I have gone through several interesting & surprising things today. After the other night when I was ready to meet the maker, I thought I should start writing in a journal again, in some hopes to not reach that point again. Finally deciding to start, I can't find any paper in the whole fucking house. So I found here to let everything out.
I was feeling the weight of the world tonight. I took a walk through my neighboorhood, I hate it here. Its so fucking quiet & you never see anyone. Wait.. I think I actually find that to be one of the better things about this new place: no one bugs you. I walk around every night to smoke some cigs & I never see anyone. On the off chance I do come by someone, they don't bother me at all.
So I went walking out towards the baseball field. I was too lost in thought to turn on my iPod so I walked quietly in the dark. The gate to the field was locked & I'd never been here during the day, so I didn't even know what the place looked like. But I walked up on top of the hill behind all the plants & followed the fence. I found some bleachers, so I sat there. The whole time I was freaking out that someone would see me & think "What the fuck is that crazy girl doing on top of the hill?" It was making me feel so awkward. I hadn't even smoked yet, only cigarettes.
Finally, I did blaze. Blue Dream. My first time ever smoking this shit. See, I found my dads stash the other day. I took some of his Venom. That shit was pretty good. Then I went back to get some more (after smoking it all with this group of black guys... long fucking story) & I found Blue Dream too. I got some of both then ate it at the movies with a "friend." We barely felt the effects, didn't have nearly enough. Then the next day I smoked a bowl; thought it was the Blue Dream, but tonight I realized it was the Venom, or some Purple Kush I found too.
But after the Blue Dream, walking home was a trip. I almost ate shit like twice. Haha. The ground was all soft from the recent rains. I think I have a cut on my leg from hitting a sprinkler. Ouch! Ha. Then I was walking on the sidewalk back to the condo & I swear that shit looked like some Alice in Wonderland shit. The sidewalks are all swirvy & shit, so it looked crazy. There are plants & floor lights all over the place, it looked so crazy.
Then I saw like for rabits run infront of me. The last one stopped & stared at me. I was just lookin at him for the longest time. I bet the life of an animal is so amazing. They don't have to deal with half the shit humans go through. Their lives couldn't possibly be complicated. They don't live incredibly long & they are so simple minded. Shit, what if I only think they are, but some Mr. Foxx shit is real & they have little societies & ways to comunicate with eachother. They are probably way smarter than they let on. Maybe it's like a defensive way to survive. Like if you are a stupid, simple & meaningless little animal then there is no reason to bother you & run tests on you & shit. So they hide their intelligance.
I wouldn't be surprised if people go extinct & the animals survive & make a more advanced society than ours. That'd be so fucking crazy!
I was feeling the weight of the world tonight. I took a walk through my neighboorhood, I hate it here. Its so fucking quiet & you never see anyone. Wait.. I think I actually find that to be one of the better things about this new place: no one bugs you. I walk around every night to smoke some cigs & I never see anyone. On the off chance I do come by someone, they don't bother me at all.
So I went walking out towards the baseball field. I was too lost in thought to turn on my iPod so I walked quietly in the dark. The gate to the field was locked & I'd never been here during the day, so I didn't even know what the place looked like. But I walked up on top of the hill behind all the plants & followed the fence. I found some bleachers, so I sat there. The whole time I was freaking out that someone would see me & think "What the fuck is that crazy girl doing on top of the hill?" It was making me feel so awkward. I hadn't even smoked yet, only cigarettes.
Finally, I did blaze. Blue Dream. My first time ever smoking this shit. See, I found my dads stash the other day. I took some of his Venom. That shit was pretty good. Then I went back to get some more (after smoking it all with this group of black guys... long fucking story) & I found Blue Dream too. I got some of both then ate it at the movies with a "friend." We barely felt the effects, didn't have nearly enough. Then the next day I smoked a bowl; thought it was the Blue Dream, but tonight I realized it was the Venom, or some Purple Kush I found too.
But after the Blue Dream, walking home was a trip. I almost ate shit like twice. Haha. The ground was all soft from the recent rains. I think I have a cut on my leg from hitting a sprinkler. Ouch! Ha. Then I was walking on the sidewalk back to the condo & I swear that shit looked like some Alice in Wonderland shit. The sidewalks are all swirvy & shit, so it looked crazy. There are plants & floor lights all over the place, it looked so crazy.
Then I saw like for rabits run infront of me. The last one stopped & stared at me. I was just lookin at him for the longest time. I bet the life of an animal is so amazing. They don't have to deal with half the shit humans go through. Their lives couldn't possibly be complicated. They don't live incredibly long & they are so simple minded. Shit, what if I only think they are, but some Mr. Foxx shit is real & they have little societies & ways to comunicate with eachother. They are probably way smarter than they let on. Maybe it's like a defensive way to survive. Like if you are a stupid, simple & meaningless little animal then there is no reason to bother you & run tests on you & shit. So they hide their intelligance.
I wouldn't be surprised if people go extinct & the animals survive & make a more advanced society than ours. That'd be so fucking crazy!
