Dreaming about Heroin...

[Estimated Prophet]

ive been clean from heroin for 21 days now but i keep having reoccurring dreams where i am using it and then feel really bad that I have relapsed until I wake up... has anyone else experienced this? how long did it go on for?

 

[spinchick]

has anyone else experienced this? how long did it go on for?

When I quit doing heroin I would have the MOST intense dreams, I would be banging it and I could feel the rush, that would be what woke me up. I still get them...but REALLY rarely. In the beginning I got them.....a few times a week maybe. Good luck to you.

 

[Estimated Prophet]

i feel the rush in my dream and then go into instant regret of gettin high and ruining my sobriety... then i wake up. crazy.

i hope it doesnt go on too long

 

[thedawn]

oh jesus,I remember this.
unfortunately there are no quick fixes,it will take a while.
I struggled with dope dreams for years after quitting OC's and dope.
it's all part of the disease,your disease wants you dead.
to really FIGHT is gonna be key if you want to stay sober.
hit the meetings and whatnot.
the obsession is 24/7 in the beginning but it gets better.
so much better so that it's worth it.
soldier on and a new life awaits you on the other side.
peace.

 

[Estimated Prophet]

i go to smart recovery meetings and that seems to help me some.... what helps the most is that a truly dont want my old life back... im sick and tired for being sick and tired all the time cause of drugs.

odd tho cause ive been addicted to benzos 6 years longer than dope and i never dream about xanax

 

[lman_15]

I am coming up on 8 months clean and I had those dream for a while. I probably had them for 6 months but the intensity and occurrence dropped the more clean time I had. Think about it in a positive way man if you are dreaming of getting high but have a sense of regret when you do and are feeling shitty for ruining your recovery at least your recovery is at the forefront of your consciousness.

 

[Estimated Prophet]

yeah that is very true... i dont wake up wanting to use at all, and even in my dream i feel bad.... so i guess even in my subconscious mind i wanna be sober

 

[dopemegently]

That's a very powerful sign you want to be clean; def a good thing. I also have terrible re-occurring dreams; I go to inject a drug, but my veins are grotesquely mutated. When I wake up, I feel an overwhelming sense of disgust.

 

[pinpoint]

Every addict gets these dreams when they're kicking. I for one never ever seem to get past the procurement & preparation part - I'm always about to push the plunger and something happens, cops rush in, parents knock, I wake up, etc. It has a profound effect on my psyche for the first 5 minutes after it's over, but then I end up relieved that it was all just a dream. It's amazing that the unconscious mind can actually cause some to 'feel' a rush whilst in the dream, however they're almost always woken up after a few seconds.

If we could only find a way to lucidly sustain that feeling while dreaming! Ah I'd end up like Di Caprio in Inception .. forever washed up on the shores of my own consciousness..

 

[dopemegently]

It's funny you should say that; before I became an addict, I was in the "contemplation phase", and I would dream about smoking crack cocaine, and in the dream, I would actualy get high. It's like my brain gave me a rush of serotonin in my dream, that's my only explanation for it; and this was before I'd even tried the drug for the first time!

It goes to show this addiction thing is a very complex issue. It may sound absurd, but sometimes I think I was destined to become an addict. I remember around the age of 17, it felt as if I was magneticaly drawn to drugs, for no reason I could explain; I would feel a strong attraction to things like needles and pipes, I would walk around the known drug areas. I've been thinking a lot of how my life turned out the way it did, and I struggle for answers sometimes.