Its funny how quickly things can go from good to bad so quickly.
To start at the begining, Was driving to the bottle shop with a friend. my car had smashed tail lights and i was driving at night (stupid i know) and my car got defected. With that a previous incident ment i couldnt get it roadworthy for several months (still waiting) this ment i could no longer get to work. no work means no money means cant pay rent. While all this was going on, me and my fiancée weren't doing so great. After telling my boss i have to quit, he essentialy fired me. I decided without a car or a job it would be best to move back home to find my parents with practically less money than i have. I now live an hour and a half away from were i was living so me and my now ex-fiancée decided it would be best to seperate.
Now im broke and back in the place i had to leave because i became ensumed by drugs, addiction and the whole drug scene.
Falling back into an old lifestyle is all too easy.
The need for a high is too hard to fight at this point in time.
Ive been back just over a week anvd it has been filled with weed and alcohol.
But today I really fell back in the hole. the oppertunity to smoke meth presented itself and i took it. not that i went in search if it, it just so happens and old friend is now one of the biggers players in the weed and ice game for my area. so now i have access to it at all times. This scares me but excites me.
Hopefully i dont fall into another addiction.
gah, feels good to get that off my chest.
To start at the begining, Was driving to the bottle shop with a friend. my car had smashed tail lights and i was driving at night (stupid i know) and my car got defected. With that a previous incident ment i couldnt get it roadworthy for several months (still waiting) this ment i could no longer get to work. no work means no money means cant pay rent. While all this was going on, me and my fiancée weren't doing so great. After telling my boss i have to quit, he essentialy fired me. I decided without a car or a job it would be best to move back home to find my parents with practically less money than i have. I now live an hour and a half away from were i was living so me and my now ex-fiancée decided it would be best to seperate.
Now im broke and back in the place i had to leave because i became ensumed by drugs, addiction and the whole drug scene.
Falling back into an old lifestyle is all too easy.
The need for a high is too hard to fight at this point in time.
Ive been back just over a week anvd it has been filled with weed and alcohol.
But today I really fell back in the hole. the oppertunity to smoke meth presented itself and i took it. not that i went in search if it, it just so happens and old friend is now one of the biggers players in the weed and ice game for my area. so now i have access to it at all times. This scares me but excites me.
Hopefully i dont fall into another addiction.
gah, feels good to get that off my chest.
