I've given up the stuff for good. Everything I had that reminds me of that past life has been thrown away-well almost everything has been thrown away- though stray reminders still haunt me. When I look back at my past I don't know if it was fun I was having or if the drugs told me I was having fun, but it was the most memorable time of my life. I have been away for so long that I had to reset the console and reboot myself. Now that I have this dream in all of its entirety I find myself drowning in swimming pools full of liquor. Oh well, I guess it's never truly over until a new beginning finds you.