Shady Kaity
Bluelighter
I had a dream this morning while taking a half hour nap (can you even dream while sleeping for such a short time? it was a very light sleep as well, as I vaguely recall what was going on around me at some points. Going for a sleep study tomorrow morning BTW).
In the dream, I dont remember what was going on beforehand, but my bf came out of nowhere and was all dressed up in a fishtail tuxedo, very fancy like, which is not like him not style wise at least. Maybe some aspects of his personality can be identified with the uptightness of the outfit. and he took me to a very fancy expensive brunch at a high class hotel. I was in no way shape or form prepared for such an ocassion as I was in old jeans and a tee shirt as I normally would be and quite taken aback by everything going on and confused. anywhere we get there, and theres a huge baroque style old spiral staircase with red carpet. we of course start walking up from the bottom. and I have lupus in real life which affects my joints and in the dream i was wondering why hed chose specifically a table so far up because he knows its hard on me to do that amount on walking. and as we are walking he some how is way ahead of me and im doing my best to keep up with him and not get lost. i eventually lose sight of him and as i walk further up the stairs get older and more worn and such and then the carpet starts falling out from under me back down the entire stair well and the railings were no longer there so i was trying not to slip off the edge or fall back down with the carpet. I got safely to a landing way where a i guess butler or waiter escorted me to the table he was waiting for me at.
during the whole time it was basically completely silent, other than hearing my footsteps or when the stairs starting falling out from under me. then when i get to the table, it was so quiet we couldnt even whisper to eacch other otherwise everyone would stop what they were doing and very creepily stare at me with big wide eyes. I tried to, and thats what happened. Some lady spoke to me briefly though, trying to offer me her earrings? which i declined respectfully saying no i couldnt but thank you. and her faced just dropped to that scary wide eyed face and i said i mean how could i they compliment your shirt so well, with that metallic blue... and then she smiled again and resumed to her own business. and then silence returned. and I woke up.
I was generally uneasy for most part of the dream. except when i was sitting with my bf and i first tried to make conversation, the quiet made me uncomfortable, so i tried making a whispered joke to him and within the first two words of my sentence i stopped because everyone stared. then i just felt completely uncomfortable. and the whole staircase thing made me really uneasy. and feeling out of place in the classy place. idk it was really strange...
anyway. I just was curious and looked up a little about staircases and such. found some info that makes a lil sense to me. then i looked up about what silence or quiet means in a dream. It said it could suggest repressed nervous shock - you might want to see a doctor. uhhhh what?? what the hell is repressed nervous shock? I tried looking that up, but all i could really put together from it was close to PTSD like. which I do have PTSD.
I've never had a basically silent dream like that before, it was very unsettling, and then even more unsettling to find information like that!
Any input on repressed nervous shock? and anyones input on their own interpretation of my dream is very welcomed.
"If i ever wanted to understand myself, I'd have to talk to someone else." - Gnarls barkley lyrics. I feel these lyrics greatly apply to me, so hearing others thoughts and opinions gives me insight to my ownself, so feel free to psychoanalyze if you wish!
thanks everyone...
In the dream, I dont remember what was going on beforehand, but my bf came out of nowhere and was all dressed up in a fishtail tuxedo, very fancy like, which is not like him not style wise at least. Maybe some aspects of his personality can be identified with the uptightness of the outfit. and he took me to a very fancy expensive brunch at a high class hotel. I was in no way shape or form prepared for such an ocassion as I was in old jeans and a tee shirt as I normally would be and quite taken aback by everything going on and confused. anywhere we get there, and theres a huge baroque style old spiral staircase with red carpet. we of course start walking up from the bottom. and I have lupus in real life which affects my joints and in the dream i was wondering why hed chose specifically a table so far up because he knows its hard on me to do that amount on walking. and as we are walking he some how is way ahead of me and im doing my best to keep up with him and not get lost. i eventually lose sight of him and as i walk further up the stairs get older and more worn and such and then the carpet starts falling out from under me back down the entire stair well and the railings were no longer there so i was trying not to slip off the edge or fall back down with the carpet. I got safely to a landing way where a i guess butler or waiter escorted me to the table he was waiting for me at.
during the whole time it was basically completely silent, other than hearing my footsteps or when the stairs starting falling out from under me. then when i get to the table, it was so quiet we couldnt even whisper to eacch other otherwise everyone would stop what they were doing and very creepily stare at me with big wide eyes. I tried to, and thats what happened. Some lady spoke to me briefly though, trying to offer me her earrings? which i declined respectfully saying no i couldnt but thank you. and her faced just dropped to that scary wide eyed face and i said i mean how could i they compliment your shirt so well, with that metallic blue... and then she smiled again and resumed to her own business. and then silence returned. and I woke up.
I was generally uneasy for most part of the dream. except when i was sitting with my bf and i first tried to make conversation, the quiet made me uncomfortable, so i tried making a whispered joke to him and within the first two words of my sentence i stopped because everyone stared. then i just felt completely uncomfortable. and the whole staircase thing made me really uneasy. and feeling out of place in the classy place. idk it was really strange...
anyway. I just was curious and looked up a little about staircases and such. found some info that makes a lil sense to me. then i looked up about what silence or quiet means in a dream. It said it could suggest repressed nervous shock - you might want to see a doctor. uhhhh what?? what the hell is repressed nervous shock? I tried looking that up, but all i could really put together from it was close to PTSD like. which I do have PTSD.
I've never had a basically silent dream like that before, it was very unsettling, and then even more unsettling to find information like that!
Any input on repressed nervous shock? and anyones input on their own interpretation of my dream is very welcomed.
"If i ever wanted to understand myself, I'd have to talk to someone else." - Gnarls barkley lyrics. I feel these lyrics greatly apply to me, so hearing others thoughts and opinions gives me insight to my ownself, so feel free to psychoanalyze if you wish!
thanks everyone...
