kevlar
Bluelighter
This morning, after a night of conversation with close friends whilst under the influence of cocaine, my wife and myself decided to finish off our night with a 100 mg insuffulated dose of DPT.
I have had DPT experiences at the 100 mg level 4 times before. My wife,3 times before. Other psychedelic experince includes several various tryptamines and dissasociatives to include the following: AMT, 5-Meo-Dipt, psilocybin, LSD, Ketamine, and DXM. My wifes exerience includes all the above minus Ketamine.
I am 20 years of age weighs 148 lbs., My wife is 19 years of age and weighs 135 lbs.
Strangely though, we have only had noticable changed in perception with DPT when combining it with cocaine. These changes were usually both spiritual and meaningful...until today.
T+00 We took our doses around 7 Am on a Saturday morning. One small line of cocaine up the right nostril immediately followed by 50 mg of DPT. We waited aprox. 5-10 minutes then repeated with another line of coke and another 50 mg of DPT.
T+15m First effects began about 15 minutes after second dosage, strong visual stimulation combined with accelerated thought procceses soon ensued.
T+40m The intensity has begun to build to a point of unbelief for not only myself but also my wife. She goes to the bathroom and vomits. She comes out of the bathroom with tears in her eyes and cuddles in my arms. I say to her " I know..it is a little intense isnt it. Im sorry."
T+50m I become overcome with naseau and go to the bathroom. I lay my head on the toilet and wait. Im not sure what I was waiting for at the time,but I was soon vomiting uncontrollably.
As this was happening, a delusion started to manifest itself in my mind that I was losing control and the drug was taking over.
T+55m I pull myself off of the toilet and manage to shake myself free of the looming delusion. I am fighting the fight of my life to retain my wits and keep my conscious mind in control of things.
T+1h Nausea once more overcomes me and I am once again on the toilet vomiting. This time the delusion take control of my conscience and obliterates all sense of self and reality. But it isnt like any time of ego loss that I have eperienced before. Most ego loss that I have experienced has been spritual and has led to great introspection. This just led to primal states of fear and lust.
T+1h-rest of trip I am struggling to gain contorl of my mind again as the drug has completely taken over...Overwelming thoughts and sensations and emotions swirl around in a reality that is not my own. It is the drugs...and I know it is the drugs in a subliminal way...but that rational thought is soon replaced by many, many lucid and obscene thoughts. I cycle in and out of various states of consciousness. Going fromm one reality to another uncontrollably. Where I was there was no law, no reasoning...nothing, except fear.
I vaugely remember several various mental states or personalities that would cycle themselves throughout this whole experience, my wife called them personalities. She says that she could distinctly point out several personalities and could make contact and conversation with them and that she kept trying to bring out the "right me".
After what seemed like an eternity of trying to ground myself from wherever I was was, I slowly started to sense a solid base, something to ground myself on. My wife was trying to explain to me what happened,but she wasnt totally coherent yet either. Slowly we started to piece together what had happened to me and began to put the experience into words. Even as I write this, there is still no way to describe how I/my personalities felt as they cycled in/out/and throughout this delusional reality. The only way I can describe it is as a total psycotic state.
[ 02 June 2002: Message edited by: kevlar ]
I have had DPT experiences at the 100 mg level 4 times before. My wife,3 times before. Other psychedelic experince includes several various tryptamines and dissasociatives to include the following: AMT, 5-Meo-Dipt, psilocybin, LSD, Ketamine, and DXM. My wifes exerience includes all the above minus Ketamine.
I am 20 years of age weighs 148 lbs., My wife is 19 years of age and weighs 135 lbs.
Strangely though, we have only had noticable changed in perception with DPT when combining it with cocaine. These changes were usually both spiritual and meaningful...until today.
T+00 We took our doses around 7 Am on a Saturday morning. One small line of cocaine up the right nostril immediately followed by 50 mg of DPT. We waited aprox. 5-10 minutes then repeated with another line of coke and another 50 mg of DPT.
T+15m First effects began about 15 minutes after second dosage, strong visual stimulation combined with accelerated thought procceses soon ensued.
T+40m The intensity has begun to build to a point of unbelief for not only myself but also my wife. She goes to the bathroom and vomits. She comes out of the bathroom with tears in her eyes and cuddles in my arms. I say to her " I know..it is a little intense isnt it. Im sorry."
T+50m I become overcome with naseau and go to the bathroom. I lay my head on the toilet and wait. Im not sure what I was waiting for at the time,but I was soon vomiting uncontrollably.
As this was happening, a delusion started to manifest itself in my mind that I was losing control and the drug was taking over.
T+55m I pull myself off of the toilet and manage to shake myself free of the looming delusion. I am fighting the fight of my life to retain my wits and keep my conscious mind in control of things.
T+1h Nausea once more overcomes me and I am once again on the toilet vomiting. This time the delusion take control of my conscience and obliterates all sense of self and reality. But it isnt like any time of ego loss that I have eperienced before. Most ego loss that I have experienced has been spritual and has led to great introspection. This just led to primal states of fear and lust.
T+1h-rest of trip I am struggling to gain contorl of my mind again as the drug has completely taken over...Overwelming thoughts and sensations and emotions swirl around in a reality that is not my own. It is the drugs...and I know it is the drugs in a subliminal way...but that rational thought is soon replaced by many, many lucid and obscene thoughts. I cycle in and out of various states of consciousness. Going fromm one reality to another uncontrollably. Where I was there was no law, no reasoning...nothing, except fear.
I vaugely remember several various mental states or personalities that would cycle themselves throughout this whole experience, my wife called them personalities. She says that she could distinctly point out several personalities and could make contact and conversation with them and that she kept trying to bring out the "right me".
After what seemed like an eternity of trying to ground myself from wherever I was was, I slowly started to sense a solid base, something to ground myself on. My wife was trying to explain to me what happened,but she wasnt totally coherent yet either. Slowly we started to piece together what had happened to me and began to put the experience into words. Even as I write this, there is still no way to describe how I/my personalities felt as they cycled in/out/and throughout this delusional reality. The only way I can describe it is as a total psycotic state.
[ 02 June 2002: Message edited by: kevlar ]
