Done lots of drugs, want to know if anyone else has some of my problems, advice?

[scooby79]

I'm not going to go into my drug history cause it's just stupid. Suffice it to say I've tried pretty much every illegal substance you can find on the street, and a good portion of the RC's out there. My week points were GHB, heroin, coke/crack (I find it disgusting now), MDMA (powder) or E's, and I loved LSD when you could actually find real LSD, and MJ (I really don't consider this a drug lol). But I used to do anything to get high, unfortunately.

My issue now is I have extreme anxiety. I just started on methadone for the third time (oxy and heroin abuse), I'm also prescribed escitalopram (which kills most of the RC scene), and clonazepam (2mg) and valium (20mg), and elavil for chronic daily headaches (had those before the drugs lol). I also had been prescribed seroquel, zoplicone, remeron, in the past (stopped now).

Sorry maybe blabbing too much. Anyway, my issue is the benzos don't do shit for me for anxiety. I had stopped taking them 3 months ago when I started heroin again. I started taking them again now but they don't do much. I've taken 50mg of valium and 3mg of clonazepam within 12 hours and barely felt tired. Barely relieved my anxiety. I don't want to go crazy with benzos cause they really do shit for me and they are really addictive (I've got enough problems there). I don't know if my tolerance is due to the GHB abuse or the heroin abuse? I think ghb because it acts on GABA but my doc says it was the heroin. But no one has a solution.

My solution is win a lottery and get all the heroin I can. But that only happens in my dreams, and then I wake up depressed lol (I'm sure it's happened to some of you out there, at least something like that)

That's my story, I'm temporarily off work (lead computer tech), but need to go back, I'm worried. I've gotten through work all these years with illegal drugs to help my anxiety but that's is becoming less and less of an option for me. And in the end the illegal stuff gets the better of you, or at least me

Advice, comments, would be appreciate

Thanks all and thank you for the site, I don't post much but I read a lot and it's helped me a lot, in some good and some bad ways lol

 

[MethedUp]

I know that opiate addiction and tolerance is a direct effect of use. Your body increases the amount of enzymes it produces and releases, in the case of opiate addiction by up to 30%. If your off heroin and taking the benzo's, the dose a Dr sees as sufficient.... Well, lol. Your body is going to have to like reset itself and adjust, down regulation, in which the number of enzymes and receptors will go down and hopefully your medication should start working.
when i got off about a year long Oxy binge a few years ago, i had EXTREME anxiety and OCD. wouldn't go out for more than like 2 hours at a time. I would never go somewhere i had never been. that type of stuff. got on zoloft and xanax and that helped. quit those on my own after a year, but that is NOT recommended. But I have been fine ever since.