shady4091
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 21, 2010
- Messages
- 743
In no way am I intending to romanticize addiction here but I've come to a certain conclusion this past few days. I see a lot of topics regarding depression, how soulless one feels, and how they're never going to be "normal" again. The thing is, that "normal" is a very relative term, so is happiness. Who is to really say what "normal" is anyway? 9-5 job, bacon and eggs every morning, prime time television every night? I guess...
The question a lot of recovering addicts ask themselves is, "was I happier before I ever touched drugs?". I think a lot of people would say yes, but why? Is it because you lost some friends/family in-between? Because you did some shameful things to fulfill your addiction? Because you feel like you'll never be able to stop thinking about it? It's true that our thought process may never be the same as it was before we used drugs, but I don't think this is a bad thing. We just tend to focus on the wrong elements. We don't think about the sheer strength we exhibit to conquer addiction, the extreme willpower it takes to stay clean and although we may falter from time to time, we ALWAYS get back up, dust ourselves off and get right back at it. If that's not determination, I don't know what is. There's the unyielding compassion that we have for one another, to help each other because we know what it's like. We've experienced pain and suffering that no one else knows even exists. But we're far from broken. On the contrary, we're tough as fuck.
Stop trying to get back to "normal" because "normal" was never really our thing anyway. I say branch out on a new horizon, and don't EVER forget what we went through.
Maybe this is just some self-delusional bullshit that I'm saying to justify what I've been through, but in reality, I feel stronger than ever.
The question a lot of recovering addicts ask themselves is, "was I happier before I ever touched drugs?". I think a lot of people would say yes, but why? Is it because you lost some friends/family in-between? Because you did some shameful things to fulfill your addiction? Because you feel like you'll never be able to stop thinking about it? It's true that our thought process may never be the same as it was before we used drugs, but I don't think this is a bad thing. We just tend to focus on the wrong elements. We don't think about the sheer strength we exhibit to conquer addiction, the extreme willpower it takes to stay clean and although we may falter from time to time, we ALWAYS get back up, dust ourselves off and get right back at it. If that's not determination, I don't know what is. There's the unyielding compassion that we have for one another, to help each other because we know what it's like. We've experienced pain and suffering that no one else knows even exists. But we're far from broken. On the contrary, we're tough as fuck.
Stop trying to get back to "normal" because "normal" was never really our thing anyway. I say branch out on a new horizon, and don't EVER forget what we went through.
Maybe this is just some self-delusional bullshit that I'm saying to justify what I've been through, but in reality, I feel stronger than ever.
Last edited: