sunshine1964
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 17, 2012
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Hello there, I've been reading this message board for a while now and have always found it to be very helpful so I figured it was time to create an account and post.
I could really use some help. I've been doing heroin for over a year now. Daily for just about a year. I started shooting up in August, got freaked out and signed myself into detox a week later. I did my time in detox, all the while feeling miserable and as the hours went on, I became more and more depressed. When my detox was over and I was released I immediately went and bought a bag. Since then, I have cut down my use and have gone a week to 10 days at a time without partying (had methadone to help with the withdrawls)
I think alot of my problem is my issues with depression and just a feeling that I have no reason to live. Somehow, within the past few weeks I've been able to (with the help of my fiance) shake those feelings. We've been talking seriously about the future and our plans and goals. Before they seemed far fetched and unreachable. But now that the dark cloud has lifted I really want to start working on them.
So, here I am posting....I've never tried to detox totally alone, but I've been planning on this for a few weeks knowing that my fiance would be away for the weekend. I just finished up what I had, so I know that by morning I'm going to feel like crap but I'm hoping that since I dont have anyone to complain to that maybe I wont focus on that. And without him here, maybe I wont be such a big baby and will just deal with it. I'm also not in walking distance to town, so it would take a bit of planning to actually get my hands on something.
If I can get through the next few days and be through most of the major withdrawls when he gets back home it will be the best gift I can give him and myself. I've been trying to focus on our plans for the future with hopes that it will be enough to get me through.
Does anyone have any advice or suggestions on how to get thru the withdrawls and how to get thru the next few days as easy and fast as possible?
Thanks so much for your help
I could really use some help. I've been doing heroin for over a year now. Daily for just about a year. I started shooting up in August, got freaked out and signed myself into detox a week later. I did my time in detox, all the while feeling miserable and as the hours went on, I became more and more depressed. When my detox was over and I was released I immediately went and bought a bag. Since then, I have cut down my use and have gone a week to 10 days at a time without partying (had methadone to help with the withdrawls)
I think alot of my problem is my issues with depression and just a feeling that I have no reason to live. Somehow, within the past few weeks I've been able to (with the help of my fiance) shake those feelings. We've been talking seriously about the future and our plans and goals. Before they seemed far fetched and unreachable. But now that the dark cloud has lifted I really want to start working on them.
So, here I am posting....I've never tried to detox totally alone, but I've been planning on this for a few weeks knowing that my fiance would be away for the weekend. I just finished up what I had, so I know that by morning I'm going to feel like crap but I'm hoping that since I dont have anyone to complain to that maybe I wont focus on that. And without him here, maybe I wont be such a big baby and will just deal with it. I'm also not in walking distance to town, so it would take a bit of planning to actually get my hands on something.
If I can get through the next few days and be through most of the major withdrawls when he gets back home it will be the best gift I can give him and myself. I've been trying to focus on our plans for the future with hopes that it will be enough to get me through.
Does anyone have any advice or suggestions on how to get thru the withdrawls and how to get thru the next few days as easy and fast as possible?
Thanks so much for your help