eat, fuck, sleep, and i will mess with you if you try not to... i will make you not sleep, I will make you sick, i will make you irritable, I will send dreams to make you want to USE, that's rite i will send creations that will make you Jones so you will go out and use.. The limbic system against the cerebral cortex, one of the arguments i have to babysit in my head.. all day and sometimes at night too.

dreams get better the longer you are consistently off a substance but you may have one at any point for the rest of your life, I would try and change your emotional reaction upon waking to something besides anger. They should decrease in frequency and power the longer you get clean from problematic substances, the using dreams are associated with clear triggers and sometimes come out of the
blue. Since you are having allot of them, put a nicotine patch on before bed and kick those into high gear, ha you might even really get to use. Anyway, hope they get better, mine seem to be gone 4 a long time now.
 
Yes it will become less frequent. After getting clean I had tons of using dreams. In fact I had this reoccurring dream when i first got clean that I was swimming in an ocean if OC 80's, I'd wake up pissed that the ocean was gone but one time i thought, "at least I still got my handful..." turns out I didn't even get the handful.

But after 3 or 4 months they decreased at least 60%.

Hang in there man!
 
neversickanymore said:
In my using dreams I never am able to use the substance, something always happens like the it leaks out, or I drop the it, or something is spilled on it rite before use after i have watched every one else get their turn, or my personal antifavorite:X in my dream the popo barge in rite as i'm about to use and cuff me up before i can and taunt me.
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You've got that bro! I'm glad mine have gone away, for now.

OP they go away when you spend some time being 100% committed to being clean, it can take a few weeks to months.
 
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God those dreams are the fucking worst. I'll like wake up thinking I have something stashed from the dream but of course I never do. I have them about my exes too, waking up sure I still love them. It's ridiculou and I just have to distract myself when I wake up. If possible go back to sleep. I wish I could stay they stop for good, but they will decrease a lot and evetually won't hurt as much.
 
I also have dreams like this ALL the time, had one last night and i woke up so annoyed because it was so real too, i payed a dollar a pop for a ziplock bag full of Roxi 30's mixed with xanax bars and REAL OC 80's and i'm talking about a huge freezer size ziplock bag, i had so many i was just dropping them everywhere... anyway i noticed a pattern with these dreams, most of the time i would be thinking about pills or what not befor going to sleep that night, or i would be on the internet looking at pills or something of the nature none the less it always had something to do with pills befor i went to sleep.

when i have pills i never have these dreams.... but damn they piss me off, especially when i wake up sick and shit.
 
omg, I hate having these kind of dreams. It has been so long, like decades, since I have iv'd any coke but I still have occasional dreams about it. Fk's up the whole next day or two, starts fiend schemes in my wee brain, and totally pisses me off when in the dream cuz I can never complete the act, so to speak :X
-izzy
 
I had a dream about getting high just a couple days ago. They're always the same.
Something always prevents me from completing the act and I wake pissed off.
 
you'll have to drastically change your thought process and life in general and they will become less frequent over time if not go away completely
 
The longer you go without using the drugs the less frequent the dreams get. When you have freshly quit or are in the process of quitting (tapering, reducing your use, etc) is when they are the worst and happen the most. There are some good suggestions already in this thread about how to deal with them or try to decrease them.
 
I just kicked pills, again for the hundredth time, and dream of the goddamn things every nite. I was actually wondering if I were the only one and I saw this post and felt better. It's maddening to wake up and be like "Hey wheres the pills I scored last night" LOL..then realize it was a dream. Damn. The dreams do go away, though. I did have a dream where I actually took the pills, but didn't get high. I have had dreams of tripping on DMT, and being high on pot, though. Never had a dream-high on opiates for some odd reason.
 
Thanks for the replies guys. I'm looking forward to the day when I'm not constantly tricked and imprisoned by my subconscious. These dreams feel very real to me. In fact, I had one last night where I went to a pharmacy and the pharmacist had to go to the back room to fill my script for some reason... I jumped over the counted and dumped a bottle of oxy's and zopiclone into my pocket. Woke up this morning thinking 'fuck yeah! i don't have to worry about picking up for a while'. Then came the dreaded OH FUCK moment. Always good to know I'm not the only one battling this bullshit.
 
Every time I stop using Ketamine on a habitual basis, I have dreams about large quantities of it most nights for a while afterwards, mostly in which something happens to stop me from taking it, or where taking it has no effect (obviously) - funny that this is similar to other peoples' comments here! But they do decrease in frequency and they become less troubling over time. I'm hoping one day I will have lasted long enough in between my usage patterns that they will become benign or disappear. All the best to you in your recovery friend.

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LOL at the "fuck yeah!" after the dream. I get that all the time, in fact it happened this morning. I thought I had an ounce in my pocket, I woke up in a great mood.
 
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