when i do sleep, i always get very lucid dreams..here is one of them:
i snort some substance at my house, and i go absolutely insane. Im thrown in what looks like a military bunker but its really a fucked up mental instituation. All the time this is going on, i am always under the influence of this PCP-like drug. I feel no pain, no emotions, nothing. Everything looks black and white, and my vision is very bouncy.
The mental institute im in has blood all over the walls, and i am chained to a wall with another person in the room eating their arm (blood is going everywhere) and they immediatly pull out some sharp object and stab me in the chest. I can feel the coldness of whatever im getting stabbed with, but no pain or anything. There seems to be no doctors around, and when they are there they just perform "scientific experments" on the people. Everybody around me is somehow bleeding profusely and doing something wrong.
After getting stabbed my rommate leaves the room and my chain is somehow gone. I walk into the hallway and see police officers shooting some of the people in the institute with machine guns for fun. They laugh about it then shoot somebody else. Just hammer the body of the 'victim' with hundreds of shots. Brain matter etc is always on the floor, along with piss and shit.
After staring at the police officers they turn around and ask wtf im staring at, i am unable to reply (because of this 'drug') and then they shoot me a few times but i feel no pain, just again something cold go in my body.
After all this shit, i somehow manage to grab one of their guns and get out of the place..i am outside trying to fun but i keep fallin and have a bad loss of motor control, so im not moving fast. There are huge barbwired fences, rain, and spotlights on huge towers all over the place. I find a hole in the barbwired fence and go thru, i start getting shot at and i somehow manage to kill one of the shooters with the gun i had. I end up losing a lot of blood and getting shot to death and die.
-Well thats the dream, i wake up when i die. That was the latest one, but it reoccurs all the time, sometimes a little different, sometimes like that. I can play it all thru my head now..but somehow its a 8 hour dream, or compacted into 2 hours..but thats how it happens. Any ideas of what that means? It doesnt scare me, not when i wake up, not when i think about it. Its just wierd..and horribly disgusting to think of. Some insight would really be appreciated cause it happens so often and it HAS to mean something.
lasthurrah19- my dreams seem like yours. IRL, i havent gone thru trauma, but i have been shot and am in chronic pain.