So I've taken MDMA a couple of times, every time has been on my own at home with good music and it's always been awesome. One of my problems is though that I get so overwhelmed by the feeling that I always end up sending inapropriate texts or messages to people and get overly honest, admitting and telling things which I really shouldn't be talking about. To be honest, I get like this on quite a few drugs, anything that makes me happy, relaxed or overconfident but MDMA is without a doubt the worst. I know I am going to regret it whilst I'm writing it but I just can't stop myself. I can't imagine what crazy and inapropriate things I'd do if I took it with other people or in a public place. I know it's kind of part of the MDMA experience but I really do take it too far. Last night I took a pretty high dose (200+ mg) of good crystals and ended up writing a long message to someone and I've been lying in bed all day regretting it. I actually haven't felt the typical "comedown" I sometimes get but the immense regrett after doing something stupid is probably worse.
So is this normal? Is there any way to stop doing it, I enjoy MDMA too much to give it up and it's not a huge deal, it just really ruins the experience. I've got a reply to my message but am too scared to open it, I can't even bring myself to re-read what I wrote but I have an idea. Arghh
So is this normal? Is there any way to stop doing it, I enjoy MDMA too much to give it up and it's not a huge deal, it just really ruins the experience. I've got a reply to my message but am too scared to open it, I can't even bring myself to re-read what I wrote but I have an idea. Arghh